Going to remicade alone for the first time

[polarbearfans]

My husband has come to all my infusions... Today is the first day he cannot come because of work. I'm ok really, but I like that he comes and gets my blanket tucked the way I like and gets me drinks and food when he thinks I need them. The nurses would do all that, but I feel more comfortable with him, and sometimes I just get really aggitated with the nurses and really want them to leave me alone.

AND then a couple hours after, I have an important work call about a new job I am starting and I am usually asleep because the remicade makes me sooooo tired. Then next week I need 3 days off for a colonoscopy. Not starting off on the best note with all this medical, but at least it was all planned well in advance and I can hide some of it behind already approved vacation days.

I'm trying to keep positive, but sometimes this is all so frustrating.

[polarbearfans]

lol and I get the girl who is on her first day back from maternity leave... The iv hurts still even after repositioning and she def was out of practice putting it in. Ouch. And the girl doing my blood pressure is new, so she is actually doing it every 15 minutes where normally they only remember a few times.

Everyone is super nice as always, so nothing to complain about other than missing my husband

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This board is very slow... I have come to enjoy going to infusions alone. I like the time to read magazines. Sometimes it is still frustrating though. Remicade makes me super sleepy too!

[polarbearfans]

I don't mind the actual process but I am so tired after. It takes a day of napping for me to get back to feeling normal.

The board is super slow, but i guess because there is only so much to say... I'm just taking things one day at a time and trying to stay positive