Post by CallingAllAngels on Oct 1, 2014 17:25:28 GMT -5
My running buddy has been sick for a week and a half so I have no one to run with in the morning. I'm too scared to run in the morning by myself. I can either run on the treadmill at the Y or skip it. I don't want to do either of those. Blah.
It's still hot. "Feels like" 97 this afternoon according to my phone.
My husband is on his period. He's been SO crabby this week! Usually I despise traveling for work, but I'm almost relieved to have to get up at 4:30 tomorrow morning to waste 2 days in Dallas.
Annnnd now I feel like a BUM after reading that thom did 800 repeats on the mill.
Also...(here I go), October sucks. I hate it. It has too many bad memories/events. I'm already pissy. I don't know if I've got it in me to do 11 more weeks of marathon training, so I don't know how I'm going to BQ, or if I ever will. I don't know why I care so much. My middle daughter ran across the street at school today RIGHT IN FRONT OF A CAR because she didn't look before crossing, so she almost died right in front of me. She's 10 years old. My job this week SUCKS, I haven't had a single positive interaction with a student this week and it's Wednesday. I'm trying the ol' be grateful, but today needs to be OVER.
That all sounds like too much. I'm so glad your girl is ok!
I think you're allowed to re-evaluate Kiawah and just see what you want/need right now. If the thought of a hardcore training cycle is making you crazy, maybe this needs to be a fun race. Or maybe you just need a fresh dose of motivation. Either way, if your BQ attempt is better situated for next year (or the following) that's ok. The marathon will still be there waiting. I am absolutely NOT telling you to give up on your goal. But, patience and re-planning is ok.
Watching your journey and some others on H&F has really planted a tiny seed in a corner my brain to go after that BQ too. Someday, as long as I live long enough, I will run Boston. With where I'm at I expect it could be a 5 or 10 year+ plan. Sometimes I get so tired thinking about all the work and miles ahead, but then I remember I'm in this for the long haul. Seasons and years have highs, lows, and lulls, but if we keep making small steps of progress and good choices about rest and healing hopefully our bodies will allow us to run for a long time.
This last post on Kara Goucher's blog about patience and not giving up really hit home for me, and it's probably why I'm writing such a novel here.
I feel like an ass for being irritated that the costume contest for my ride this weekend is no longer a costume contest but a "most inspiring rider" contest. WTF? I totally have a cute outfit to wear, and I'm still wearing it, but geez, thanks for letting us know 4 days before the ride. (I got a new sugar skull jersey and a rainbow light up tutu)
Also - I haven't run in months and I have nothing I'm training for right now. Until yesterday when I signed up for San Francisco Rock and Roll. I'm excited yet terrified to start training.
March, you say?
I saw you're doing a CIM relay too, right? I'm splitting with someone.
Love of my life baby boy born 11/11. One and done not by choice; 3 years of TTC yielded 4 MMC and 2 CPs, through 4 IUIs and 2 IVFs. Focusing on making the world a better place instead...and running.
I feel like an ass for being irritated that the costume contest for my ride this weekend is no longer a costume contest but a "most inspiring rider" contest. WTF? I totally have a cute outfit to wear, and I'm still wearing it, but geez, thanks for letting us know 4 days before the ride. (I got a new sugar skull jersey and a rainbow light up tutu)
Also - I haven't run in months and I have nothing I'm training for right now. Until yesterday when I signed up for San Francisco Rock and Roll. I'm excited yet terrified to start training.
March, you say?
I saw you're doing a CIM relay too, right? I'm splitting with someone.
March 29th! DO IT!!! I believe we have a room for 4 already booked too.