How's everybody been?

[bronxgirl]

It's been a long time since we've checked in...how's everyone doing? Overall I'm doing well. W e go to Disneyworld next month so I'm really excited about that. Our first Disney trip (2 yrs ago0 was planned to cheer us up after out first IVF failed, so I think of Disney as our consolation prize.   I just switched to a new group at work.  I'm still adjusting, but so far so good.  DD is doing well.  She has a little over 2 months more of kindergarten.  Her dance recital is coming up, so that's another big thing for us.  She doesn't talk about having a sibling anymore, but she's really interested in babies and good with them.  It just seems so unfair that she won't get to be a big sister.  Overall I guess I'm doing better with not having a second child, but I still get sad and jealous when I'm around people with 2 (or more) kids, especially good friends.

Enough about me, how're you?

[Mushe]

I was thinking we should check in!

We're finally PT'ing DS (almost 3.5) this year. Our prior attempt right at 3 years was an unmitigated disaster, and another attempt a few months later wasn't much better. I used a new book that a MMM poster recommended, and today went much better than expected. I'm sick of being embarrassed that he's still indiapers!

[Mushe]

Sorry, app being funky.

I'm feeling super defeated by IF and DOR. It's cycle 2 of Letrozole, and we couldn't add IUI because my husband's labs weren't back, so another cycle with basically no chance. On the plus side, this minimal chance only cost us $125 ultrasound and $10 in meds!

[Mushe]

And ughhh, I'm a green eyed monster to the girls with new pregnancies in my BMB. This is the first crop since I've been diagnosed, and it sucks.

[bronxgirl]

Apr 17, 2015 21:21:47 GMT -5 Mushe said:

And ughhh, I'm a green eyed monster to the girls with new pregnancies in my BMB. This is the first crop since I've been diagnosed, and it sucks.

Ughh, that must be hard. I think I can deal with babies much easier than pregnancies. My period was late and slow to start and I started getting nervous that it's perimenopause. Eventually it came at full force, so I guess menopause isn't starting yet, although it probably doesn't matter since I can't seem to get PG anyway.

[ouokie]

Yay for your upcoming Disney trip! We leave for Disney next Saturday. We are all so ready for a vacation.

I've been doing good. My RPL tests came back with elevated thyroid levels. My RE started me on some medication and I'll go for more bloodwork (yay) when we get back from vacation. This cycle I started back up with Clomid and added Progesterone.

DD has been all about our neighbors new baby. Whenever we are outside she is all over that baby. Wanting to touch her and just stare at her. I love that she is so good with babies but it also breaks my heart because I know how wonderful she would be if she had a sibling.

[bronxgirl]

Apr 18, 2015 8:45:20 GMT -5 ouokie said:

Yay for your upcoming Disney trip! We leave for Disney next Saturday. We are all so ready for a vacation.

Awesome! Tell me all about your trip. I love hearing about people's Disney trips. We're staying at Coronado Springs resort and we're taking DD to the Bibbidi Bobbidi Boutique and having lunch in the castle. I'm so excited!

[Mushe]

Apr 17, 2015 23:09:19 GMT -5 bronxgirl said:

Apr 17, 2015 21:21:47 GMT -5 Mushe said:

And ughhh, I'm a green eyed monster to the girls with new pregnancies in my BMB. This is the first crop since I've been diagnosed, and it sucks.

Ughh, that must be hard. I think I can deal with babies much easier than pregnancies. My period was late and slow to start and I started getting nervous that it's perimenopause. Eventually it came at full force, so I guess menopause isn't starting yet, although it probably doesn't matter since I can't seem to get PG anyway.

Oh man, I'm so sorry! And yes, pregnancy seems harder than babies for me too. I freak out about perimenopause every time I get night sweats.

[ouokie]

Apr 18, 2015 12:28:16 GMT -5 bronxgirl said:

Apr 18, 2015 8:45:20 GMT -5 ouokie said:

Yay for your upcoming Disney trip! We leave for Disney next Saturday. We are all so ready for a vacation.

Awesome! Tell me all about your trip. I love hearing about people's Disney trips. We're staying at Coronado Springs resort and we're taking DD to the Bibbidi Bobbidi Boutique and having lunch in the castle. I'm so excited!

that sounds like so much fun! We are staying at the Contemporary. We love having lunch at Be Our Guest. It's just beautiful!

[ginkgoleaf]

We just did 3 days at WDW last week, first time taking DS. Stayed at Saratoga Springs in a 2 bedroom suite with kitchenette, had groceries delivered for breakfasts. Also did a stroller rental with Kingdom Strollers. Let me know if you have specific questions. With Fast Pass, we never had to wait more than 20 minutes for a ride.

[bronxgirl]

I just wanted to say that this weekend I had a great family weekend with DD and DH. I enjoyed the family I have instead of thinking about the child I don't have. If only I could feel that way all the time.

ginkgoleaf which parks did you go to? Post pictures of your trip!

[ginkgoleaf]

Apr 19, 2015 20:18:14 GMT -5 bronxgirl said:

I just wanted to say that this weekend I had a great family weekend with DD and DH. I enjoyed the family I have instead of thinking about the child I don't have. If only I could feel that way all the time.

ginkgoleaf which parks did you go to? Post pictures of your trip!

I'm not back yet, visiting family here until tomorrow. But we did Magic Kingdom, Epcot, and Animal Kingdom. DS says he liked Epcot best, he loved Spaceship Earth! Other favorites were Peter Pan and Dumbo.

[babyrn]

Tomorrow I have a consultation with our RE to discuss moving forward with a FET. I am excited to finally get things moving but I am also terrified.

[whodey]

Hi ladies!
bronxgirl & ouokie – have a great time at Disney – I’m thinking of taking DS next year for his birthday

Mushe – I really relate to you – there have been 3 girls on my BMB who have gotten a BFP since my last BFN – while I’m happy for all of them, each time I see a thread it stings. And, I need to work on PTing DS – he wants to move up to the preschool room at DC with some of his friends, but the kids have to be PT and we haven’t even started - I hope we are both successful soon!

bronxgirl – I had a great weekend with just DS and am really trying to embrace the OAD life – it was nice that we could be outside and I could get some work done in my flowerbeds and he could run around and play, now that he is a little older he’s able to occupy himself and I can do some things for me. I know how truly lucky I am to have him and want to focus on us and what we can do rather than what I don’t have.

AFM: DS turns 3 on Thursday – how can this be!? He’s no longer a baby or even a toddler, but a little boy. I decided against a big birthday party this year – I’m just getting together with family and a few friends on his actual birthday and then we’re heading to an indoor waterpark for the weekend to celebrate – he’s so excited to swim
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My last BFN was almost 2 weeks ago, but I still feel so emotionally fragile – thinking about it just makes me tear up. I have a meeting with my RE on 4/27 to discuss next steps – I think the next step for me is IVF, it’s a huge next step for me – one I originally said I wouldn’t pursue, but my heart still longs for that second baby. I feel like I have to try IVF and if it doesn’t work I can feel that I have done everything I can. Sigh...

[Mushe]

whodey - huge hugs to you! I feel the same - emotionally fragile. Good luck to you in your talk with the RE!

I asked a while back on MMM for help with a reluctant PT'er (not to say your DS is, but mine definitely was!), and most said, 'maybe he's not ready,' which I thought was bullshit. I got a recommendation for a book called Oh Crap Potty Training, and it was amazing! Really helped me change MY perspective, which helped DS. I followed the book in terms of making sure I was catching his potty cues, and the early successes snowballed, and we had a great weekend with it. He even pooped yesterday! So happy with how it went.

[satsuma]

We're moving forward with one more FET and then we might be done for a while. DH and I had a very emotional talk last night. He just hates this whole process. And we're for sure not doing another round of IVF if we go through this group of embryos. I assumed as much, the costs of transferring all embryos + fresh IVF would put us close to $40,000, but it was still hard to hear. And it's not even just a monetary issue that would be solved by insurance coverage. Treatments just put you through the ringer.

[jessnpaul]

We're doing well. I feel like there was so much in limbo for all of 2014 and the first months of 2015 that it's been making me a bit crazy! But now a lot has been figured out (in regards to DS at least) which helps. We're still in infertility limbo, but I'm learning I may have to give up the dream of 2 and just be okay with it. I've done everything within my control and after a few months, we're done. I want my body/life back. I'm sick of charting, OPK's, negative HPT's, etc. We have one more round of covered IVF so we're making this the last one. I'm trying to eat better and taking DHEA, Ubiquinol, etc to give it all I got! Now I have to start giving up alcohol again (I was so bad this past Saturday.. I haven't drank in ages and the wine was a-flowin'!) but that's going to be hard this time of year.

We're doing potty training bootcamp this upcoming weekend. It was so hard to find a free weekend and this weekend is about as free as it's going to get (even though I've had to say "no" to several plans... but nothing earth-shattering important).

DS starts the special preschool on Wednesday. I'm both happy and sad about this!

[Mushe]

jessnpaul, good luck next weekend! We called it PT boot camp too. In addition to the book, the Kinder eggs as a reward have been gold!

[satsuma]

Apr 20, 2015 10:29:29 GMT -5 whodey said:

I had a great weekend with just DS and am really trying to embrace the OAD life – it was nice that we could be outside and I could get some work done in my flowerbeds and he could run around and play, now that he is a little older he’s able to occupy himself and I can do some things for me. I know how truly lucky I am to have him and want to focus on us and what we can do rather than what I don’t have.

I'm trying to be better about this. I wasn't ever sad about him growing up because 1) I always thought I'd have another chance to do those stages again and 2) some of those stages flat out sucked! I should live more in the moment with him. 

[jessnpaul]

Apr 20, 2015 13:22:11 GMT -5 Mushe said:

jessnpaul, good luck next weekend! We called it PT boot camp too. In addition to the book, the Kinder eggs as a reward have been gold!

I bought him one for Easter and we haven't even opened it yet! I should get that out... thanks!

His "reward" is Townhouse crackers. Most kids like M&M's but not my kid! He's good about potty although not-so-great about telling us when!

[Mushe]

Apr 20, 2015 14:07:46 GMT -5 jessnpaul said:

Apr 20, 2015 13:22:11 GMT -5 Mushe said:

jessnpaul, good luck next weekend! We called it PT boot camp too. In addition to the book, the Kinder eggs as a reward have been gold!

I bought him one for Easter and we haven't even opened it yet! I should get that out... thanks!

His "reward" is Townhouse crackers. Most kids like M&M's but not my kid! He's good about potty although not-so-great about telling us when!

Ha!  That's awesome.  My kid turned up his nose at the mini M&Ms we tried for PT boot camp 1, and the mini marshmallows for #2.  This weekend, he finally ate some of the chocolate from the Kinder eggs for the first time, and realized that it's pretty good. 

[jessnpaul]

Apr 20, 2015 14:44:26 GMT -5 Mushe said:

Apr 20, 2015 14:07:46 GMT -5 jessnpaul said:

I bought him one for Easter and we haven't even opened it yet! I should get that out... thanks!

His "reward" is Townhouse crackers. Most kids like M&M's but not my kid! He's good about potty although not-so-great about telling us when!

Ha!  That's awesome.  My kid turned up his nose at the mini M&Ms we tried for PT boot camp 1, and the mini marshmallows for #2.  This weekend, he finally ate some of the chocolate from the Kinder eggs for the first time, and realized that it's pretty good. 

I didn't think my kid liked chocolate but then my mom found these tiny chocolate bunnies (bite-sized) and he went to town on those! Maybe he doesn't like the hard candy shell of M&M's? Who knows. Kids are weird ;-)

With that being said, I totally ate his chocolate Easter bunny (it was from my mom... she'll never know)

[kdogg]

Doing good here. Started PIO yesterday. FET on Friday. Feeling anxious and ready! DS gets to go to his Mimi's house for a couple days and I'm secretly looking forward to that lol

[Mushe]

Apr 20, 2015 14:50:26 GMT -5 jessnpaul said:

Apr 20, 2015 14:44:26 GMT -5 Mushe said:

Ha!  That's awesome.  My kid turned up his nose at the mini M&Ms we tried for PT boot camp 1, and the mini marshmallows for #2.  This weekend, he finally ate some of the chocolate from the Kinder eggs for the first time, and realized that it's pretty good. 

I didn't think my kid liked chocolate but then my mom found these tiny chocolate bunnies (bite-sized) and he went to town on those! Maybe he doesn't like the hard candy shell of M&M's? Who knows. Kids are weird ;-)

With that being said, I totally ate his chocolate Easter bunny (it was from my mom... she'll never know)

Mom's prerogative!  I buy DS some peeps for his Easter basket, and I always eat them. 

[Mushe]

Apr 20, 2015 15:52:23 GMT -5 kdogg said:

Doing good here. Started PIO yesterday. FET on Friday. Feeling anxious and ready! DS gets to go to his Mimi's house for a couple days and I'm secretly looking forward to that lol

That's so exciting!  Glad you'll have the backup for your DS.

[ginkgoleaf]

I'm feeling hopeful at the moment. I have a few more days of BCPs and then go Monday (my birthday!) to the RE for my baseline appointment for IVF #2. We're using a new Dr so I'm hoping this makes all the difference.

[patbutcher]

Checking in here. We are on cycle 3 of ttc #2. I'm trying to decide when I should go back to the RE, I was thinking september then I remembered you have to do so many tests before you can start tx that maybe I should go back in July, do the tests so I can start tx in Sept. Urgh...

[shanwalk]

I'm not in a great headspace right now. Currently 7dpo after IUI#2. I don't think this cycle worked. I don't know why, but I'm usually much more hopeful at this point.

I'm living my life as if I will be pregnant at the end of every cycle and I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere that way. I'm tired and frustrated and want to go kick dirt.

[whodey]

Apr 24, 2015 19:58:40 GMT -5 shanwalk said:

I'm living my life as if I will be pregnant at the end of every cycle and I don't feel like I'm getting anywhere that way. I'm tired and frustrated and want to go kick dirt.

Thinking of you shanwalk - I hope you are doing better - TTC is such a mind game and it's devastating each month to get that BFN.

I told my RE, the last few cycles, I have been completely consumed with pregnancy and it's just not healthy for me.  I feel SO much better in the months I'm not undergoing treatment, I know part of it is not having all the additional hormones, but it's just a weight lifted to not be thinking about everything.

[babyrn]

Looks like we are just waiting for CD1 and we should be able to move forward with our FET. Of course, this is the longest cycle I have ever had, 7 weeks so far, WTF body?