It really is! Good for you for starting to let down those walls.
Thanks. I'm happy to be at a point where I feel safe enough to let them down too.
I worry about this sometimes. My walls are pretty high and sturdy, and truthfully I feel safe and secure inside them. I wonder if meeting someone (eventually) who makes me want to take them down will scare me so much I'll blow it....
Thanks. I'm happy to be at a point where I feel safe enough to let them down too.
I worry about this sometimes. My walls are pretty high and sturdy, and truthfully I feel safe and secure inside them. I wonder if meeting someone (eventually) who makes me want to take them down will scare me so much I'll blow it....
Believe me, I'm scared of screwing up daily. But I told this to J too. He is really understanding of my crazy. We have been friends for a couple years but he is now seeing a whole new side of me
I worry about this sometimes. My walls are pretty high and sturdy, and truthfully I feel safe and secure inside them. I wonder if meeting someone (eventually) who makes me want to take them down will scare me so much I'll blow it....
Believe me, I'm scared of screwing up daily. But I told this to J too. He is really understanding of my crazy. We have been friends for a couple years but he is now seeing a whole new side of me
The walls coming down (or at least not letting them go up) has been one of my biggest struggles with RG. I think it's doable when you're aware of and monitoring your reactions. I know I've been quick to look for anything that might mean things aren't going well and to react by wanting to either pull away or get reassurance.
I've had a really looooong week and it's still not over. Tuesday I was out of the house at 7am and not home until 11. The evening was a braves game in a suite hosted by one of our partners so...FWP, I know. Yesterday I was out the door at 7 and not home until 9. Happy hour, sure, but still a long day....yeah, I now, FWP. The new job is heating up and I'm super excited about it.
I get to go on a totally partner sponsored trip that will include nothing but them trying to get back in our good graces next week....in Miami! I also found out today that I have to find a way to get to Miami on the day I get back from Mexico at 6:25pm. Guess I'll be packing for both and not going home but just hopping another flight.
Wow, this post is one big bragplaint of my first world problems. Sorry, I'm just super excited about this new job if you can't tell!!!!
Today fucking drained me. Family conflict, people crying in my office, having to advise to call for the psychiatric emergency response team to come assess because someone ticked all the SI boxes (ideation, plan, means w/access, unwilling to give up access)...
I'm exhausted. No barre class tonight. Just crappy food, some wine, and lots of sleep.
Today has been the worst day I've had in months, but also the silver lining is that I have so many awesome and amazing friends who love and support me that I don't really give an eff about anything else.