I don't know why I do this to myself. I'm so tired every morning. Every night I get a second wind and go to bed too late. Now it's morning again and I'm kicking myself for going to bed too late. I don't understand it.
One of these days, I'm going to call in sick and let MIL keep the baby for the day. And I'm going to do nothing but lay in bed and sleep and watch movies on my laptop. Maybe I'll move to the couch at some point. But my bed is pretty damn comfy.
I do that all the time and always regret it in the morning.
I'm going on day 3 of a headache. I really wanted to go to zumba last night and had already made up my mind that I was going to - and then when I picked up DD she asked if she had gymnastics that night. Good thing she asked, because I would have totally forgotten!
She calls her gymnastics leotard a "leonardo" and it kills me. DS tried to correct her and said it is pronounced leo-nard. I'm going to be sad when they stop mispronouncing things!
Post by workaholic on Sept 22, 2015 7:54:10 GMT -5
I traveled all last week for work and they're already hounding me to travel again. I hate work travel and I'm beginning to hate my job completely, even when I'm working local. I should be grateful to have a solid job in this economy but I'm burnt out from traveling roughly 90% since January. I want to be independently wealthy or something.
I do that all the time and always regret it in the morning.
I'm going on day 3 of a headache. I really wanted to go to zumba last night and had already made up my mind that I was going to - and then when I picked up DD she asked if she had gymnastics that night. Good thing she asked, because I would have totally forgotten!
She calls her gymnastics leotard a "leonardo" and it kills me. DS tried to correct her and said it is pronounced leo-nard. I'm going to be sad when they stop mispronouncing thing!
We yell at anyone who tries to correct mispronunciations. My kids have had annoyingly accurate verbal skills and they rarely mispronounce so I treasure the things that they do lol. If anyone ever tells DS2 that he cuts with scissors instead of "flissors" I am going to cut them!
My migraine meds took me out last night. I slept like the dead. I was so asleep I slept thru the first 40 minutes of my alarm and missed my workout. So now I'm rushed but it felt so good to sleep. I need to get back in to see my chiro, when I see him regularly I rarely get a migraine.
I think my marriage is falling apart and am sitting here realizing that I have no one to turn to. I don't have many close friends and I don't want to talk to them in case something changes. I just never thought I would be in the position where I have no one. I am just so sad.
I got sanctimommied yesterday by women I've never even met or spoken to. Apparently my friend's coworkers were flabbergasted that I stayed over her place on Saturday night, because "moms don't usually leave their babies". One said she was only surprised because her husband would never stay home alone with the baby, and wanted to know why L didn't sleep over with us. Uh.
I jinxed myself by talking about L's good nights. She was up at 4am, perfectly pleasant but WIDE awake. She didn't fall back to sleep, in bed with me, until after 5. And I had already been up in the 3am hour because that seems to be my new thing. So tired.
Oh, what a bunch of assholes. I went on a girl's trip for three days when David was 8 months old.
I get together with this friend once a month - or we try, anyway - and she lives in a different state, so I usually end up staying there or she comes and stays with me. I'm extra annoyed by these women because they're just mouthpieces for how society thinks mothers should behave, and it's not like I already don't feel just a tiny bit guilty every time I leave L, which I KNOW is bullshit. I shouldn't even let them bother me, honestly, because by all accounts they sound like morons, but this is the first time since I formula-fed that an attempted shaming has occurred, and my hackles are up. lol.
IUI #2 was a bust. We need to decide whether to go for a third (and final) IUI or move on to IVF. We had to spend a fortune last week to have H's semen cryo-preserved because it was so stressful to try to make his travel schedule work with the timing of my cycle. Whether we try another IUI will depend on how his semen analysis looks and whether there would be enough left over for IVF after.
I think my marriage is falling apart and am sitting here realizing that I have no one to turn to. I don't have many close friends and I don't want to talk to them in case something changes. I just never thought I would be in the position where I have no one. I am just so sad.
I am sorry to hear this. If you want to talk you can inbox me. It sucks to feel alone with this but you aren't .. believe me
DD was whiny this morning because I wouldn't let her watch kids youtube after she did for more than an hour. She didn't like me at all this morning.
We're close, very close to getting a car. It's coming down to a 2013 Prius C Four or 2015 Prius C Three. It comes down to financing. New Prius has a great deal with 0% for 60 months, but the used one has heated seats!! lol
DD was whiny this morning because I wouldn't let her watch kids youtube after she did for more than an hour. She didn't like me at all this morning.
We're close, very close to getting a car. It's coming down to a 2013 Prius C Four or 2015 Prius C Three. It comes down to financing. New Prius has a great deal with 0% for 60 months, but the used one has heated seats!! lol
Now that I have heated seats, I don't think I could ever go back! But a brand new car sounds nice, too
DD was whiny this morning because I wouldn't let her watch kids youtube after she did for more than an hour. She didn't like me at all this morning.
We're close, very close to getting a car. It's coming down to a 2013 Prius C Four or 2015 Prius C Three. It comes down to financing. New Prius has a great deal with 0% for 60 months, but the used one has heated seats!! lol
Now that I have heated seats, I don't think I could ever go back! But a brand new car sounds nice, too
Years ago, friend drove me home once after a few drinks. He had heated seats and I kept asking my my butt was on fire. lol.
Post by karmasabiotch on Sept 22, 2015 9:10:47 GMT -5
I'm getting a 3% COL raise in October. We don't get any other raises at all, and for the past few years we didn't even get a COL raise and the years before that they took some of our pay away. I'm sadly excited over 3%.
I feel like I actually got some decent sleep last night. Ilya woke up four times, but I only had to feed him twice. I just patted his back the other two times and he fell back asleep. Four times is such an improvement, LOL. It's been at least 6 times per night for the past few months because of teething and sickness.
I packed up 3 huge black bags of toys the other day because I was d.o.n.e with Sofia's bullshit. She has been on her best behaviour ever since, so I'm going to unpack one of the bags while she's at school today. Why do I always have to completely lose my shit before anything changes?? Lol.
@sloanpeterson any update? Are you feeling any better?
Not much to report. Last night I felt good but very rotten again this am. I had blood work done and another pap yesterday. I am at work with a heating pad on my stomach.
The dr did give me some muscle relaxers to stop the "contractions" I am having. But other then that not much. Dr wants me to get an IUD put in to help with this but I am refusing. I do not want that. I had it before I hated it.
He also mentioned an ablation. I don't want that either. I want it all out. GET IT OUT its been 5 years of this shit.
I will say being on the iron for only a few days I am already feeling a little bit better
H forgot to give DD her ADHD meds this morning. I am crossing my fingers that she can keep it together for the day. Last time he forgot she was out of control
Post by balletofangels on Sept 22, 2015 9:37:07 GMT -5
hugs to everyone having a rough time
I slept so well last night. Thank you half an Ambien. How can such a tiny pill be so helpful? I missed a pain med dose while asleep and woke up in so much head pain to find out they'd cut my pain meds in half. After that didn't help they increased in back and gave me motrin, but I'm still "behind" on the pain. I want to nap, but awesome night's sleep is making that hard.
I have no plans except all the doctors saying they need to make plans. Ugh. DH is also supposed to be getting info on disability and the social worker here says she'll help. I hate that I have gotten to this point.