Saturday Night Randoms!

[abcdefu]

These last couple weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster for me, but what else is new? After finding out that my friend was hit by a car and killed and dealing with a lot of work drama, not to mention feeling like shit, it has been a long week.

I have taken some time to think about my future. I know I have been posting about moving to a new state and getting a "fresh start", but I actually talked to my BFF/roommate and told her that I am moving out of state when my boss retires (he's 68).

I have set some goals for myself, which include some schooling to become certified in my profession, as well as looking at houses where I want to move. I am aggressively saving money so when the time comes, I can peace out.

Also, I don't know if this happens to anyone else, but I have been so tired lately. I am usually okay staying up and watching tv on the couch, but as soon as I sit on my bed, which I love to do with the laptop, I automatically start falling asleep. Like I can't keep my eyes open and start dozing off while sitting up and watching tv. It's really weird to me. I am going to talk to my doctor, but I just want to know why I can't keep my eyes open!

Who else is here?

[MauMau]

I'm sorry abcdefu about your friend. That's a really rough thing to deal with. Thinking of you <3

A friend of my mom messaged me on FB. Telling me to "get a job" "you are no longer being abused, act like it" "get over it" "suck it up" Just completely unwarranted and rude. It made me so freaking upset last night. And today I've been upset over it. Those words really fucking hurt. I haven't replied. I've gone back and forth on want to reply back or do nothing.

October is domestic violence awareness month. So I've had my nails a different shade of purple each day. It's not like I've been whining or running my mouth on FB complaining about how much my life sucks.

I'm going to therapy once a week. Now that the divorce is over we have been talking a lot about the abuse. It's still all fresh to me. I'm having a hard time. My therapist suggested that I look for a support group from the local women's shelter. Which I am planning to do. I've been having a really rough time and that message shook me up. My life is not perfect or what I expected it to be right now. And perhaps I could be doing better and sure I could of sucked it up with a full time job. But I'm not comfortable right now. A lot of things have been triggering anxiety and flashbacks. I am working and I'm not a financial burden to my parents. I'm working weekly on moving forward. So fuck off lady.

[starburst604]

abcdefu so sorry about your friend, that is terrible. MauMau what the actual fuck? I hope you deleted and blocked this awful person.

T is away in NH and I'm babysitting my nephews so my sister and BIL could go out for their anniversary. I should have just planned to stay overnight but didn't, so I hope I can get my sleeping baby home and in bed without disturbing her too much. Apple picking tomorrow!

[abcdefu]

Oct 3, 2015 20:57:06 GMT -5 MauMau said:

I'm sorry abcdefu about your friend. That's a really rough thing to deal with. Thinking of you <3

A friend of my mom messaged me on FB. Telling me to "get a job" "you are no longer being abused, act like it" "get over it" "suck it up" Just completely unwarranted and rude. It made me so freaking upset last night. And today I've been upset over it. Those words really fucking hurt. I haven't replied. I've gone back and forth on want to reply back or do nothing.

October is domestic violence awareness month. So I've had my nails a different shade of purple each day. It's not like I've been whining or running my mouth on FB complaining about how much my life sucks.

I'm going to therapy once a week. Now that the divorce is over we have been talking a lot about the abuse. It's still all fresh to me. I'm having a hard time. My therapist suggested that I look for a support group from the local women's shelter. Which I am planning to do. I've been having a really rough time and that message shook me up. My life is not perfect or what I expected it to be right now. And perhaps I could be doing better and sure I could of sucked it up with a full time job. But I'm not comfortable right now. A lot of things have been triggering anxiety and flashbacks. I am working and I'm not a financial burden to my parents. I'm working weekly on moving forward. So fuck off lady.

Thank you! Oh and WTF to the bolded?! She would be blocked after comments like that! Domestic violence is a really hard thing to deal with. Everyone deals and heals with/from it differently.

[MauMau]

I'm planning to delete. This is how I usually go about it. My mom cancelled plans with her today because of this. Honestly, this was the final nail to the coffin. She's been doing odd things like this before. But this was 80% worse. Her sister was just as bad back in August. I went to a day baseball game. And her sister commented on the photo "get a job". I just don't get why people need to sniff there opinion in. How is my not working full time affecting you. And I was one of 17,000 people at the game. I'm not the only loser I guess. Lol

[achase123]

I'm so glad this was posted! I'm sitting here drinking a glass of wine and watching "true life; I have a fetish". My friend Blair is coming over so that should be good. I'm oddly content with doing just this right now.

J texted me today but it's odd when he does. Like he asked me how my rotary event was. Uhhh fine? And then that's the end of the interaction. I kinda am contemplating not replying the next time he texts. His behavior is so odd. How about we talk about everything that's going on or not at all?

P ended up having to have his visit with Xh. Xh is driving a suped up m5 bmw. It's so loud and douchetastic. His hat said "metal mulisha". He looks skinny and pale. At least it went smoothly and P had a good time.

I've decided to just focus on P, work and friends right now. There's a good chance they might make me branch manager and that will involve studying so that will need my focus.

[bg]

abcdefu it sounds like you have a good plan for moving forward. High levels of stress/anxiety can lead to tiredness/exhaustion, right? Maybe that's causing some of your tiredness.

MauMau that woman is terrible. I'm so sorry. You also sound like you have a great plan -- keep doing what's best for you.

I just watched the movie What We Do In the Shadows. It was quirky and entertaining. I'm trying to hydrate for my run tomorrow morning too. Last long run before the race -- woohoo!!! I'm having the hardest time working on my dissertation though. I just need to get the stupid thing done.

[Mrs.Rad888]

DH and I went out to dinner for my birthday then saw "The Martian." It was a really good night.


MauMau You're in San Diego, right? DH and I will be there some time in January. PM the bitch's address and I'll go punch her in the crotch.

[MauMau]

Oct 4, 2015 0:47:56 GMT -5 Mrs.Rad888 said:

DH and I went out to dinner for my birthday then saw "The Martian." It was a really good night.


MauMau You're in San Diego, right? DH and I will be there some time in January. PM the bitch's address and I'll go punch her in the crotch.

Ha! Nope I'm in WI. Anytime anyone is in Chicago. I'm up for trips down there.

[Mrs.Rad888]

Oct 4, 2015 0:59:02 GMT -5 MauMau said:

Oct 4, 2015 0:47:56 GMT -5 Mrs.Rad888 said:

DH and I went out to dinner for my birthday then saw "The Martian." It was a really good night.


MauMau You're in San Diego, right? DH and I will be there some time in January. PM the bitch's address and I'll go punch her in the crotch.

Ha! Nope I'm in WI. Anytime anyone is in Chicago. I'm up for trips down there.

Oops, I obviously mistook you for someone else. Well, if you need anyone in Washington to be punched in the crotch, let me know!

[abcdefu]

Oct 3, 2015 21:28:29 GMT -5 starburst604 said:

abcdefu so sorry about your friend, that is terrible. MauMau what the actual fuck? I hope you deleted and blocked this awful person.

T is away in NH and I'm babysitting my nephews so my sister and BIL could go out for their anniversary. I should have just planned to stay overnight but didn't, so I hope I can get my sleeping baby home and in bed without disturbing her too much. Apple picking tomorrow!

I've been meaning to tell you that the pic in your sig of L is soooo cute!

[abcdefu]

Oct 3, 2015 23:09:11 GMT -5 bg said:

abcdefu it sounds like you have a good plan for moving forward. High levels of stress/anxiety can lead to tiredness/exhaustion, right? Maybe that's causing some of your tiredness.

I had no idea, but it makes sense. I try to put off taking my medications since I thought it was the effects of the medications. It's crazy that I sleep 8-10 every night, but can't keep my eyes open passed 9:30-10:00 PM.

[alleinesein]

Oct 4, 2015 0:47:56 GMT -5 Mrs.Rad888 said:

DH and I went out to dinner for my birthday then saw "The Martian." It was a really good night.


MauMau You're in San Diego, right? DH and I will be there some time in January. PM the bitch's address and I'll go punch her in the crotch.

I'm in San Diego  You can come visit me and if we can find XH you can punch him in the balls!!