So I had a little panic attack last night. With my pregnancy back in December I knew something was wrong because the symptoms I had were fading away. So anyways last night I was thinking that I hadn't really fatigued like I has been and my breasts were really sore. I told DH that I was going to call my RE to get another blood draw. He finally talked me down and told me that I can't go through this whole pregnancy over analyzing every detail and that I would drive myself crazy. I know I probably sound crazy, but after 3 miscarriages it's just hard not to over analyze.
So I had a little panic attack last night. With my pregnancy back in December I knew something was wrong because the symptoms I had were fading away. So anyways last night I was thinking that I hadn't really fatigued like I has been and my breasts were really sore. I told DH that I was going to call my RE to get another blood draw. He finally talked me down and told me that I can't go through this whole pregnancy over analyzing every detail and that I would drive myself crazy. I know I probably sound crazy, but after 3 miscarriages it's just hard not to over analyze.
ETA to say that I'm 5w2d today.
Sure you can, it's what I've been doing so far! Admittedly my level of crazy is up for debate.
You guys, I just realised the other day that the American chain chick.fil-a is pronounced like the North American pronunciation of 'fillet'. I thought the place was called 'Chick Fil-AH'.
First appointment with the OB tomorrow. I've made copies of all my UK medical records, and filled out their questionnaire, so hopefully I won't have to go through too much of my history with her.
ssg73 - DS was born at 32 weeks but was the size of a 28 weeker thanks to velementous cord insertion and IUGR. I seriously have some major PTSD from all that that I'm trying to keep to a minimum. "Trying" being the keyword here.
Between 2 years of IF, a prior m/c, and DS's history, it's amazing i am sane at all with this pregnancy!
It's so hard ouokie. I had a mmc the first time around and my second pregnancy, my doc still refused to do any extra followups. No betas, no early ultrasounds, nada. As a result I went through my first tri miserable and convinced I was about to mc at any moment and could hardly believe it at the 12 week us when there was a viable baby in there with a heartbeat. It took me a long time to connect with the pregnancy.
Unfortunately pg after loss is fraught with anxiety. I try to be all 'what will be will be' but it's tough. Hugs.
Good luck tomorrow dellabear and kellikans! I'm looking forward to hearing great results from you both!
I am beat. I feel like a broken record, but we're still in the midst of two bathroom renos. We're getting so close thankfully. I tried to do a bunch of stuff today to move them along, but all I managed to do was make my entire body hurt. Hoping we can get more done this week because we're going out of town Friday-Monday, and I'd really like to focus on the nursery and baby prep when we get back.
Thanks to boiler717's thread on baby clothes earlier last week, I sorted what I have, figured out gaps, and bought a few more things, so I'm feeling better prepared there. And I somehow managed to rope my sister into registering for us I'm completely overwhelmed by it, and she enjoys it, so it was a win-win. Still need to research a few things and spread some stuff out to a registry with a brick and mortar (it's all on Amazon now), but it's a big weight lifted. Thank goodness for awesome sisters.
ssg73 - DS was born at 32 weeks but was the size of a 28 weeker thanks to velementous cord insertion and IUGR. I seriously have some major PTSD from all that that I'm trying to keep to a minimum. "Trying" being the keyword here.
Between 2 years of IF, a prior m/c, and DS's history, it's amazing i am sane at all with this pregnancy!
DD was iugr too. 1053 g. I think I am starting to fail at holding my shit together.
ssg73 - DS was born at 32 weeks but was the size of a 28 weeker thanks to velementous cord insertion and IUGR. I seriously have some major PTSD from all that that I'm trying to keep to a minimum. "Trying" being the keyword here.
Between 2 years of IF, a prior m/c, and DS's history, it's amazing i am sane at all with this pregnancy!
DD was iugr too. 1053 g. I think I am starting to fail at holding my shit together.
Yikes... 1096 g here. Still small for his age but doing well now.
This is why I'm so hesitant to tell people this time. I'm hoping the NT scan/Panorama test gives me a breather from the crazy but last time i had zero known issues until 17 weeks!
DD was iugr too. 1053 g. I think I am starting to fail at holding my shit together.
Yikes... 1096 g here. Still small for his age but doing well now.
This is why I'm so hesitant to tell people this time. I'm hoping the NT scan/Panorama test gives me a breather from the crazy but last time i had zero known issues until 17 weeks!
Ugh.
My kid at 6 is a giant. She is in the 85 percentile for height now. But she started small under the 5th percentile until 3 then started creeping up until now at 6 she is always the tallest kid. I had a picture perfect pregnancy until 30 weeks when it all went to shit. So every week down makes me happy. But I have seen too much in the Nicu to make me less insane until we get out of the 20s. And not a complete freak until 35 weeks.
My finger stick at my one hour was 164, womp womp. I asked them if I can just take the 3 hour tomorrow and they let me schedule it and will call me if I don't need to come in.
I'm upset I now have to start checking my BP at home daily now. Because I don't have enough numbers to stress over with GD. Ugh. I'm so glad I'm down to my last month of pregnancy now. Why do I feel like a failure because my body can't control its stupid functions like normal during pregnancy.
I stopped progesterone yesterday and now I'm bleeding this AM. Augh. The nurse I spoke to (not my favorite) was all "you'll be fine! See you Wednesday!" I'm in California visiting my sister and we leave tonight. I won't be able to relax.
ugh, sending you lots of hugs and good thoughts! just think, there's a LOT more blood flow in that general region, so getting a little spot here and there is more than likely nothing.
it's really a shame you aren't supposed to drink PG, wine would help with SO MUCH STUFF
Love of my life baby boy born 11/11. One and done not by choice; 3 years of TTC yielded 4 MMC and 2 CPs, through 4 IUIs and 2 IVFs. Focusing on making the world a better place instead...and running.
@natariru I had spotting as well when I was out of state for work and it was so nerve wracking. My nurse was also like "NBD! Go back to work!" Take care!
Boo boiler717. I hope you see great numbers with your 3 hour. I failed my one hour with DS but passed the three.
@gumby22 my bp was horrible my last month with DS. The day I delivered it was 165/100. It was really stressful, but he was healthy and perfect. Hang in there. You're doing everything right.
Love of my life baby boy born 11/11. One and done not by choice; 3 years of TTC yielded 4 MMC and 2 CPs, through 4 IUIs and 2 IVFs. Focusing on making the world a better place instead...and running.