I had my baby on 12/2 and was released from the hospital last Friday. Baby girl has been doing great. She's been very chill and already sleeping 4 hours at a time overnight.
Me on the other hand, I could be doing better. Physical recovery has been tough (labial tearing is no joke) and I'm feeling so overwhelmed being responsible for another human. I feel like I'm not bonding as well as I should be. I'm thinking about calling my OB on Monday to have a discussion about PPD/PPA so that I don't ruin my maternity leave and the beginning of my relationship with my kid with what I'm going through. I'm having anxiety about my levels of depression and anxiety...
((Hugs))This was me too, but I was pretty intense. (Like hiding in the closet intense)
Definitely call your OB and see what you can do. I am on Zoloft and Counseling and I am honestly better than before I had him. I love my kid so fiercely now and wish that I would have called sooner so I could enjoy his first few weeks.
I had my baby on 12/2 and was released from the hospital last Friday. Baby girl has been doing great. She's been very chill and already sleeping 4 hours at a time overnight.
Me on the other hand, I could be doing better. Physical recovery has been tough (labial tearing is no joke) and I'm feeling so overwhelmed being responsible for another human. I feel like I'm not bonding as well as I should be. I'm thinking about calling my OB on Monday to have a discussion about PPD/PPA so that I don't ruin my maternity leave and the beginning of my relationship with my kid with what I'm going through. I'm having anxiety about my levels of depression and anxiety...
Congratulations!
It is a very overwhelming experience, everything you're dealing with is normal. A conversation with your OB sounds like a good idea. I hope you feel better, both physically and emotionally, soon.
I think, for me, the realization that I had a very tiny stranger in my house that I was totally responsible for, was the biggest thing. Everybody expects to be completely bonded with this tiny person, when the reality is that we don't actually know anything about them yet...
It takes time to learn their quirks, and that (to me) is how the bonding actually happens. Over time.
Julia is 15 days and makes things pretty easy on us for the most part. She eats like a champ (with a shield) and generally sleeps for three to four (sometimes more) hours at a time; she also goes back down very easily after eating at night.
I'm struggling with some anxiety more so than the sleep deprivation. The crazy intense thoughts that something will happen to my DH or to me are overwhelming and I have to self talk myself off the ledge. It's not a depression, but more so a fear of what could happen. I'm also dreading going back to work; I'm taking 12 weeks and have a fantastic in home daycare lined up, but the thought of not being with her is terrifying. I'm sure these are "normal" postpartum anxieties and that they'll pass/lessen with time.
I don't post a ton on this board (mainly on April 12) but my son is 4.5 months now. I feel like I just had him! We are hopefully over the 4 mw and 4 month grumpy child. He's back to his happy self and is sleeping better. He's starting to sit and loves to stare at faces and smile. He's finally sleeping in his crib at night and is ginormous and starting to outgrow his 9 month clothes.
I can add some photos (for a limited time...pdq) This is from last week. I haven't taken one with the two of them together for a while. I should remedy that.