Post by mom2twoboys on Jan 17, 2016 11:26:12 GMT -5
I am so sorry you are disappointed. I have every fiber of me crossing that you have a successful procedure and you tell us in a few weeks you are pregnant.
I understand feeling upset. It's a long, expensive, emotional, & physically exhausting process for a result that doesn't sound that great. I had 9 eggs, 8 mature, & 2 fertilize. It put me in a panic because I didn't want to do it all over again. Big hugs to you. IF sucks and nothing anyone says makes it any easier or better. Be kind to yourself. ETA: I do think 5 is a great # but I didn't want to piss you off further. Then I realized I sounded insensitive. Sorry!
No you're not being insensitive at all. I appreciate your story. I just don't understand why my maturation rate was so low.
You can be down about it, of course. We will all think the best and be hopeful for you in the meantime. When you're ready, focus on the fact that 100% of the mature follies fertilized. That's fabulous! Those 5 guys/girls were like "bitch, please. Don't even bother maturing. We got this. We don't need a second string."
I'm sorry. IF sucks all around. It's "easy" for someone else to say "Be positive! 5 is better than none!" Well, yeah, 5 is better than none, of course! But IF is such a mindfuck & you've already been through so much just to get to this point and all you really want is for just one thing to go right and to hear 'only 5' is disappointing! And you're totally allowed to feel disappointed about only 5 and happy that you've at least got 5 and nervous about those 5 being ok all at the same time. Big hugs.
No you're not being insensitive at all. I appreciate your story. I just don't understand why my maturation rate was so low.
From what my RE told me, they don't want to wait too long for some of the follicles that are looking promising and often times that means you can end up with eggs that aren't quite ready yet either. This could mean a slightly different protocol of you stim again, but you have 5 chances right now before having to do that! Have you gotten a chance to talk to your RE/nurse yet? Are you transferring this cycle or freezing?
I'm hoping to do a 5-day transfer. If less than 4 make it to day 3, we'll be doing a three day.
I'm going to call the nurse line in a bit and ask a few questions
I'm so sorry you're disappointed. I agree that it sounds like maybe there were lead follicles and the rest weren't quite caught up at a good rate. You didn't stim for very long, right? I think that the fact that 100% of your mature eggs fertilized sounds like an indicator of good egg quality, so that is a big plus. The fact that the rest of the eggs weren't mature sounds like it has more to do with the stim protocol than the quality of your eggs. I am crossing EVERYTHING I have that you don't end up having to stim again, of course. Out of these 5 embryos, you could easily get several day-5 blasts to transfer and freeze - so try to hang in there until your next report from the lab.
Post by yourmother on Jan 17, 2016 11:53:14 GMT -5
I understand your feelings 1,000%. I had the same exact feelings when I only had four fertilize. I will be honest with you and say that I was scared and disappointed because I only saw it as four chances. HOWEVER, someone else on here posted the same exact thing a day after my ER and I saw a bunch of comments saying "all it takes is one". I chose to take that as a positive sign. There was STILL hope.
So, all this to say that I do have a lot of hugs for you and I don't want you to hate me. But, please know that you have a huge probability of success. I'll be crossing everything for you.
Post by notoriousmeg on Jan 17, 2016 12:04:04 GMT -5
I'm sorry. The whole process is so draining. I totally understand wanting more, but if it helps I only had 1 fertilize, and he's running around my apartment like a crazy person right now. Big hugs and good luck!
you have 5 embryos right now...that's potentially 5 children!
Try to stay positive. I know how disappointing it is to not have a large number of embryos and to have follicles that didn't have mature eggs. It sucks.
But right now you have 5 embryos and that's awesome! That's one step closer to a baby then you have ever been!!!
Thank you all. I know I'm overreacting I just don't understand why it was so low. I am really hoping they all make it. The idea of having to do this again to have more than one child sucks, but the potential of having to do this all over again just to have one is terrifying.
I only had 4 of my 6 mature eggs fertilize, and only one made it to day 5. She's downstairs eating lunch right now. I know how hard it is, but it truly does only take one. Good luck.
Post by rachelgreen on Jan 17, 2016 12:43:32 GMT -5
I'm sorry you are down. IF can suck it. It's hard to stay positive when you had hopes for more in the fert report but you really do have a good chance of having a great transfer. I hope all grow like rockstars and you are able to do a 5dt with some awesome blasts!
Thank you all. I know I'm overreacting I just don't understand why it was so low. I am really hoping they all make it. The idea of having to do this again to have more than one child sucks, but the potential of having to do this all over again just to have one is terrifying.
There are so rarely satisfying answers with IF. It's maddening, and unfucking fair. *hug*
Post by UnderProtest on Jan 17, 2016 13:33:33 GMT -5
My RE always said that it was good if half the follicles were mature and then if half of the eggs fertilized. By that standard, you are doing awesome! I had two eggs fertilize and they are both currently upstairs wreaking havoc. I know nothing makes you feel better except for a successful pregnancy, but hang in there.
Thank you spearmintleaf. I haven't gotten a call back yet but I'll definitely be asking about that. I triggered on day 8 so I have to wonder if they triggered me too early. Fingers crossed they all grow.
Thank you spearmintleaf. I haven't gotten a call back yet but I'll definitely be asking about them. I triggered on day 8 so I have to wonder if they triggered me too early. Fingers crossed they all grow.
Your lead follicle was at 20, right? Maybe it would be good for you to ask why they do it that way. I'm sure there's a good reason.
I think so. Everyone must have grown a bit after my trigger because they said there were more follicles than they had told me the day before. I have to ask if they triggered me so early because of my rising E2 numbers. I also plan to ask why they had me start stimming at CD5 instead of 4. I know they know what they're doing I just want to make sure I understand all of it.
Your lead follicle was at 20, right? Maybe it would be good for you to ask why they do it that way. I'm sure there's a good reason.
I think so. Everyone must have grown a bit after my trigger because they said there were more follicles than they had told me the day before. I have to ask if they triggered me so early because of my rising E2 numbers. I also plan to ask why they had me start stimming at CD5 instead of 4. I know they know what they're doing I just want to make sure I understand all of it.
It's been a while since I've been through this, but if I remember correctly they estimate follies to grow 2mm after trigger which would put lead at around 22. I can't remember all your sizes at trigger, and sometimes they may let a lead get too big, but you also don't want to ovulate on your own before they can get them. Tricky timing. I went through 6 cycles and they changed things up each time based on how the last went. It's both so interesting to learn about/experience and an intense mind game all at the same time. I wish you the best of luck - a 100% fert rate is awesome!