@emtmissy I'm so glad that you were able to tell your H how you are feeling and he listened to you. Big hugs and I hope he keeps up with it.
awick14 Sending you all the positive thoughts and love I can your way. Huge ((((((hugs)))))). I've spent a lot of time this last year with that out of control feeling and it is so, so hard. I think looking for a therapist would be a good idea. I'm so sorry darling that you are feeling this way.