Well, almost. TR and I should have a joint D&C/E pity party tomorrow.
Nothing changed from last week, and the gestational sac was almost rectangular which I was told is abnormal but common for miscarriages. I was supposed to be 10w3d so I have a lot of placental material which is why they want to rush the D&E because it would result in a lot of pain and bleeding if it were to happen on its own at this point. Fun.
Of course it was not the news we wanted, but it's what I expected since I had already started feeling less "pregnant" over the weekend. We are sad but at peace with it since we've now had two weeks to come to terms with it. At this point I am just anxious for it to be over, although I am nervous about the procedure tomorrow since I've never had any sort of surgery before this.
A friend of mine who had two miscarriages between her two daughters told me that after having her second daughter, she knows this was the way it was supposed to be, this was the baby she was meant to have, and that really resonated with me. I know it will happen for us again, so I am mostly sad about the loss of this time. I was really excited to be pregnant with my sister who is due in November, but that ship has now sailed. And even though we hadn't told her or Emily about the pregnancy, Kate had already been saying she wanted a baby brother for her birthday (my due date should have been just three days after my due date with Kate and four days before her birthday). :(
Speaking of Kate, as if the past two weeks haven't been hard enough, on Friday night she tripped on the hardwood stairs, took a chunk out of her lip, AND knocked her top tooth backwards. I took her to the dentist today and was told the tooth should shift back into place on its own in a month or so, thank goodness, and her cut is getting better too and did not require a THIRD set of stitches. Parent of the decade here.
Sorry that was so long. I just wanted to get it all out because I plan on spending the rest of the night vegging out with the Tudors and ogling Henry Cavill. :)
Thanks again so much for all of your prayers and support over the past two weeks. It means so much, really.