L-O-effing-L!

[abcdefu]

I don't even know anymore!

I posted how I finally graduated physical therapy in early December 2016. Since I was doing really well, given the circumstances, I tried to catch up with wellness visits.

I went to the Gyno and posted how my pap and colposcopy came back as carcinoma in situ, aka stage 0 cervical cancer. Well my original gyno sent all my tests to my gyno-oncologist, EXCEPT FOR THE ONE OF THE LESION!!!

Well I just went to the dentist and guess fucking what?! I need a filling (NBD) and my wisdom teeth are severely impacted and all 4 need to come out.

Am I the only effing person who can't go for routine preventative care??? I'm due to a colonoscopy, but now I'm terrified!

I wish I could just have an anesthesiologist put me under and allow all my specialist to do whatever they need to do like an assembly line. A tummy tuck would be nice too!

Someone stick a fork in me please! I know there is nothing anyone can do, but I just needed to get this out! I usually talk to my mom, but shes out of the country on vacation and I don't want to ruin her vacation with this shit!

PS: I'm seeing my old counselor next week now that the conflict of interest is no longer an issue.  Hopefully seeing my counselor again will help me cope and I won't have to vent my life story here.

[Deleted]

I am so sorry you've had it rough. it's okay if you vent here. This did give me the image of them working on your mouth AND under your hood at the same time. Lol. Too bad they can't do it all at once and get it over with.

[abcdefu]

Feb 19, 2017 21:26:06 GMT -5 @lemonlover said:

I am so sorry you've had it rough. it's okay if you vent here. This did give me the image of them working on your mouth AND under your hood at the same time. Lol. Too bad they can't do it all at once and get it over with.

This is how I use humor to deal with everything. The image makes me laugh! I know I have a break coming up, I just don't know when! I just feel like my whole life is on pause due to all of these upcoming procedures.

I just want to be able to exercise, feel good about myself, and maybe even date a little.

I know I'll be okay. The wisdom teeth removal and LEEP are nothing compared to what I have been through. It just sucks right now.

Pity party of 1 please! lol

[redshoejune]

I'm sorry this is coming all at once. I hope you get a break soon.

[Linie]

That's a lot to deal with! Sending you strength and hugs

[abcdefu]

Thanks ladies! I know everything will work out, but it just feels like a pile-on. On the bright side, you can only have your wisdom teeth out once, right? Positive thinking!

I'm frustrated because I really want to go back to school, but keep having to push it back because of my health. UGH!

[itsmyparty]

I know how you feel. I had some medical procedures over the past five years or so - and maybe some coming up in the next couple of years - that I wish could all be done at once. Give me the anesthesia once and get it all over with, along with the pain pills, etc. Actually, most doctors probably prefer to do more than one procedure at a time if they're going to put someone "under," but anyway...

Sorry all of this is coming up just when you were feeling like you were getting over the hump. On the other hand, better to catch these things in the beginning, before they cause a lot of harm, right?

[abcdefu]

Feb 20, 2017 15:36:43 GMT -5 itsmyparty said:

I know how you feel. I had some medical procedures over the past five years or so - and maybe some coming up in the next couple of years - that I wish could all be done at once. Give me the anesthesia once and get it all over with, along with the pain pills, etc. Actually, most doctors probably prefer to do more than one procedure at a time if they're going to put someone "under," but anyway...

Sorry all of this is coming up just when you were feeling like you were getting over the hump. On the other hand, better to catch these things in the beginning, before they cause a lot of harm, right?

AMEN to the bolded!!!


Thank you! I hope you are doing better and that you can have procedure -free future! Also, I am sooo thankful I caught the cervical thing early. It could have been soooo bad!

[glynn]

Sorry for all your bad luck lately. Good Luck getting it all resolved.

[winecat]

Jeez. This is so not fair. I'm sorry you're going through this too.

[abcdefu]

I know it will all work out somehow. While I just want to curl up in a ball cry, I know that's not an option. I need to keep my body moving and keep my physical (and emotional) strength up!

I have a counseling session today. I hope I can learn some techniques to deal with all that is happening.

Thanks again ladies! <3

[jenstar]

I'm sorry abcdefu. FWIW I think it's ok to take a day and just be sad and sorry for yourself. Cry, eat ice cream etc. I don't think you're the type of person who would get stuck in that space, but letting yourself be there for a little bit might be therapeutic? x

[Deleted]

Hugs abcdefu. I just saw this.

[jenstar]

How are you going abcdefu? Hope you aren't still feeling too down x

[abcdefu]

Mar 7, 2017 5:40:50 GMT -5 jenstar said:

How are you going abcdefu? Hope you aren't still feeling too down x

Thanks for checking in on me. I'm doing okay considering the pendency of another 2 surgical procedures. I'm scheduled to see the oral surgeon April 3rd.

As for the gyno oncologist, I see her again in august for repeat pap and colposcopy. The lesion is .2 cm so she wants to see if it's progressing before putting me in a potentially dangerous position that could re-injure my spinal cord.

I'm trying to remain positive. I signed up for a 5k that I'm going to wheel next month, so I'm excited for that!

[jenstar]

Mar 7, 2017 7:40:20 GMT -5 abcdefu said:

Mar 7, 2017 5:40:50 GMT -5 jenstar said:

How are you going abcdefu ? Hope you aren't still feeling too down x

Thanks for checking in on me. I'm doing okay considering the pendency of another 2 surgical procedures. I'm scheduled to see the oral surgeon April 3rd.

As for the gyno oncologist, I see her again in august for repeat pap and colposcopy. The lesion is .2 cm so she wants to see if it's progressing before putting me in a potentially dangerous position that could re-injure my spinal cord.

I'm trying to remain positive. I signed up for a 5k that I'm going to wheel next month, so I'm excited for that!

Honestly, you are an inspiration. I really really wish that this crappy stuff was shared around a bit more rather than good people like you and my sister having to deal with multiple health issues at once. It seems so incredibly unfair, and you both handle it with such grace.

[abcdefu]

Mar 8, 2017 4:01:25 GMT -5 jenstar said:

Mar 7, 2017 7:40:20 GMT -5 abcdefu said:

Thanks for checking in on me. I'm doing okay considering the pendency of another 2 surgical procedures. I'm scheduled to see the oral surgeon April 3rd.

As for the gyno oncologist, I see her again in august for repeat pap and colposcopy. The lesion is .2 cm so she wants to see if it's progressing before putting me in a potentially dangerous position that could re-injure my spinal cord.

I'm trying to remain positive. I signed up for a 5k that I'm going to wheel next month, so I'm excited for that!

Honestly, you are an inspiration. I really really wish that this crappy stuff was shared around a bit more rather than good people like you and my sister having to deal with multiple health issues at once. It seems so incredibly unfair, and you both handle it with such grace.

Thank you! Reading your kind words over my morning coffee, put a smile on my face. I am remaining hopeful that everything will just come together one day. Wisdom teeth can only be removed once, right?

[jenstar]

Mar 8, 2017 7:40:01 GMT -5 abcdefu said:

Mar 8, 2017 4:01:25 GMT -5 jenstar said:

Honestly, you are an inspiration. I really really wish that this crappy stuff was shared around a bit more rather than good people like you and my sister having to deal with multiple health issues at once. It seems so incredibly unfair, and you both handle it with such grace.

Thank you! Reading your kind words over my morning coffee, put a smile on my face. I am remaining hopeful that everything will just come together one day. Wisdom teeth can only be removed once, right?

Lol thankfully yes, I'm pretty sure they don't grow back!

[moolarkey]

I had to have pre-op testing done before I had bunions remove from both feet. Doctor found a cyst in a breast, did a needle biopsy but since I was going to be having surgery for my feet, he suggested we remove the cyst at the same time. He came in first, removed the cyst (benigh) and then my foot guy was to wait and come in after. No, he came in during. Yay, I wanted the foot surgeon to see my boobs too - free show, everyone come on in!

[abcdefu]

Mar 8, 2017 17:42:14 GMT -5 moolarkey said:

I had to have pre-op testing done before I had bunions remove from both feet. Doctor found a cyst in a breast, did a needle biopsy but since I was going to be having surgery for my feet, he suggested we remove the cyst at the same time. He came in first, removed the cyst (benigh) and then my foot guy was to wait and come in after. No, he came in during. Yay, I wanted the foot surgeon to see my boobs too - free show, everyone come on in!

O.M.G.

The best, or should I say breast, day for the foot surgeon! Here I was only joking, but now I know there may be a chance it could happen!