She's gone

[luv2rn4fun]

L and I went back to the hospital this morning. It took awhile to see her because they were trying to get an arterial port in for blood pressure. When I finally saw her I told my aunt this isn't what she wants. Doctor confirmed multiple organ shut down and that they couldn't do anything else for her. She had a UTI and pneumonia. So we made the decision to medicate for comfort and remove all life saving drugs and machines. Once the breathing tube was removed she passed within 1 min. She never took a breath.

These past two days have been horribly hard. So many emotions. I am sad I never got to say once last time how much I love her (I did these last two days but she didn't know). Anyways, thank you so much for all your thoughts and prayers...they truly mean a lot to me.

[christy082]

I'm so, so sorry. Sending lots of love to you.

[katespade]

I am so incredibly sorry for your loss, luv2rn4fun. I can't even begin to imagine what you're going through. I will continue to keep you and your family in my prayers.

[wanderingenough]

I'm so so sorry, luv.

[awick14]

I'm so sorry for you loss. I can't imagine how hard this is for you. Losing a parent is hard enough without the added problems you've been going through. ((Hugs))

Please know that your mom knew you loved her, even if it didn't seem like it this last year.

[grover]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[tacocat]

I am so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you were able to be there with her. Thoughts and prayers for you and your family.

[bk1]

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Keeping you in my t&ps.

[estrellita]

I'm so so sorry. I wish you had been able to talk to her but I'm sure she knew you were there and knew how much you cared. Thinking of you <3

[wineandcheese]

I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Blue Moon]

Oh, luv2rn4fun I'm so very sorry for the loss of your mom. I can't imagine the emotions you're experiencing but just know that I'm keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. We are all here for you.

[pooh8402]

I'm so so sorry. Please know that your mom knows you love her. She knows.

Take care of yourself.

[HoneySpider]

I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending hugs and continued thoughts & prayers. Please let us know if you need anything <3

[melsamoony]

Oh my goodness. I am so so so so sorry. I hope you are able to take some time to take care of yourself friend.

[MrsMB]

Gosh, my breath was taken away when I saw the title.

Please use us to vent...cry....whatever you need. PM too if you need. I'm so very sorry. Know that she knew you loved her....even if things weren't in the best of circumstances. God has a way of working those things out.

I'm so very sorry, friend.

[ewall]

Oh luv2rn4fun, so many hugs. I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

[amaranth]

I am so very sorry my friend I know there's nothing anyone can say to make it better, but do know your mom knew you loved her. You were a wonderful daughter and she was so blessed to have you in her life. *hugs *

[Deleted]

I am so sorry for your loss.

[luv2rn4fun]

Thanks ladies. I really appreciate all of your kind words, thoughts, and prayers. I am struggling big time and I know this is going to be hard to process. I had accepted our relationship, which was non existent, maybe because I was holding onto hope that someday things would be different. This was my biggest fear. The last we communicated was last Mother's Day and our birthdays (end of June and beginning of July). I still have the birthday card she sent me and read it last night. I am thankful we got to the point of being able to say we loved each other and wanted nothing of the best for each other, even if that meant us not having a relationship for the time being. But it hurts really bad and I am having trouble not being mad at her for leaving me on these terms. I guess I need to focus on knowing we can reconcile one day in heaven.

L and I are heading out when he wakes up. Probably spend today and tomorrow at her house. Hoping to go to the zoo Friday. I won't be on here much for an very thankful for you ladies.

[MrsMB]

luv2rn4fun ((hugs)) We are totally here for when you need us!!! Prayers will continue to be sent your way for sure!!!

[rockinrobyn]

I am so sorry for your loss. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

[krystee]

I am just seeing this and wanted to say I am so, so sorry. Big hugs to you. I truly believe she knows how much you love her, and you will have the chance to be with her again. But that doesn't make things any easier right now. Be kind to yourself and take all the time you need to grieve. We are here for you.