Post by amandakisser on Apr 20, 2017 19:44:05 GMT -5
One of the side effects Zoloft has on me is the inability to cry, which is normally a welcome change because I used to cry about EVERYTHING. My anxiety caused me to have a hair-pin trigger in that regard.
But tonight, due to lack of sleep, stress from my kids, and a colleague MAJORLY throwing me under the bus, I just had an hour-long cry fest. I haven't had a good cry like this in...well, I don't even remember. It was cathartic - and exhausting. I'm expecting a major crying hangover tomorrow lol.
I had one yesterday. Our offer wasn't accepted on a house we really wanted, and I had a crap day at work. Plus maybe PG hormones. I'm over crying, lol.
Post by jellymankelly on Apr 20, 2017 19:56:10 GMT -5
Daily. I'm in that "I'm so anxious everything makes me cry" stage that you mentioned. I do remember that feeling of not being able to cry when I was on anxiety meds years ago and it was the strangest feeling after being a very emotional person my whole life. It just hit me one day that I couldn't remember the last time I had cried, and that wasn't something I had ever been able to say!
Post by RexManningDay on Apr 20, 2017 20:16:52 GMT -5
It's been a long time. Since I was pregnant for sure, so at least 2016. I've teared up, I think, but that's all.
I am currently being medicated for PPD, but I only started that like 2 weeks ago. Before that, one of my major symptoms was pretty strong apathy in general so ... lol, it's been a while.
I got pretty weepy when I got a bad evaluation from my principal about a month ago, but other than that, my anti-depressant has stopped me from crying too much, too.
Probably going to have one tonight. It's been a shitty week at work. Not bad stuff happening to me, but bad stuff happening to other people that work for me. Like really bad. And it's all piled up.
I saw the photo shoot a family did with their dog on his last day like two weeks ago. Fucking ugly crying. Lost two dogs in 2015 and it's still fresh when I see stuff like that.
Post by textbookcase on Apr 20, 2017 20:52:51 GMT -5
Well, it's been just over a month since my dad died. My ugly crying has gotten better but it's been like 2 solid months (while he was sick until now) of lots of tears. Prior to that it had been quite awhile since I had really cried.
Post by ElizabethBennet on Apr 20, 2017 21:08:42 GMT -5
I think one is gonna happen tonight. The movers are coming tomorrow and I'm just so fucking overwhelmed. School is kicking my ass. I have three papers to write in the next week. I have so many little things to do for the move that are adding up. My kids are driving me insane. And we have no local help at all and I just wish I could send my kids away for the afternoon so I can actually get shit done.
And shitty extended family stuff happened over the weekend that just solidified even more that I'm really not a part of that family anymore, and it hurts.
I tear up sometimes, but I couldn't tell you the last time I had a GOOD cry. My dogs both died last year and I cried a lot about them, but usually not for more than a few minutes at a time. I just felt SAD.
Actually, I think the last time I sobbed was on election night when I realized Trump actually got elected. Ugh.
I recently stopped taking ADs and I do find myself tearing up more frequently now. Which is a good thing - sometimes I feel like an ice queen and like I should cry more often than I do.
This morning, I guess? It's totally lame, but I've been dealing with foot pain from plantar fasciitis for the last few months and I'm just over it. I feel like my body is failing me (just got over strep throat too and I'm pretty much always sick from DD). She was being a total pain to get ready this morning (solo since H was away for work) and my foot was killing and I just lost it. I feel bad, I think I scared DD.
Sigh. I'm too young to feel this broken. And I can't figure out how to make it better so I feel kind of hopeless like I'm going to be limping and in constant pain forever.
Post by mousemelon2 on Apr 20, 2017 22:00:21 GMT -5
Tonight. My exH has his first unsupervised visit with E since he took him to Utah and refused to return him. He's agreed to bring him home at night and I have a GPS tracker in the diaper bag but I am TERRIFIED something is going to happen. I was putting E to bed and just started sobbing because I'm scared he's going to get taken away from me again.
About a week ago I went into a private locker room at work and bawled my eyes out. I was just so tired from being up all the time and the exhaustion and stress of work, being pregnant, and caring for a toddler kind of hit me all at once. I wish I hadn't been at work because I could have kept on crying for a good while.
Post by lexxasaurus on Apr 20, 2017 22:39:31 GMT -5
textbookcase, I'm sorry about your dad. I was just talking earlier today to a coworker about how sometimes I feel odd when I'm *not* crying because it has been such a constant thing for weeks and weeks since my dad started going downhill quickly. I hope it's getting a little easier for you, and sending lots of hugs.
This morning, I guess? It's totally lame, but I've been dealing with foot pain from plantar fasciitis for the last few months and I'm just over it. I feel like my body is failing me (just got over strep throat too and I'm pretty much always sick from DD). She was being a total pain to get ready this morning (solo since H was away for work) and my foot was killing and I just lost it. I feel bad, I think I scared DD.
Sigh. I'm too young to feel this broken. And I can't figure out how to make it better so I feel kind of hopeless like I'm going to be limping and in constant pain forever.
Have you tried KT Tape? I struggled with orthotics and stupid foot wrap things for a couple of years and taping my arches up with KT tape changed my life. I looked dumb for a summer for sure, but doing it daily allowed my muscles to heal no matter what shoes I was wearing and now I only tape them up for intense activities like playing Ultimate Frisbee, long hikes, runs, etc. I have been pain free for two years and through my whole pregnancy which was a godsend.
Last week!! We have had a lot happening within my family but hopefully its passing.
I will say, I held my tears in for hours and hours at a time and had a constamt sense of dread. Then i would just bawl on the way home from work and it felt good to let it out.
textbookcase, I'm sorry about your dad. I was just talking earlier today to a coworker about how sometimes I feel odd when I'm *not* crying because it has been such a constant thing for weeks and weeks since my dad started going downhill quickly. I hope it's getting a little easier for you, and sending lots of hugs.
Yes! It did feel weird when I wasn't crying daily anymore. I had at least one breakdown a day when he was sick and for the first few weeks after he died. It's getting a little easier, I hope it is for you too. Hugs.
This morning, I guess? It's totally lame, but I've been dealing with foot pain from plantar fasciitis for the last few months and I'm just over it. I feel like my body is failing me (just got over strep throat too and I'm pretty much always sick from DD). She was being a total pain to get ready this morning (solo since H was away for work) and my foot was killing and I just lost it. I feel bad, I think I scared DD.
Sigh. I'm too young to feel this broken. And I can't figure out how to make it better so I feel kind of hopeless like I'm going to be limping and in constant pain forever.
Please get some good shoes, for flip flops or other sandals, consider Olukai. This has been a game changer for my PF, as well as properly fitted athetlic shoes. I basically don't suffer from PF pain anymore (knock on wood)
I had a good cry last week to my boss letting him know this amount of work and pressure is unsustainable for me, and I was on the verge of taking a hiatus bc I could not take it anymore. He panicked, and we hired someone this week bc of it.
Before that was Feb 22nd, when we put our dog down. That was really hard.
Big huge hugs to textbookcase and @kizmet especially. Losing a parent is a pain that I haven't yet experienced but I know 1 million % it will be one of the most difficult things in my life to deal with.
Thank you, hugs to you too. I never thought that he would be dead already. I thought we had so much more time. It's SUCH a mindfuck to lose a parent.
Post by fivechickens on Apr 21, 2017 11:00:40 GMT -5
Last September. It was about my daughter and her needing a parapro. The school was taking their sweet ass time getting her one. I was beyond stressed (she can't be at school without a parapro) and tired of fighting (though I will never not fight for them). After yet another bullshit email from the director I broke down.
I almost did the other day. I was stressed out because my good friend's siblings are being assholes and she doesn't need the added stress (she is in the midst of recovering from a stroke). Later that day, my daughter's teacher emailed to let me know of a minor thing that happened at school. It was really no big deal but that added on to my friend's stuff I almost lost it. Luckily for me, I am a pro at shoving my emotions away, had a beer and kept the tears at bay.
Someone posted one of those videos about rescue dogs on Facebook - touching grass for the first time, their first bed, their first toy, their first forever home, and I sobbed for like 10 minutes.
Earlier this week some 90s country song came up on my Amazon Music station about a grandmother dying and the grandfather reading some note that she left for them way back when they were running away together, and how he'd wait for her and "meet her when his chores were through" and I sat in the car openly weeping for ages. I'm a damn mess.
last week. I was in a car accident and I cried over my car which was totaled. It was a 2006 Acura TL. DH and I bought it new with 57 miles and was our first major purchase. I cried over having to find a new car, the thought of car payments etc. I was very lucky to walk away from the accident with just a black eye since the other person ran a red light going 45 mph.