So, I was sick last Monday night. Like, actual throwing up. Started to feel the same way last night. H was like, um, are you pg?
Logically, I know I can't be. The timing is totally off, we use condoms every time, and we needed IVF for dd. But him even asking is freaking me out, lol.
I'm so done with Facebook. I'm rarely on anymore because I couldn't take the stupidity around the election, vaccines, SAHM/WM battles, and who knows whatever else. Log in this morning at 3/4 of my feed is "likes" by friends on posts of people I have NEVER heard of and don't care about. I stopped counting at 26 consecutive posts.
Done.
Oh, and Bernadine, take a test. It'll give you peace of mind. I keep a couple on hand for sanity purposes, LOL.
It's "Fun Day" at school today, not to be confused with "Field Day" because we are in the process of building a turf field and don't have space for all the activities and parent paparazzi. Two more days of school left, which is great but I have anxiety about being home with my own kids all summer. I just was not born to be a stay at home mom but I can't justify a ton of camps because we can't really afford them just so that I don't have to entertain the boys all day.
Went to dinner with friend and last night-- Lebanese food-- and I am still full. My God, though. It was so good.
Bernadine test and reassure yourself. That's how my acid reflux manifests (throwing up the excess acid) any chance you had meals that caused issues those nights?
My appointment to confirm the miscarriage is in three hours. Time is standing still.
Things have slowed down physically, so I'm nervous about what the next steps will be. I guess D&C? I think I would prefer that so we can just get things over with.
A tiny part of me is holding on to hope that it's still possible that things are okay, but I know it's stupid with the amount of bleeding that I had.
It's "Fun Day" at school today, not to be confused with "Field Day" because we are in the process of building a turf field and don't have space for all the activities and parent paparazzi. Two more days of school left, which is great but I have anxiety about being home with my own kids all summer. I just was not born to be a stay at home mom but I can't justify a ton of camps because we can't really afford them just so that I don't have to entertain the boys all day.
Went to dinner with friend and last night-- Lebanese food-- and I am still full. My God, though. It was so good.
I have been home with my 1 year old for a week straight now and it's killing me. I feel you. I start my new job Monday though. He is teething and fussy and is really wearing on my patience.
DH got up with DS1 and it's going well! No way to know what the rest of getting ready and school drop off will be like, but this is great news so far! I'm so excited that he's going to school today.
I fell down some stairs last night, it wasn't too bad, it was just a few stairs but I have some bruises on my back and my shoulders and wrists hurt from catching myself.
I WFH and my son has been out of daycare for a month. We will be paying my stepdaughter to watch him when school lets out until he starts school in September, but I'm doing both for now. Today I put on Homeward Bound, he's not paying any attention and I'm trying to work through my tears lol. BAD CHOICE SELF.
I fell down some stairs last night, it wasn't too bad, it was just a few stairs but I have some bruises on my back and my shoulders and wrists hurt from catching myself.
I WFH and my son has been out of daycare for a month. We will be paying my stepdaughter to watch him when school lets out until he starts school in September, but I'm doing both for now. Today I put on Homeward Bound, he's not paying any attention and I'm trying to work through my tears lol. BAD CHOICE SELF.
Aw, I love Homeward Bound! I definitely cry at that movie, though.
I fell down some stairs last night, it wasn't too bad, it was just a few stairs but I have some bruises on my back and my shoulders and wrists hurt from catching myself.
I WFH and my son has been out of daycare for a month. We will be paying my stepdaughter to watch him when school lets out until he starts school in September, but I'm doing both for now. Today I put on Homeward Bound, he's not paying any attention and I'm trying to work through my tears lol. BAD CHOICE SELF.
Aw, I love Homeward Bound! I definitely cry at that movie, though.
Ugh it just ended. I'm all "SHADOWWWWW". I watched that on repeat when I was a kid.
We went to McDonalds this weekend as a treat. We were joking with DS that we were going to get him octopus nuggets and broccoli fries.
DS- No, Dad! No broccoli! H- Then how about carrot fries? DS- No! No carrots! H- Ok, ok, potato fries, then. DS- No, Dad! No potato fries! Me- Malcolm, fries are made out of potatoes. DS- No potatoes!
I feel awful today. I think it's an IBS flare up? I'm not sure but I just want to curl up in a ball. We're supposed to take a hike this afternoon since it's finally nice out so that stinks
I met up with the woman who we're planning on hiring to be DS's nanny for part of the summer last night. She's very nice, her references are awesome and DS really seemed to like her. Such a huge relief to get that figured out.
I'm so done with Facebook. I'm rarely on anymore because I couldn't take the stupidity around the election, vaccines, SAHM/WM battles, and who knows whatever else. Log in this morning at 3/4 of my feed is "likes" by friends on posts of people I have NEVER heard of and don't care about. I stopped counting at 26 consecutive posts.
Done.
Oh, and Bernadine , take a test. It'll give you peace of mind. I keep a couple on hand for sanity purposes, LOL.
I need to pick some up- h couldn't believe I didn't have any.
We went to McDonalds this weekend as a treat. We were joking with DS that we were going to get him octopus nuggets and broccoli fries.
DS- No, Dad! No broccoli! H- Then how about carrot fries? DS- No! No carrots! H- Ok, ok, potato fries, then. DS- No, Dad! No potato fries! Me- Malcolm, fries are made out of potatoes. DS- No potatoes!
Life with a four year old.
This reminds me of when Ellie's mind was blown when I told her chicken nuggets were made from...CHICKENS!
DD (6) is getting the sportsmanship award from her Little League team this year. I am so proud of her!
Also, because I am a one note baseball mom, DS (8) starts playoffs tomorrow and will be pitching. I get so nervous when he pitches, while he looks all cool and tough LOL
We are going on vaca to Maine for a week starting the 17th, and it cannot get here fast enough!
I took my kid to urgent care last night because we haven't been able to get a grip on his allergies this year with OTC meds. She prescribed this nasal spray stuff. I went to get it at the pharmacy and our insurance won't cover it and it's nearly $200 cash price. WHAT THE WHAT? They were able to figure out something different, but I was already home. Seriously, this poor kid. He's a mess.
A co-worker of mine was fire last week. Today, I get to meet with HR to give feedback on my manager. That's weird to me. I wonder if they are expecting a lawsuit.
Last night as I was getting DD1 ready for bed, she said, "look, mommy! When I touch my privates it tickles!" I had to turn my head so she didn't see me laughing, and so I could maturely tell her that, yes, it tickles, and you can do it any time you want as long as it is in private. She was all, "ok, mommy! In privacy!"
I managed to get a TON done at work yesterday, so I'm giving myself til 10:30 to fuck around and then it's time to buckle down again. I had two hours' worth of meeting cancelled today so I'm in a really good spot for a change.
Bernadine, I took a test last month even though I knew like you that I couldn't be pregnant. It was negative, thank the Lord.
DS is sick as of yesterday. H and I have our first joint overnight away from DS planned for this weekend to celebrate our 8th anniversary. It's to be my very first overnight away from DS! If he gets me sick and/or we have to cancel I will be so so sad and disappointed. I've been looking forward to this for months!
I thought it was Thursday apparently as I was trying to find what site to go watch Comey testify. Whoops.
The thread with everyone's proposal stories was so cute, but admittedly it made me a little sad. I want to be happily remarried again so badly, I'm a really good wife and partner. I miss having that person that knows you better than anyone that you have the little inside jokes with Etc
I'm not unhappy on my own, it's just lonely, especially with DS. I'm dating a really nice guy, and I think we could possibly get married down the road, but he's had two nasty divorces from alcoholic women that cheated on him so he seems to have trust issues.
I know all of this is part of the process, just having a little pity party today between my loneliness, my upcoming court date with XH, and my stupid foot surgery which is set for July 3rd. Calgon take me away!