What's up?

[blane12]

Hey guys!!! I have missed you all so much! I'm glad you guys are still 'here' and it's so good to hear from you guys.

I've been checking in once a week or so, but always seem to get distracted before posting.

Things have been busy here. Colt basically potty trained himself once I pushed him to get on the potty. Besides a poop incident here or there (I think it just came quicker than he expected lol), he's been accident free. It's amazing since B was almost 4 before he actually potty trained. He is blowing me away with his speech and intuition. When Blake gets mad, or has a tantrum, he always says, 'Blake, are you happy?' It's the sweetest.

We went through a rough patch with B where I was really struggling, but I think we're on track again. He would just get really frustrated, cry, and hit me, and nothing would make it better and I really felt like I was failing him.

I THINK I made the decision to stop seeing our beloved ST who is 2hrs round trip away when K starts. We wouldn't be able to get there until 5p and not get home until around 8p after K, and I just feel like that will be too much for him. I'm going to see how he does with the transition to school, but may look into some speech and OT locally. His therapist has told me she's not really using PROMPT anymore as he's in a place where they can use more 'traditional' therapy, so I think even if we do use someone local, it'll be ok. I'm just really going to miss her, and he will too. She was literally the missing piece to getting him to talk. TrudyCampbell - I give you credit for pushing me to find PROMPT therapy for him. It was life changing for us.

I'll try to do a better job posting here. I truly think of all of you as good friends.

[blane12]

TrudyCampbell - I'm sorry you've been having tough times! How are things going with V and school? I'm assuming that's where most the stress and anxiety is coming from? Thinking of you!

[blane12]

sunshineluv - I'm sorry you're still dealing with issues with A. Poor girl! Retirement in 3 years sounds amazing- I'm jealous! I hope he gets the job!!

[blane12]

bean47 - there's no way she's 3 already! I hope the visit to the ENT goes well. Surgery sounds scary, but you're right that it's better to do it now if needed.

[blane12]

I'm dieting too. I'm going intermittent fasting and beachbodys new program Shift Shop. I'm really making myself stay committed and not bear off the meal plan because I NEED to lose this weight. Plus, my SIL's wedding is next month.

[sunshineluv]

blane12, I am sorry things were rough for a bit, and glad things are back on track. You are not failing him, you are an outstanding mom and advocate for him.

*I think you made the right decision about the ST, that sounds like too long of a day for a 5 year old.

[blane12]

Thanks sunshineluv. It's so frustrating because I feel like most of the time it's because he didn't get his way (wanted iPad and I said no, etc) and then he just gets so pissed/frustrated and breaks down and I feel like I should be able to calm him or help him deal with it. Idk. I can't help wonder how much is typically developing behavior vs. apraxia behavior. I refuse to make him not listen either way. And he's soooooo stubborn which makes it hard too. (I like to blame his dad for that, but I know it's from me). It was just a really bad week or so of me crying on the way to work, and him crying himself to sleep. I'm hopeful it will stay good. It was just kind of out of nowhere because he's always been my little snuggle bug momma' boy.