Week of 10/1

[icedcoffee]

Had my baseline this morning.  They saw a "small" cyst on one side.  Fuck, man.  I asked the ultrasound tech what that could mean and it sounds like if my estrogen is elevated we won't continue, but if it's in line we'll still continue.  UGH.  I've never been told I had a cyst.  WTF!?!?  I guess now I just wait for them to call with my bloodwork results.

[seeyalater52]

Troll ovaries! I’m sorry icedcoffee, I hope your bloodwork comes back normal and you’re able to proceed with the cycle.

I’m on CD8 of what will likely be a 35+ day rest cycle. Stupid long cycles. I’ll be lucky if we can start FET prep at the veeeerrryyyy tail end of October. I’m going to use OPKs (lololol) just so I can have some idea of what the heck is going on timing-wise.

[icedcoffee]

So annoying. I have 99 problems, but cysts are not normally one of them. Ha.

seeyalater52,I hope AF comes quickly. I didn't even have patience for OPKs when we were trying "naturally". They always confused me.

[scm1011]

Ugh, I'm sorry icedcoffee. That's really frustrating. I hope your estrogen levels allow you to continue.

seeyalater52, I also have super long and irregular cycles. Never less that 32/33 days, but definitely not uncommon to go 40-45 days either. I never get PMS cramps either so When my period is going to arrive is always a giant effing mystery. I hope yours comes quickly.

[seeyalater52]

Oct 1, 2018 7:24:18 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

So annoying. I have 99 problems, but cysts are not normally one of them. Ha.

seeyalater52,I hope AF comes quickly. I didn't even have patience for OPKs when we were trying "naturally". They always confused me.

We did 16 cycles of timed inseminations before we started formal treatment so I have a loooooooot of practice with OPKs but I really thought that nonsense was behind us at this point. Pretty sure not knowing is worse, though.

[woowoo]

Had my first beta draw this morning and am just waiting on results.

[megstoo]

Oct 1, 2018 7:19:16 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Had my baseline this morning.  They saw a "small" cyst on one side.  Fuck, man.  I asked the ultrasound tech what that could mean and it sounds like if my estrogen is elevated we won't continue, but if it's in line we'll still continue.  UGH.  I've never been told I had a cyst.  WTF!?!?  I guess now I just wait for them to call with my bloodwork results.

I had the same thing happen when we were doing our first IUI.  Mine was an estrogen producing cyst.  I went on BC for 8 weeks and it still didn't shrink so I had to have it aspirated.  Good Luck!!

[megstoo]

I had my 2nd IUI on Saturday and sadly I'm already feeling defeated. I'm blaming DH for last cycle and this one for lack of action so to speak which isn't fair to him.  The excuses have been to tired, stressed and he hates being told when to preform.  I'll give him the to tired since he's been working until 1130 all weekend and I have to be up at 6.  Our schedules this weekend have been complete opposites.  This is the last IUI we're doing and will be looking into IVF after beta.

[icedcoffee]

Oct 1, 2018 10:07:44 GMT -5 megstoo said:

Oct 1, 2018 7:19:16 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Had my baseline this morning.  They saw a "small" cyst on one side.  Fuck, man.  I asked the ultrasound tech what that could mean and it sounds like if my estrogen is elevated we won't continue, but if it's in line we'll still continue.  UGH.  I've never been told I had a cyst.  WTF!?!?  I guess now I just wait for them to call with my bloodwork results.

I had the same thing happen when we were doing our first IUI.  Mine was an estrogen producing cyst.  I went on BC for 8 weeks and it still didn't shrink so I had to have it aspirated.  Good Luck!!

8 WEEKS?!?!  OMG .  I really hope that is not the case.  I'm really mad at my ovaries right now.

[icedcoffee]

Oct 1, 2018 10:10:06 GMT -5 megstoo said:

I had my 2nd IUI on Saturday and sadly I'm already feeling defeated. I'm blaming DH for last cycle and this one for lack of action so to speak which isn't fair to him.  The excuses have been to tired, stressed and he hates being told when to preform.  I'll give him the to tired since he's been working until 1130 all weekend and I have to be up at 6.  Our schedules this weekend have been complete opposites.  This is the last IUI we're doing and will be looking into IVF after beta.

I'm so sorry.  It's really stressful for both sides.  When we were trying I actually at one point screamed "just effing go already".  It's terrible and obviously that isn't going to make it happen any quicker.  I hope this IUI is it for you guys!

[megstoo]

Oct 1, 2018 10:13:07 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Oct 1, 2018 10:07:44 GMT -5 megstoo said:

I had the same thing happen when we were doing our first IUI.  Mine was an estrogen producing cyst.  I went on BC for 8 weeks and it still didn't shrink so I had to have it aspirated.  Good Luck!!

8 WEEKS?!?!  OMG .  I really hope that is not the case.  I'm really mad at my ovaries right now.

Yup, it was 8 painful weeks and I still had to go in for monitoring every 3 days.  Originally the RE was going to give it 2 months before aspiration but than at month 2 is stopped growing so he waited another week to see if it would go away or decrease in size but the fucker grew again.  Aspiration was literally no recovery and we were into cycle 1 of IUI the week after.  The cyst for me was 78mm before it was aspirated which is large.  

A LOT of times though cysts go away on their own.  My body just wanted to give me a giant FU.  

[icedcoffee]

Oct 1, 2018 10:15:44 GMT -5 megstoo said:

Oct 1, 2018 10:13:07 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

8 WEEKS?!?!  OMG .  I really hope that is not the case.  I'm really mad at my ovaries right now.

Yup, it was 8 painful weeks and I still had to go in for monitoring every 3 days.  Originally the RE was going to give it 2 months before aspiration but than at month 2 is stopped growing so he waited another week to see if it would go away or decrease in size but the fucker grew again.  Aspiration was literally no recovery and we were into cycle 1 of IUI the week after.

A LOT of times though cysts go away on their own.  My body just wanted to give me a giant FU.  

Every 3 days for 8 weeks?!?  You are a saint for not losing all of your marbles.  I would have been so angry that they didn't just do an aspiration to start with.

[King26]

Oct 1, 2018 10:13:07 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Oct 1, 2018 10:07:44 GMT -5 megstoo said:

I had the same thing happen when we were doing our first IUI.  Mine was an estrogen producing cyst.  I went on BC for 8 weeks and it still didn't shrink so I had to have it aspirated.  Good Luck!!

8 WEEKS?!?!  OMG .  I really hope that is not the case.  I'm really mad at my ovaries right now.

Unfortunately this was the case for me as well. 6 weeks on BCP's, it still was producing estrogen so 4 more weeks and then it was gone

[King26]

Oct 1, 2018 10:17:43 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Oct 1, 2018 10:15:44 GMT -5 megstoo said:

Yup, it was 8 painful weeks and I still had to go in for monitoring every 3 days.  Originally the RE was going to give it 2 months before aspiration but than at month 2 is stopped growing so he waited another week to see if it would go away or decrease in size but the fucker grew again.  Aspiration was literally no recovery and we were into cycle 1 of IUI the week after.

A LOT of times though cysts go away on their own.  My body just wanted to give me a giant FU.  

Every 3 days for 8 weeks?!?  You are a saint for not losing all of your marbles.  I would have been so angry that they didn't just do an aspiration to start with.

Whoa. I didnt have monitoring at all during my 6 weeks then 4 weeks on BCP. Only at 6 weeks to see if it was gone then again at 4 weeks.

[icedcoffee]

Oct 1, 2018 11:34:22 GMT -5 King26 said:

Oct 1, 2018 10:13:07 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

8 WEEKS?!?!  OMG .  I really hope that is not the case.  I'm really mad at my ovaries right now.

Unfortunately this was the case for me as well. 6 weeks on BCP's, it still was producing estrogen so 4 more weeks and then it was gone

You guys are scaring me!  LOL.  Hopefully I hear from my nurse soon.

[starryfish]

Oct 1, 2018 10:10:06 GMT -5 megstoo said:

I had my 2nd IUI on Saturday and sadly I'm already feeling defeated. I'm blaming DH for last cycle and this one for lack of action so to speak which isn't fair to him.  The excuses have been to tired, stressed and he hates being told when to preform.  I'll give him the to tired since he's been working until 1130 all weekend and I have to be up at 6.  Our schedules this weekend have been complete opposites.  This is the last IUI we're doing and will be looking into IVF after beta.

Ugh I feel you. Sex after IUI is always horrible....so much pressure. Usually I dont tell DH that we "have" to do it, and if we dont, then oh well. We usually do back to back IUIs, and so its not like us doing it after IUI is going to really "help" or work after years of not being able to conceive on our own. 

[starryfish]

Oct 1, 2018 11:43:11 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Oct 1, 2018 11:34:22 GMT -5 King26 said:

Unfortunately this was the case for me as well. 6 weeks on BCP's, it still was producing estrogen so 4 more weeks and then it was gone

You guys are scaring me!  LOL.  Hopefully I hear from my nurse soon.

Ok I am here to give you some hopeful news. This cycle I had a small cyst (6 or 8cm I think). She said as long as it was less than 10cm we could cycle (IUI). Last month I had TWO cysts that were bigger, they did bloodwork and they were not producing estrogen but she didnt want me to cycle bc she said it could impact my response. So I went on BCP for ONE month only. Then was able to cycle this month. 

[starryfish]

We are doing IUI #2 next week with monitoring apt this Sunday. Other than that just KOKO.

[megstoo]

Oct 1, 2018 10:17:43 GMT -5 icedcoffee said:

Oct 1, 2018 10:15:44 GMT -5 megstoo said:

Yup, it was 8 painful weeks and I still had to go in for monitoring every 3 days.  Originally the RE was going to give it 2 months before aspiration but than at month 2 is stopped growing so he waited another week to see if it would go away or decrease in size but the fucker grew again.  Aspiration was literally no recovery and we were into cycle 1 of IUI the week after.

A LOT of times though cysts go away on their own.  My body just wanted to give me a giant FU.  

Every 3 days for 8 weeks?!?  You are a saint for not losing all of your marbles.  I would have been so angry that they didn't just do an aspiration to start with.

Yup, I'd go 2-3 times a week and each time was not only an ultrasound but frickin blood work.  I had so many damn prick marks in my arm a co worker (who doesn't know anything about this) ask'd if I was "shooting up". 


Luckily the clinic I'm at does monitoring from 7am to 9am every day.  Often times I'd take a 7am appt, get there a few minutes early at be out by 7:20.   

[icedcoffee]

Not an estrogen producing cyst!!!! I am so relieved. I was so worried. Phew.  We can continue as planned.  Stims start Thursday!

[Jalapeñomel]

Second transfer was a fail, and I think that my time for trying is over (I just don't think I have the time or energy to do it again). I hope this is the closure I need, and I've reached out to a local therapist to help me move on.

[icedcoffee]

I am so sorry Jalapeñomel.

[seeyalater52]

I'm so sorry Jalapeñomel. I hope you are able to get closure on this if that is what you want. I will be thinking of you. <3

[blt08]

I'm sorry Jalapeñomel.

[stellelinds25]

Jalapeñomel I'm so sorry...sending lots of positive thoughts.

I'm just hanging out...waiting for my period to show. I think I"ll be waiting awhile from what I'm hearing. I'm super emotional today, I don't know if it's just the process or if it's the hormones working their way out of my system.

[msmerymac]

Jalapeñomel, *hugs* I saw a therapist who specializes in infertility and I found it really helpful. I'll also plug RESOLVE groups. I have one that is professionally-led, but there are also a lot of peer-led support groups.

I'm working out my new insurance, so $350 for a doctor's appt yesterday. Cool, cool. When I called to make sure I'm registered in my insurance company's infertility program (which is apparently a separate thing you have to register for) they kept me on the phone for 20 minutes asking about my entire history of IF, so that was super fun. And then told me a nurse will call me in 3-4 days to go over everything for the second time, so I can spend time thinking about how I've been trying to get pregnant for 4 years, but have only had 2 miscarriages after 4 IUIs and 4 IVF cycles instead of, like, concentrating on work. Awesome.

Anyway, I have a consultation with another RE on 10/12 and a hysteroscopy on 10/15.

[seeyalater52]

Oct 2, 2018 9:39:21 GMT -5 msmerymac said:

I'm working out my new insurance, so $350 for a doctor's appt yesterday. Cool, cool. When I called to make sure I'm registered in my insurance company's infertility program (which is apparently a separate thing you have to register for) they kept me on the phone for 20 minutes asking about my entire history of IF, so that was super fun. And then told me a nurse will call me in 3-4 days to go over everything for the second time, so I can spend time thinking about how I've been trying to get pregnant for 4 years, but have only had 2 miscarriages after 4 IUIs and 4 IVF cycles instead of, like, concentrating on work. Awesome.

Anyway, I have a consultation with another RE on 10/12 and a hysteroscopy on 10/15.

Ugh, that is so annoying. I hope it isn't too painful and that your upcoming consultation and hysteroscopy go well. 

[seeyalater52]

I went to my first RESOLVE support group last night and it was really amazing. I'm so, so glad I went.

[bronxgirl]

Big hugs to you, Jalapeñomel. We should get together sometime for our own little support group (over drinks).

[latte]

I’m sorry Jalapeñomel