I know the feeling. We are in a good place now but there were times I wished for a normal pregnancy and not to have a child with special needs and not to have to go through certain things like fetal and heart surgery.
I get it. Things had been better for us since the start of 2019 as far as DS goes. Then in the last few weeks some of his more challenging behaviors have creeped back up. It's much easier to manage now that we know what we're dealing with and have been working on it. But still. There are days I wish things were just easy sometimes. Even on the good days...it's never easy. As an introvert myself I find myself withdrawing and wishing I could hide in a cave somewhere.
It’s stressful. I’d probably be perfectly satisfied with our local school if DD had no special needs. Instead, it just feels like a constant battle for support & I believe the school district employees are a bunch of liars. We’ve debated moving to another district (we were denied a transfer request), but worry it’s just be the same situation.