Post by seeyalater52 on Jun 1, 2019 10:00:04 GMT -5
Update: no fetal pole, no heartbeat, not enough growth in the gestational sac. It’s over.
Update: second beta is 133, for a doubling time of 60.88 hours. My doctor is happy but I wish it was a more definitive result. I go back on Friday.
It’s time to ‘fess up, and I could use some support. My 5th embryo transfer worked. We transferred my last two embryos (#6, 3AA & #7, 3BB) on Friday 5/24. I did a semi-natural FET and supplemented with endometrin after ovulation. My trigger shot was out of my system on Tuesday and I had a faint positive Thurs followed by a very strong positive on Friday. I’ve never had a test that dark.
Due to my history of early loss I had them bring me in for beta this morning at 8dp5dt. My beta was 77, which I and my clinic are very happy with given the early draw. However, my dark lines aren’t getting any darker this morning - they’re about the same, although arguably my FMU was more diluted today. I also had some light pink spotting last night into early this morning, and since I’m only supplementing with endometrin I’m going to start PIO tonight as well. I’m so scared. It is weird to say because I’ve had all my losses so early but this is the furthest I’ve ever gotten without clearly lightening tests.
I’m so fucking terrified I feel sick. No symptoms yet, maybe some mostly-in-my head nausea but no sore breasts or nipples. My re-draw is on Monday.
I am so glad you updated!! Congratulations on your BFP!! My pee sticks didn’t get darker and I’m pregnant with twins. 77 is a great beta. I have everything crossed for you!!
I am so glad you updated!! Congratulations on your BFP!! My pee sticks didn’t get darker and I’m pregnant with twins. 77 is a great beta. I have everything crossed for you!!
I know, I know. I totally get that it happens for people but after 3 cycles with progression that stalled out with lines that looked the same after a couple of days I feel much less confident in it.
Congratulations and Sending you strength! My sister in law is in the same place you are. Scared. She’s had losses as well and just found out last week after her fet she is pregnant.
I am so glad you updated!! Congratulations on your BFP!! My pee sticks didn’t get darker and I’m pregnant with twins. 77 is a great beta. I have everything crossed for you!!
I know, I know. I totally get that it happens for people but after 3 cycles with progression that stalled out with lines that looked the same after a couple of days I feel much less confident in it.
Thank you!
Oh no, I totally get it! There is some comfort in seeing that line get darker for sure. 😊
It's so hard to let yourself get excited after losses. But there's always a chance and it looks like things are starting out great! We're all rooting for you and want this to work. Good luck and just take it day by day.
Congratulations! Fingers crossed for a good repeat beta. After losses, it's totally normal to be scared. But I'm so sorry you have to go through that fear. I'll be thinking of you.
Sending you so many good wishes! 💕 Hoping after going through so much loss is really hard. Try not to be too in your head about it, as these tests don’t have some magic amount of dye, and the lines don’t always get darker. I recall sitting there watching tests, psyching myself out, like if it turned faster than the day before, then things would finally work out, etc.
Love of my life baby boy born 11/11. One and done not by choice; 3 years of TTC yielded 4 MMC and 2 CPs, through 4 IUIs and 2 IVFs. Focusing on making the world a better place instead...and running.
Post by seeyalater52 on Jun 1, 2019 18:59:28 GMT -5
Thank you all for the kind words. I’ve been spotting lightly all day. Man, it’s really throwing me off. This hasn’t ever happened before and I’m not sure what it means.
I know all I can do is wait but I have very little faith that this will work out so it’s hard not to go to the worst case scenario. My second pregnancy I was scared but excited, and even my third I had cautious optimism. All losses, every single time. It’s difficult to imagine this being any different even with an initial beta 2x my next highest one.
You really, really can’t tell anything by spotting. Keep us posted! When is next beta?
Next beta is on Monday. I’ve never ever had a beta rise so I admit I’m a little skeptical but trying to maintain my sanity and remember that sometimes IVF works, for some people.
Also, if you had a strong positive test as you said, there’s a good chance that you’re maxed out and it won’t continue to darken. It doesn’t darken indefinitely.
It’s not as strong as the control line yet (on FRER.) But maybe it won’t get there? I get so thrown off by all the progression series I see people post online where their pregnancy line gets as dark as the control and even darker.
Post by EllenGriswold on Jun 1, 2019 19:58:48 GMT -5
I know it’s so hard to be optimistic so let us do that for you. I’m wishing you all the best. And don’t freak out too much about the lines, mine never got as dark as the control until at least 6 weeks. Right now, it worked.
Congratulations! Just remember: today you are pregnant.
I suppose it's also possible that one of them stuck, then didn't, but the other one is still hanging on. I'm sure you'll have more info shortly. I'm keeping all my fingers crossed for you.
I keeping everything crossed for you! My tests always took 48-72 hours to look darker. I also had almost no symptoms my entire first trimester. Hang in there and I’m thinking of you
My lines took a good week to really darken up this time. I had spotting at 5 weeks and I know how scary can be, no matter how light it is. Praying you get good, reassuring rising numbers tomorrow!
Spotting is terrifying, no doubt about it. But it's not always a sign of things going wrong. I love the idea of us staying positive for you, so I'm sending all the best wishes I can imagine your way. Just focus on one step at a time--all you have to do is get to Monday's beta blood work.
Post by stellelinds25 on Jun 2, 2019 14:24:52 GMT -5
If they aren’t getting lighter, I wouldn’t worry too much that they aren’t darkening (easier said than done, I know). Crossing everything that this is it for you!! And congratulations, because today, you are pregnant!!
If they aren’t getting lighter, I wouldn’t worry too much that they aren’t darkening (easier said than done, I know). Crossing everything that this is it for you!! And congratulations, because today, you are pregnant!!
It’s hard to see the progression but if you JUST look at today’s test the control line and the test line are virtually the same color. I think it might be time to stop testing (taking my first digital tomorrow morning!)
Post by landmermaid on Jun 2, 2019 17:17:49 GMT -5
I'm so hopeful for you. It's so hard after multiple losses to keep your hopes up, but I really, really am hopeful for you. Congratulations on your BFP and I wish you a happy and healthy 9 months 🤞