I'm sorry I forget where everyone is in the various stages.
I'm still on BC for another week which is fine because I'm on a business trip.
Question for the week: Are you decorating for Halloween (or have you)? If you are - inside/outside or both? Are you dressing up? If so as what? Plans for Halloween?
Post by pinkpeony08 on Oct 14, 2019 18:15:49 GMT -5
I’m mailing immune labs in on Thursday. Crossing my fingers they are ok so they don’t cancel this cycle like they did the last.
We moved since Halloween last year. We have more room for decorations at the new house, which is fun. Looking forward to finding more decorations for every holiday! No big plans to dress up. Our old house got hundreds of trick or treaters (a huge shock the first year we lived there!). Our new neighbors say there are less Bc there is a street a few over that closes to cars for Halloween. Our neighborhood also has a big pumpkin festival at the local park, which is fun.
Edited to add: I may post something about all my losses as my Facebook status tomorrow for the official Remembrance Day tomorrow. It will be news to a lot of people. Not totally sure what I want it to say though.
Post by ilovecandy on Oct 14, 2019 19:01:23 GMT -5
Pink good luck and hugs if you do
Nothing here. We won't decorate all our stuff is lights and we don't have an outdoor outlet at our house for it (,very old house we are renting). Also I will be gone for it so I don't care ha.
I will be visiting my parents so probably just helping hand out candy with them
We are doing a trunk or treat which I am co in charge of putting on the Friday before Halloween for h's work people. I am looking forward to that being over honestly. I tried to talk his boss out of it cause no one wants to do it but like 3 people out of 30 but those 3 p pole have enough pull so here I am as part of my volunteer role in the family group doing it
I'm sorry I forget where everyone is in the various stages.
I'm still on BC for another week which is fine because I'm on a business trip.
Question for the week: Are you decorating for Halloween (or have you)? Jus a few pumpkins outside If you are - inside/outside or both? Are you dressing up? If so as what? Yes! Mia Wallace, or Baby from Dirty Dancing Plans for Halloween? Halloween party!
Just got done at the dr and we decided to try 3 months of depot lupron. Which will be my best bet for period suppression. At this point the side effects of lupron are minimal compared to my period. I’m having all the tests today: CBC, vitamin d, TSH, metabolic panel, ferritin, urine. I’m picking up my period pain meds so I’m ready for my next period, tramadol and naproxen. I’ll be getting the lupron after my next period. Counseling on Wednesday. I cried today when we talked about hysterectomy. Ughhh I just don’t know what to do.
Got some of my results back. Everything normal so far. No anemia, which was my biggest concern. Although my hemoglobin levels are going down since July, but still within normal! Yay! I knew I felt good! Lol!
Waiting for day 1, which might be today? Could literally be any day now. I went to get the paraovarian cyst looked at on Friday. The ultrasound tech measured it and that was pretty much it (also, it hurt because she REALLY had to get up there with the wand to get a good look...). I'm like, "Okay, so... what's up with it?"
Because I went in like a week and a half ago on what I thought was day 1, the NP was like, "oh, it was probably just some ovulation bleeding!" Um, no, I've been spotting since then. I'm pretty sure it's related to the cyst! WTF! Then she said my lining was over an 11, so they wanted to maybe force a bleed. I was like, "I'll be getting my real period in like 2 days according to my last cycle, so..."
Anyway, I might finally be able to schedule an ERA soon. The NP said the cyst wasn't a big deal with a diagnostic cycle, and since I'm not doing a transfer until January we have time to see if it just goes away.
Ferritin test results came back. My ferritin is at five and should be at a 13 or higher. My liver enzymes are also elevated but apparently it’s not that big of a deal no alcohol but I barely even drink. And be better with pain medication like Tylenol which I don’t take. They don’t seem concerned but I’m not sure what to think.
Post by pinkpeony08 on Oct 16, 2019 10:18:41 GMT -5
joenali that's odd your liver enzymes are up. Hopefully they will be back down next time they check. Thinking of you as you try to figure out next steps.
I shared more publicly yesterday for pregnancy and infant loss awareness day than I ever have before. I got a lot of support and grateful that my co-workers (who have known about 1-2 losses but not the extent of it) now know. It was a harder day than I expected given the sharing. I have clear memories of October 15 last year, when I went in to see the heart beat for the first time for my last pregnancy (all looked great at that time but the PGAL was high) and then got on a plane for the week to support a dear friend who's husband had died suddenly.
My CD1 arrived two days early, which means it was only a 24 day cycle, grr.
joenali that's odd your liver enzymes are up. Hopefully they will be back down next time they check. Thinking of you as you try to figure out next steps.
I shared more publicly yesterday for pregnancy and infant loss awareness day than I ever have before. I got a lot of support and grateful that my co-workers (who have known about 1-2 losses but not the extent of it) now know. It was a harder day than I expected given the sharing. I have clear memories of October 15 last year, when I went in to see the heart beat for the first time for my last pregnancy (all looked great at that time but the PGAL was high) and then got on a plane for the week to support a dear friend who's husband had died suddenly.
My CD1 arrived two days early, which means it was only a 24 day cycle, grr.
I’m glad you shared with others. I wanted to share about losing our embryos but felt like it wasn’t the same kind of loss that others experience, even though I know it’s not true.
You guys! I had such a great counseling appointment yesterday. Although we did have to do it over the phone, I’d prefer in person, but I guess I didn’t have to drive into the city.
Anyway, she said some really great things that resonated with me. 1. I’ve already made some pretty big decisions: no more IVF, taking a break and taking care of my uterus issues, and getting healthy. It’s true! Stopping treatment was a hard pill to swallow, but we can’t do it anymore. 2. I’ve been feeling like a failure, like my body doesn’t work. And she said that as a 42 year old it is really doing what it is supposed to be doing (minus the horrendous periods) my eggs aren’t good quality anymore, it’s what happens. I guess that’s a more positive way to look at our situation. 3. We talked in depth about embryo adoption and it is something I want to really talk about and consider with DH. 4. I do not have to have a hysterectomy right now. It’s not the right choice.
I’m most likely going to go back with DH at some point, but it felt so good to talk with someone who is with the clinic I go to and sees all sorts of situations.
Yes, I'm on day 3 now I guess. My massive (they said 27x30) cyst is still hanging out next to my uterus, but it's not secreting hormones, so I got the go-ahead to start my estrace/estradiol for my ERA cycle. I go back next Thursday and then they'll determine when to start my progesterone.
Ughhh I’m think I’m getting my period again. I just had my period two weeks ago. I have a training to go to on Tuesday which means I already have a sub, but I don’t want miss the training. On the other hand this mean I can get the lupron shot maybe this week. It might be my last period for at least a couple of months.
H and I went away for our anniversary this weekend. It was perfection - fireplace in our room, hot springs, couples massage, winery tastings, etc. We had a chance to talk a fair bit about how we’re both feeling after the 3 losses this year. We’ve decided to not make a firm decision until our DNA results come back in December, but we’re 90% sure we’re done. And I feel pretty at peace about it.
I also came out with our story on social media on the 15th. It was really freeing and I’ve gotten so much support, and only 1 stupid comment since then.
I’ve pulled back from this board over the past weeks since we don’t have anything going on, and stepping away from the TTC world has been really good for my mental health. I’ll probably check in from time to time but I’ll be keeping pretty quiet.