MTBM 7/20

[tiptoetulips]

1. How far and and team
2. Rants raves questions
3. How are you doing?
4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?

[tiptoetulips]

1. 36w1d girl
2. Rants- feeling like a garbage truck! Inconsistent contractions lack of sleep and blah! Raves- I feel ready
3. I’m overall pretty good. I had a day last week that sent me over the edge but doing better.
4. It sure as hell isnt summer! It’s dang hot!! My favorite is fall!

[achi]

I guess I very cautiously go here now.

1. 7 weeks today. Team finding out when we can.

2. Rants - I keep saying I wish I felt worse. Symptoms are finally starting to gear up (sore boobs, gagging on an empty stomach, fatigue) and I threw up for the first time this morning. I wasn't hugely symptomatic with DS either, and I know I should consider myself lucky that I'm not nauseated all day, but I would (mentally) feel better if I was. Question - has anyone used the sneak peek test that had a boy first? I was convinced DS was a boy from the minute the stick said yes, and I'm pretty sure this one is a girl but I also don't want to waste the $ if having a boy first makes it less reliable (I understand that it is not 100% reliable regardless).

3. PGAL is real. This pregnancy has been so much harder then I ever imagined and it's still so early. I thought once I got past the point of my previous losses that I'd feel better, but I'm just as anxious - if not more. H keeps asking me when I think I'll feel better (not helpful) and I'm hoping I'll feel better after my ultrasound next week, but honestly I don't think I'll feel better until I can feel the baby consistently. But I suspect I'll be anxious until she/he is in my arms. I freaked out and called my OB in a panic last week and went for another round of bloodwork (I had 6 originally) and my numbers were perfect thankfully. We upped my Zoloft a bit and that's helped take the edge off. It's such a roller coaster. I go back and forth between feeling convinced something is wrong, to convinced that everything is fine, usually multiple times in the same day. I'm really trying my best to be chill and adopt the "today I'm pregnant" mantra but I just can't get there. I tried to get my u/s moved up but they're totally swamped so at this point my only options are wait, or go to the ER and lie about bleeding/possible ectopic. Obviously the germ infested ER is not somewhere I want to be right now.

4. Fall FTW. This summer has been so stupid hot and I am done with it.

[tiptoetulips]

achi welcome!! Hope your stay here is long uneventful and the perfect take home baby you’ve been longing for!!

[lovesherheels]

Hi! I'm new here today with #2.

1. How far and and team
12+2, boy.

2. Rants raves questions
Nothing really; I'm just trying to get my head around having a second, what we'll need and all that. I'm sure I'll have a zillion questions soon.

3. How are you doing?
I'm ok. I'm still tired all the time and I had a sinus infection last week that tried to kill me, but I'm generally fine.  

4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?
Fall, usually. I love the cooling weather, the leaves changing and (usually) all the sports that happen that season.

tiptoetulips -- You're so close! Hang in there!

achi -- Welcome! Hoping you have a long and wonderful stay here!

[achi]

Thank you very much tiptoetulips and lovesherheels

ETA and jennistarr1 you're so sweet!

[jennistarr1]

I'm so excited to see achi here!

I'm 36 weeks

My work did a drive by shower for me today that was super cute....but hot!

We got a lot of things ready and still also have plenty to do

Biggest thing I'm procrastinating... defending my dissertation proposal this week

[verycontrary247]

1. How far and and team
33w1d, team pink

2. Rants raves questions
I'm still very annoyed my husband is extremely against deciding on a name before baby girl is born. We had a shortlist of 3, then found out one of those was the top girl name of 2019, that name got scratched, we had a big argument, and now we have a list of 5.

3. How are you doing?
I'm okay. I've struggled with body dysmorphia for as long as I can remember, and pregnancy has definitely made it worse. I have taken very few pictures in the last 8 months and have lamented over seeing myself tagged in pictures where I just look like I gained 30lbs instead of being this beautiful glowing pregnant goddess. My bff convinced me to let her take some casual maternity pictures yesterday and I'm surprisingly glad I did. I mean, I still hated 95% of them, but there were a few that made me feel good and were worth sharing/keeping.

4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?
Spring, which is unfortunate because we get spring weather here for like a week before it's a hot wasteland.

[seeyalater52]

achi I’m so happy to see you here! It may be different for you but for me I was terrified through all of first trimester well past any of my previous losses, and then in the second trimester it was like a switch flipped and I finally felt excited and at peace. I was and still am so surprised that I’m managing so well (the Zoloft helps!) It definitely doesn’t erase the anxiety and PGAL trauma but it makes the day to day so much more tolerable. I hope you’re able to get there at some point. ❤️

1. How far and and team
27w1d

2. Rants raves questions
I got diagnosed with gestational diabetes last week and I’m
bummed. Sometimes this pregnancy feels like one thing after another.

3. How are you doing?
Ok overall. We are getting our first set of maternity photos done this weekend and I’m excited. Local photographers keep having sales and it’s a safe social distancing activity so it’s something to do since we can’t do much else! The nursery is getting closer to being done.

4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?
Fall in New England. I’d normally say summer but this heat is killing me. 😭

[achi]

Jul 20, 2020 18:30:41 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

achi I’m so happy to see you here! It may be different for you but for me I was terrified through all of first trimester well past any of my previous losses, and then in the second trimester it was like a switch flipped and I finally felt excited and at peace. I was and still am so surprised that I’m managing so well (the Zoloft helps!) It definitely doesn’t erase the anxiety and PGAL trauma but it makes the day to day so much more tolerable. I hope you’re able to get there at some point. ❤️

1. How far and and team
27w1d

2. Rants raves questions
I got diagnosed with gestational diabetes last week and I’m
bummed. Sometimes this pregnancy feels like one thing after another.

3. How are you doing?
Ok overall. We are getting our first set of maternity photos done this weekend and I’m excited. Local photographers keep having sales and it’s a safe social distancing activity so it’s something to do since we can’t do much else! The nursery is getting closer to being done.

4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?
Fall in New England. I’d normally say summer but this heat is killing me. 😭

Thank you!! I’m hoping the ultrasound next week will give me some peace. I’m still testing every day because it’s basically the only thing I can control right now. So long as the ultrasound is normal I’ll probably stop then, or whenever my current box of internet cheapies runs out. Unfortunately H isn’t allowed to come with me, but he is going to drive me and wait in the car.

I’m sorry about the GD diagnosis. I had it with DS so I understand how deflated you feel. I will probably have it this time too and I already have orders to do the 3 hour test just before 16 weeks. I do not look forward to that.

[lovesherheels]

Jul 20, 2020 15:51:46 GMT -5 verycontrary247 said:

3. How are you doing?
I'm okay. I've struggled with body dysmorphia for as long as I can remember, and pregnancy has definitely made it worse. I have taken very few pictures in the last 8 months and have lamented over seeing myself tagged in pictures where I just look like I gained 30lbs instead of being this beautiful glowing pregnant goddess. My bff convinced me to let her take some casual maternity pictures yesterday and I'm surprisingly glad I did. I mean, I still hated 95% of them, but there were a few that made me feel good and were worth sharing/keeping.

Let me know if you'd like me to delete the quote here, verycontrary247.

I just wanted you to know that you're not alone. While not the exact same as your struggle, I have struggled with disordered eating what feels like my entire adult life (diagnosed anorexic, later EDNOS and still find myself battling when stress peaks), and pregnancy was a total mindfuck for me and my perception of my body. I don't have any great solutions or words of wisdom, but I wanted you to know that I understand. 

And I'm glad you took some maternity photos. I didn't with DS1 and I can't decide if I regret it or not, and even just having a few that make you feel good means doing it was worth it.

Hang in there. xo

[seeyalater52]

Jul 20, 2020 19:13:18 GMT -5 achi said:

Jul 20, 2020 18:30:41 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

achi I’m so happy to see you here! It may be different for you but for me I was terrified through all of first trimester well past any of my previous losses, and then in the second trimester it was like a switch flipped and I finally felt excited and at peace. I was and still am so surprised that I’m managing so well (the Zoloft helps!) It definitely doesn’t erase the anxiety and PGAL trauma but it makes the day to day so much more tolerable. I hope you’re able to get there at some point. ❤️

1. How far and and team
27w1d

2. Rants raves questions
I got diagnosed with gestational diabetes last week and I’m
bummed. Sometimes this pregnancy feels like one thing after another.

3. How are you doing?
Ok overall. We are getting our first set of maternity photos done this weekend and I’m excited. Local photographers keep having sales and it’s a safe social distancing activity so it’s something to do since we can’t do much else! The nursery is getting closer to being done.

4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?
Fall in New England. I’d normally say summer but this heat is killing me. 😭

Thank you!! I’m hoping the ultrasound next week will give me some peace. I’m still testing every day because it’s basically the only thing I can control right now. So long as the ultrasound is normal I’ll probably stop then, or whenever my current box of internet cheapies runs out. Unfortunately H isn’t allowed to come with me, but he is going to drive me and wait in the car.

I’m sorry about the GD diagnosis. I had it with DS so I understand how deflated you feel. I will probably have it this time too and I already have orders to do the 3 hour test just before 16 weeks. I do not look forward to that.

I tested for so long. Long enough that the FRER completely lost the control line and the hook effect brought it back up to normal looking. In retrospect it was like you said, the only thing I could control. I’m so sorry your husband won’t be able to be there with you. Our early ultrasounds were pre-covid and it was hard enough without that added factor - and going for the anatomy scan alone was probably the worst experience of my life. Good luck with your ultrasound, we are all rooting for you.

Also thanks for the note about GD. It’s fine, it’s not the end of the world and I should be grateful it’s an “easy” pregnancy issue to manage but I hate poking my finger all the time and scheduling every meal and even though it sounds petulant I’m annoyed that I couldn’t just have an easier pregnancy given that we have already walked through fire to get here.

[achi]

Jul 21, 2020 7:48:41 GMT -5 seeyalater52 said:

Jul 20, 2020 19:13:18 GMT -5 achi said:

Thank you!! I’m hoping the ultrasound next week will give me some peace. I’m still testing every day because it’s basically the only thing I can control right now. So long as the ultrasound is normal I’ll probably stop then, or whenever my current box of internet cheapies runs out. Unfortunately H isn’t allowed to come with me, but he is going to drive me and wait in the car.

I’m sorry about the GD diagnosis. I had it with DS so I understand how deflated you feel. I will probably have it this time too and I already have orders to do the 3 hour test just before 16 weeks. I do not look forward to that.

I tested for so long. Long enough that the FRER completely lost the control line and the hook effect brought it back up to normal looking. In retrospect it was like you said, the only thing I could control. I’m so sorry your husband won’t be able to be there with you. Our early ultrasounds were pre-covid and it was hard enough without that added factor - and going for the anatomy scan alone was probably the worst experience of my life. Good luck with your ultrasound, we are all rooting for you.

Also thanks for the note about GD. It’s fine, it’s not the end of the world and I should be grateful it’s an “easy” pregnancy issue to manage but I hate poking my finger all the time and scheduling every meal and even though it sounds petulant I’m annoyed that I couldn’t just have an easier pregnancy given that we have already walked through fire to get here.

It’s not petulant at all. After everything you’ve been through you just want an easy pregnancy without the extra concerns. I still remember going to meet with the GD counsellor for the first time... I was SUCH a bitch to him. And when I got back in my car I legit rage cried for 20 minutes.

[seeyalater52]

achi, not liking for the rage crying but in commiseration. I've definitely had a few little tantrums over this so far and I haven't even met with the nutritionist because they referred me to someone out of my insurance network....

[corgimom]

1. How far and and team

13+3 with #2, second trimester!!! We just recently found out we are having another girl!

2. Rants raves questions

Anyone want to name baby girl? I've always had a boy name and DH is fine with it. For a girl, I only had a middle name which we used for DD's middle name but it took us forever to get a short list we agreed on for DD. We didn't name her until she was born. I have a name I loooove for a girl but DH is against it for a first name but is okayish with it for DD#2's middle name but... no first name. I threw out one of our other potential names with it but he was pretty meh. I like it but he thinks it doesn't "flow". Boo.
I really was expecting this baby to be a boy and was pretty happy about having one of each but I'm surprised by how thrilled I am to be having another girl. I'm loving the idea of DD having a little sister!

3. How are you doing?

I'm finally starting to feel better! I was SHOCKED that this baby was a girl. This pregnancy has been so different than my pregnancy with DD. I've been so tired and so nauseous and was not at all with DD. I actually called the nurse back to confirm the results and am still not 100% sure I believe them because I had them done at exactly 10w, hah! The nausea isn't gone but is leaps and bounds better. Even with a sinus thing bugging me, it's nice to finally be feeling better.

4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?
Fall. I like sweaters and the cool, but not cold, weather.
I'm in the midwest and live by one of the great lakes so winter is pretty with all the lake-effect snow but its seriously cold and summer is so so so humid. Spring is just rain and road construction.

[tiptoetulips]

corgimom we had the same thing going on with thinking it was a boy and then having a girl. And you saw my post below about naming. Dh hasn’t wanted to talk seriously about it until the past few weeks. We still haven’t finalized but I’m thinking it will be Josephine because neither of us love the others top pick.

[corgimom]

Jul 21, 2020 13:00:41 GMT -5 tiptoetulips said:

corgimom we had the same thing going on with thinking it was a boy and then having a girl. And you saw my post below about naming. Dh hasn’t wanted to talk seriously about it until the past few weeks. We still haven’t finalized but I’m thinking it will be Josephine because neither of us love the others top pick.

I did see your post! One of your names (Sarah) is actually the name in question here. Thankfully we have 6 more months to figure it out, but, again, we didn't name DD until she was born. We were pretty sure which one of the names we were going to use in the couple weeks before she was born, but for me, I wasn't 100% until I saw her! DH and I have no problem agreeing on our theoretical boy name, but girl names have been so hard for us to agree on. We just have really different opinions on them.

For what it's worth, I really like Josephine, especially with the middle name you have picked out!

[speyedr]

Im cautiously making my way here

1. How far and and team- 7 weeks today as a gestational carrier, team pink.
2. Rants raves questions. This is my 4th pregnancy, none yet.
3. How are you doing? I have a large subchorionic hematoma and have been bleeding/passing clots/cramping and am so nervous.
4. GTKY what’s your favorite season? Fall

[clseale]

1. How far and and team
36+5, team blue!

2. Rants raves questions
I managed a 3 mile waddle-jog this morning which felt nice since I had taken a bit of a break. Other than that, I’m just really tired and over this heat. The only things I can do with dd are outside and it’s getting really tough when we have feels like temps of 100 by mid-morning. We had a nice family getaway in the mountains last week for my birthday. Just waterfall hikes and s’mores and we rented a pontoon boat one day. I think we finally agreed on a name too. Well, DH picked one and I’m tired of discussing, debating, so we’ll likely go with it.

3. How are you doing?
I’m fine, just ready for the final stretch and for baby to be here.

4. GTKY what’s your favorite season?
Spring, but fall is a really close second.

corgimom, my pregnancies were identical and I was convinced we were having another girl. Definitely a boy. LOL