Day 5: I ate a lot of sweets and I don’t even care. But I also finished my water bottle, survived a hellish day, and am going to wash my face and do skincare before bed.
Sent in last weeks blood sugar numbers to my doctor and took all meds for the day.
Had chocolate chip cookies and some OJ tonight so I expect tomorrow morning’s blood draw to be a hot mess. But, I don’t care cause I turned in notice at my job,
Sent in last weeks blood sugar numbers to my doctor and took all meds for the day.
Had chocolate chip cookies and some OJ tonight so I expect tomorrow morning’s blood draw to be a hot mess. But, I don’t care cause I turned in notice at my job,
My soon-to-be former employee was changing directions in a way that didn’t seem to have a clear place for me in it. I’m going to work where I’ll be part of a team, with peers to collaborate on projects, and will be able to direct my income (to some extent). None of those were true at the place I’m leaving. I learned a lot about myself, but I’m ready to move forward.
The only down side: my commute will be significantly longer than it is now, but still under an hour.
I found a therapist through better help. We had our first chat session yesterday. Talking to an unbiased person felt good. There’s so much going on, it seemed like we barely scratched the surface, but I felt a little lighter after our interaction. It seems as if delayed grief is probably driving how I feel, but more to come. Stay tuned. I have another appt. scheduled on Monday.
I found a therapist through better help. We had our first chat session yesterday. Talking to an unbiased person felt good. There’s so much going on, it seemed like we barely scratched the surface, but I felt a little lighter after our interaction. It seems as if delayed grief is probably driving how I feel, but more to come. Stay tuned. I have another appt. scheduled on Monday.
It's going well on the daily writing/progress! I am a bit ahead of my goal and trying to stay that way.
Exercising: Doing well with running (about to do run #2 of the week shortly), not so much with lifting. I don't know what to do about that. I just don't really care for doing at-home workouts, and really I should go back to the gym, especially since they've moved all their workouts outside.
Day 7: continuing forward progress; my evening numbers the last few days haven’t been great, but I’m taking my meds and testing my sugars anyway. That counts for something...at least in my mind.
My surgery yesterday went really well. This morning I walked about 30 feet before getting dizzy, but i just ate for the first time since Monday and took a whole lap of the hallway. I mean, there was an octogenarian who passed me, but I’m happy with the progress 😎
I have tried so many times (SO many times) to get into a routine of washing my face at night. I think it might finally actually stick! I've reached the point where it's as routine for me as brushing my teeth and I don't have to think about doing it.
I was having a really bad day yesterday, so I wasn't really paying attention, but I'm pretty sure DH told me yesterday that my skin is looking clearer, so that's cool too.
My second appt with my therapist was a bust. There were long distracted pauses on the therapist’s end that burned through my session time. I wanted to discuss my struggle with losing friendships due to political divides. She told me she had not involved herself in politics. Okay.... Then there was one other thing that she told me, times up. It was not even a tiny bit helpful.
Post by childofhiphop on Oct 12, 2020 22:24:20 GMT -5
I’ve done well with increasing the amount of fruit. I had apple wedges instead of chips with my lunch today. Small win?
We unpacked/organized the garage this weekend which is the largest pile. At least the washer and dryer can be delivered if they ever come. I brought in 6 more boxes from the next largest pile of boxes. I’m dead tired and bruised from this weekend’s work so that was about all I had in me to continue today.
I have tried so many times (SO many times) to get into a routine of washing my face at night. I think it might finally actually stick! I've reached the point where it's as routine for me as brushing my teeth and I don't have to think about doing it.
I was having a really bad day yesterday, so I wasn't really paying attention, but I'm pretty sure DH told me yesterday that my skin is looking clearer, so that's cool too.
So, I am sort of at this point -- but for me, I'm at the point where I want to get in bed, then I think, "Darn it, isabel is probably washing her face and doing skin care." Then I heave a big sigh and do it. LOLOL
My second appt with my therapist was a bust. There were long distracted pauses on the therapist’s end that burned through my session time. I wanted to discuss my struggle with losing friendships due to political divides. She told me she had not involved herself in politics. Okay.... Then there was one other thing that she told me, times up. It was not even a tiny bit helpful.
ARGH. I'm sorry. I'm really pissed on your behalf that there were distracted pauses.
I have tried so many times (SO many times) to get into a routine of washing my face at night. I think it might finally actually stick! I've reached the point where it's as routine for me as brushing my teeth and I don't have to think about doing it.
I was having a really bad day yesterday, so I wasn't really paying attention, but I'm pretty sure DH told me yesterday that my skin is looking clearer, so that's cool too.
So, I am sort of at this point -- but for me, I'm at the point where I want to get in bed, then I think, "Darn it, isabel is probably washing her face and doing skin care." Then I heave a big sigh and do it. LOLOL
Haaaa! I'm glad to be a good influence. lol
I am going to take an "after" photo at the end of the month, but I'm really feeling like there's a marked difference from the one I took in mid-September.
Post by childofhiphop on Oct 13, 2020 10:50:30 GMT -5
Ok. Update because my last post felt so down because I was achy and over tired.
Actually, I unpacked more than a few large boxes yesterday in addition to loading up the flat dolly 2x’s in addition to 4 hours of Zoom/Team meetings and email.
I was a Monday Superwoman if I reframe last night’s tired perspective. (Making myself laugh at that one)
My second appt with my therapist was a bust. There were long distracted pauses on the therapist’s end that burned through my session time. I wanted to discuss my struggle with losing friendships due to political divides. She told me she had not involved herself in politics. Okay.... Then there was one other thing that she told me, times up. It was not even a tiny bit helpful.
I’m sorry. A small pause is okay but multiple pauses would make me feel like her attention was somewhere else or divided. I would be annoyed if I were paying.
I had a mild setback that made me take it easy this week, but I just went on a half mile walk, which felt good. I hadn’t been outside in a week, and it’s like the leaves all turned color over the last 7 days—so gorgeous!
I had a mild setback that made me take it easy this week, but I just went on a half mile walk, which felt good. I hadn’t been outside in a week, and it’s like the leaves all turned color over the last 7 days—so gorgeous!
Sorry I fell behind on this. I'm so glad that you went for an entire half mile. Sorry you had a setback; are you on the road forward again? I hope your recovery is smooth from here on out.
I have done well with my water drinking goal, but the others not so good.