I accidentally closed my foot/toes in my car door last week as I was on my way for a pedicure. It hurt like the dickens and is still a little sore. I'm sure that I killed at least one, if not two toenails, but I'm afraid to take off the polish and look.
I started Whole 30 the beginning of the month because in spite of cutting out gluten 5 months ago, I was still having some lingering digestive issues. I suspected that my issue was dairy, but really, really didn't want it to be. My biggest digestive issue has always been heartburn, and cutting the gluten got to me to a point that I was only popping maybe 3 or so tums a day, as opposed to going through a bottle a week. Well, it's been days since I've had to take any. RIP my cheese addiction.
It's cool and rainy, so I'm out on my new screened porch to work this morning. This is EXACTLY the kind of weather I wanted this porch for. Downside is when I'm out here I keep adding more projects/chores to the list of yard stuff to deal with.
The cinnamon chip thread made me go order a bunch of stuff from KAF. I was hoping DH would be back in time for apple picking, but I think the kids and I are going to have to go do it without him. Hello, fall baking!
My body always gets angry when I'm stressed. So right now I can't turn my neck. Hoping my CBD cream and heating pad help. Thankful for WFH, although I have taken my heating pad into work before, lol.
Today is my WFH day and I'm so glad. PT kicked my butt a little last night - literally my butt hurts (and one hip) so I'm happy to sit in my comfy chair at home today. I have PT again tonight & I know they're going to measure my bend and I'm not looking forward to that. I was at 115 last time and I need to get to 120. I'm on my 2nd extension for PT this time - last time I only needed one extension, it's frustrating that this knee is taking so much longer to heal than the other. Thankful to have the option to extend PT though because I really want all of this to be worth it!
It's really starting to feel like Fall. I like summer but I love Fall. Bring on hoodie weather!
I accidentally closed my foot/toes in my car door last week as I was on my way for a pedicure. It hurt like the dickens and is still a little sore. I'm sure that I killed at least one, if not two toenails, but I'm afraid to take off the polish and look.
I started Whole 30 the beginning of the month because in spite of cutting out gluten 5 months ago, I was still having some lingering digestive issues. I suspected that my issue was dairy, but really, really didn't want it to be. My biggest digestive issue has always been heartburn, and cutting the gluten got to me to a point that I was only popping maybe 3 or so tums a day, as opposed to going through a bottle a week. Well, it's been days since I've had to take any. RIP my cheese addiction.
I am so ready for the weekend. Being back has kicked my ass.
I really pride myself on being organized and knowing everything that’s going on in my department. I feel like a chicken with my head cut off right now. I’m just running in circles and not getting anything done or absorbing new information.
In better news, there’s a new food hall opening at the end of the month from a well-known restauranteur in our area. I’m sure it will be great. It’s literally across the street from our daycare and I am excited to have another happy hour spot for DH and I to visit.
I suggested to DH last night that we go grab lunch or coffee once a week during the workday. He agreed that would be good. So hopefully we can get into a good groove with that. It’s so hard for both of us to take even a few minutes out of the day to grab food or whatever, but I really think it will be good for us individually and as a couple.
Dd is home sick today, running a fever and congested. She ran a slight fever Monday but was otherwise ok- took her for a Covid test Tuesday that was negative, so I sent her to school yesterday. Ugh. But at least it’s not Covid.
I suggested to DH last night that we go grab lunch or coffee once a week during the workday. He agreed that would be good. So hopefully we can get into a good groove with that. It’s so hard for both of us to take even a few minutes out of the day to grab food or whatever, but I really think it will be good for us individually and as a couple.
In normal times, DH and I work in different buildings in the same facility, and we were usually able to meet for lunch about once a week. It was so nice, and definitely good for us. I don't know why, but it's been much harder to make that happen with us both working from home a good bit, even with the kids back in school.
I hit terrible traffic on the way to work, so it took an hour and 15 minutes to get here. I was already leaving late enough that I would have been at least a few minutes late to work even without traffic, so that was fun. I have nothing on my calendar today so it was fine, but frustrating. I miss working from home.
My parents are coming to visit in 2 weeks, and suddenly I don't feel ready! Not to see them, I am glad for that, but there were a bunch of small household things I wanted to do before having guests. My dad is also going to help us do a few things around the house (or help me, rather, my H will be working most of the visit) so I need to do things like pick out a couple of new light fixtures. I don't have much in the way of plans the next 2 weekends, thankfully, though I had hoped to do something social at some point so I don't really want to spend them both doing chores.
So my cousin died in April and since then I feel like I've lost the ability to really get excited about things in life. Like. I don't know. It's weird. Even things I'm looking forward to have kind of a...flat? feeling around them. I guess it's grief, but part of me feels like I don't get to feel that much grief since she lived far away and wasn't a big part of my daily life. Anyway.
I woke up with a headache this morning, probably because of the rain.
Thankfully I was able to come in late this morning because I have an MRI at 7:45 tonight so I'll just stay late here and then head over there. Not looking forward to 1.5 hours in that tube listening to clunking.
So my cousin died in April and since then I feel like I've lost the ability to really get excited about things in life. Like. I don't know. It's weird. Even things I'm looking forward to have kind of a...flat? feeling around them. I guess it's grief, but part of me feels like I don't get to feel that much grief since she lived far away and wasn't a big part of my daily life. Anyway.
I'm sorry
You could speak to a Dr if you felt up to it. That sounds like possible depression.
I have no access to basically anything I need. I DID get access to the shared drive for my dept late yesterday afternoon. There are only so many training docs I can look at without being able to see the whole picture (I learn more by doing than reading).
And I can't get into the online learning, or I'd go ahead and knock out the yearly training modules for stuff like sexual harassments, office safety, etc. Thankfully I'm at home, so I can do a few things. I am actually 100% caught up on laundry! Apparently it's one of the easier tasks to do while keeping my eye on Teams/my email in case something does pop up.
TR, I am so sorry. I think loss, no matter how close you are to the person geographically, hits hard. Do you see a therapist? I probably sound like a broken record, but please be kind to yourself. The past year and a half has been such a complete shit show and on top of all the daily upheavals, mourning rituals fo those lost to us has not in any way been normal.
I had a time after a bad break up that I went on Paxil for about 6 months. I just needed something to get me out of my slump. I thought it worth mentioning.
My random is that my work is so fucking slow. I mean, I might be making in one week what I used to make in a day, if I am lucky. I am starting to looking into other things I could do. I can always keep the notary work as something on the side. I have looked into becoming a Doula. Does anyone have experience with this or know someone who is a full time doula?
TR, I think that grief is grief no matter whether you have a "right" to feel that way or not. And FWIW I think you have every right to be sad. You were close to her emotionally, even if you didn't see her constantly.
I will add that I think the pandemic broke many of us. I find it hard to get excited about stuff lately too. I am pretty sure I'm not depressed (especially since being on antidepressants!) but the world just feels so uncertain and like you can't count on looking forward to things, if you do do fun things you might be spreading disease, and everything is just out of whack. I think a lot of people are feeling that way, so with grief on top of it I think it's not surprising that you do. Hugs.
TR, I think that sounds like a normal part of the grieving process. It doesn’t matter that you weren’t physically close to her. Hugs to you, and ditto what others said about talking to your doctor.
Why is my entire family incompetent? It seems like all of them. Between my H and my kids they have logon credentials to certain stores they like, like Amazon and what not. They know (well my kids) that they aren't allowed to actually order anything because they will lose this privilege, but they can put stuff in the cart and I'll order it, maybe. My husband calls me the Amazon Fairy because he never knows what will show up LOL Anyway, why do they never select the correct size before adding things to the cart? Most of the time I double check, because it's not a new issue, but recently I placed an order for (14 y/o DD) and size 8 kids clothes showed up at my house. I mean, come on people, it's not hard.
Post by newnamesameperson on Sept 9, 2021 12:08:13 GMT -5
I am in such a funk and feel that I have no one I can actually talk to. Actually, I have plenty of people I could talk to but none that I feel would get it.
I had ONE free morning to myself, no work, kids at school, no appointments...bliss.
My step son told my husband that his stomach hurt and asked to be online today and my husband said yes. Poof to my stress free morning. Oh, and my step son is totally 100% fine. He was asking to be online a few days ago and we said no because he didn't have a good reason.
It feels really weird to be home alone right now. I mean, I've had a little alone time over the last few months so its mot like I never get it BUT usually it is very short lived. I'm dropping kids off, rushing hoe to work for a few hours and taking off to pick them up and drop them off at various activities. But today is different. My husband left with my youngest at 8 and I am home alone until 4pm!! I'm still working but its still so quiet and weird. lol
I made this new "no cook" pasta sauce for dinner tonight. I hope iys good. Basially you marinate chopped up (seeded) tomatoes in a bunch of seasoning (EVOO, Garlic, basil, cracked red pepper, parm, salt pepper, red wine vinegar - it also called for kalamata olives and burrata cheese but I didn't have those so had to skip. all day (post says 4+ hours) and then you make pasta and let them come to room temp to eat. I'm serving it with grilled chicken. I hope its good!
I'm also having an issue with fruit flies. How the fvck do I get rid of these?
Post by texasharleygirl on Sept 9, 2021 12:38:01 GMT -5
My anxiety is through the roof today and I just cannot seem to get it down. Issues with downed systems at work yesterday has slammed me today; husband got sick yesterday and he's got no energy right now; we have movers coming on Saturday to move us and I don't have everything packed up here at the rental; I am without a car due to the fact that it over heated yet again with a brand new fucking engine in it so I am stuck at home and my fucking Grown Ass Stepkids cannot seem to help us out when we need it, but damnit, if they need help they get it from us. I am just sick of it.
I just want to flipping run away and not come back.
I'm also having an issue with fruit flies. How the fvck do I get rid of these?
Take a small glass bowl and put apple cider vinegar in it with a splash of dish soap. Cover the bowl with plastic wrap and take a fork and poke it a couple times.
Give it a couple days and they will be drawn to the vinegar and go through the small holes in the wrap.
We've had a similar this issue this time of year and this is the best/easiest method.
I'm also having an issue with fruit flies. How the fvck do I get rid of these?
Take a small glass bowl and put apple cider vinegar in it with a splash of dish soap. Cover the bowl with plastic wrap and take a fork and poke it a couple times.
Give it a couple days and they will be drawn to the vinegar and go through the small holes in the wrap.
We've had a similar this issue this time of year and this is the best/easiest method.
I'll try that. I tried the paper cone method with the apple cedar vinegar and dish soap and it gets a lot but still driving me crazy.
I've also boiled water and poured straight down the drain! Keeping my trash emptied, and keeping food put away. grrrrr
I had ONE free morning to myself, no work, kids at school, no appointments...bliss.
My step son told my husband that his stomach hurt and asked to be online today and my husband said yes. Poof to my stress free morning. Oh, and my step son is totally 100% fine. He was asking to be online a few days ago and we said no because he didn't have a good reason.
I'm so annoyed. Lol.
I feel your pain and I'm sorry that you didn't get your stress free morning. Today is my step-son's birthday and he pitched a fit at his Mom's house about having to go to school today so she told him that he didn't have to and then dropped him off at our house last night because I work from home and she figured it'd be fine. Humphf.