Post by riverpestie on May 21, 2012 10:28:25 GMT -5
Thank you for all the kind words, thoughts, and prayers. I read the threads and even though I don't personally know most of you, it is still great to know that you care.
My sweet baby boy crossed the rainbow bridge on Thursday morning and I have felt lost since then...
Basically, Wednesday morning when I left for work everyone was fine. I go home for lunch earlier than usual and Duke appeared to be bloating, I let him outside and he collapsed to the ground and couldn't get up. He was about 90 pounds, so I ran over to my neighbors' house for help, but they weren't home. I finally got him into my car and rushed him to the vet. It was during their lunch hour, but they immediately took him to the back and performed emergency surgery on him and in the process, they removed his spleen. The surgery is so extensive, that the BF and I transported him to the evet that night.
I told myself if he survives the night, he will be okay.
Well, during the night, his glucose was extremely low so he went into seizures and his blood pressure was not even registering, so they were worried about cardiac arrest. But he survived the night. The BF and I took him back to the regular vet the next morning, and at 9am, I get a call from the vet telling me he is crashing. So, I call the BF and I start running toward his house (he made me promise I wouldn't drive because I was so upset), he comes flying around the corner and I jump in his truck. He gets me to the vet as fast as he can and stops right in front.
I run in yelling, "Where is he? I need to see him before dies." ... And they put me in the "grieving room" that's what I call it at least. So, at that time, I know.
About 2 minutes later, the BF comes in and I am sitting on the floor in the corner just begging for hi to be alive. The vet comes in and starts telling me everything they did and I interrupted him and asked, "Is he gone?" The vet paused and said, "yes" as his eye swelled up with tears... He kept telling me everything they did to try and save him and all I kept saying was "he's gone" over and over again.
After a bit, they let me go back to see him and I couldn't stop kissing him, petting him and telling him how much I loved him and that I am so so sorry I couldn't save him.
I will spare the rest of the details, but I will have his ashes in 3-4 weeks and they are going to do his paw print for me.
Once again, thanks for all the good thoughts and everything, they really mean a lot to me.
Post by sparkles17 on May 21, 2012 10:33:22 GMT -5
Oh RP, my heart is breaking for you right now. I've only lost one pet in my lifetime, but I know the pain that you are going through. You will continue to be in my thoughts and prayers as you grieve the loss of Duke.
I'm really close to ugly-crying at my desk. My heart breaks for you. Duke had an amazing life because he had an amazing mom, and I know he's extremely thankful that he was loved so much. {{{HUGS}}}
Post by startingover2010 on May 21, 2012 10:49:54 GMT -5
Oh sweetie. I have no words. Never forget that you are an AMAZING momma, and you were both so blessed to have each other. Duke knew how much he was loved every single day of his life.
RP, I'm just heartbroken for you. I'm so sorry for the loss of your sweet pup. You were the best mommy to Duke and I know from reading how much you cared for him, he knew it. ::HUGS::
Yesterday I was walking out of church, tripped over my own foot, and tumbled down the 3 steps leading into the parking lot. I made a loud thud and I swear there were 300 peeps in the parking lot that all stopped what they were doing and stared at me. If not for being at church there would have been some fowl language spewing out of my mouth.
So I hope picturing my clumsy ass falling for no reason helps you chuckle at least once today.
Post by incognitotoday on May 21, 2012 11:03:33 GMT -5
Well, I am doing the ugly cry, now. I am so sorry, once again, that you had to go through this difficult time. You were an amazing mom to Duke and he knows this!
Well, I am doing the ugly cry, now. I am so sorry, once again, that you had to go through this difficult time. You were an amazing mom to Duke and he knows this!
I am so sorry things ended the way they did.
How are your other two doing?
Sending you lots of love/hugs!
The other two are doing ok. Raven, the one in my avatar is taking is worse. She is sleeping a lot more and uniterested in going on walks/beach etc... Friday night Raven got to go canoeing, which I think she loved and yesterday I took her to a dog friendly bar/grill. We sat and listened to the band. I gave her some of my chicken and a french fry.
The other two are doing ok. Raven, the one in my avatar is taking is worse. She is sleeping a lot more and uniterested in going on walks/beach etc... Friday night Raven got to go canoeing, which I think she loved and yesterday I took her to a dog friendly bar/grill. We sat and listened to the band. I gave her some of my chicken and a french fry.
You're sucha good mommy, I think my two would FLIP if I ever gave them a french fry! They wouldn't even know what to do with it! LOL!
I am so sorry. Losing a pet is so hard. Hopefully you'll find comfort soon. Remember the good times you had together and how wonderful your were to him. He was a lucky dog.