Venty vent vent...

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I just need to put this somewhere before I blow up.

I HATE the detox. After a short bender, H stopped 12/25 and is now back in the program...which means he's been detoxing for the past three days.
He's cranky, irritable, paranoid, and just generally difficult to be around. When he's in moods like this, he obsesses about things that bother him (that is, things he believes have prevented him from doing what he wants to do and driven him to drink) ... like my family, my lack of communication skills, my poor management of my family, my lack of ability to set boundaries with my family... Seeing the pattern here?

He's at an extended meeting this morning. This is the first couple of hours I have actually had to myself and felt like I could breathe.

Full disclosure, I am also detoxing. I wasn't drinking nearly as heavily as he was, but I stopped 12/27. I think I was hoping I would kind of be lightly buzzed through the worst part of his detox, but it's the holidays so it's worse than usual. The difference between him and me is that I don't take my cranky edginess out on other people.

I vent here instead, lol.

Thanks for listening - feel free to add your vent!