**villain**

[winecheery]

Just thinking of you hun. Hope each day is getting easier. :heart:

[VillainV]

Thanks. It's getting a little bit easier. I've been able to go back to work, and H and I even managed a few social functions over the weekend (though we didn't stay for very long).

I think the hardest thing has been trying to reconcile what I FEEL with what I KNOW. I mean, I know that this wasn't our fault and there's nothing we could have done differently. I know that it doesn't mean that we will necessarily have any problems in the future, and that this is really common. But I can't help feeling like I didn't do a good enough job protecting our baby, and that I let my husband (and a lot of other people) down. And despite how common it is, it still feels very lonely. The rational side of me knows that nothing I "feel" is true, but it doesn't stop me from feeling it....

Overall though, H and I are doing okay, and life is getting easier. I go back to the OB in January and hope that she will clear us to start TTC again. Of course, now that I'm not pregnant, I'll be deploying in March, so we won't have a lot of time (maybe one cycle?). I've been lurking around a little bit, but probably won't post much until we're back to TTC.

Thanks for thinking of me:-) It means a lot.

[KaraOrNot]

Hugs v.

[HoneySpider]

Lots of hugs your way, v.

[blindyswife]

Oh V.
Hugs!
Loss is so hard. Everything you said you're feeling is normal. Big hugs!

[sunflower22]

Big hugs, v

[winecheery]

Thanks for the update v. Sorry about everything. I really am. And I suspect I'd feel the exact same way as you are feeling. Take care of yourself!

[magpie]

Been thinking about you too, v. Hugs.

[awick14]

((V))

[Cheesecake]

(((hugs)))

Sent from my phone, please disregard typos!

[anonymess]

Thinking of you too (((hugs)))