Back home...(LONG, but w/update fyi)

[winecheery]

Hiya girls!

I missed everyone SO much, I was going through withdrawals! You will understand if you read thru the end.

I've been trying to scan boards and catch up as best as I can but with two weeks+ of posts it's gonna be impossible to comment on all of them, so let me just say CONGRATS to those with bfps, GL to those without, Happy New Year, and I'm glad to see the new sub board, and I hope those ladies will let me hang with them (cuz I like you) and I hope you still hang here when you're up to it.

Now then, for my update. Read on if interested...

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I'm in a quandry. :-| And this was the cycle I opted not to chart/opk because of the holidays and because my cycles are always predictable. Like to the time of day. GAHHHH!

Ok. So, in the 2ww I had some mild cramping, nothing weird. On 12dpo I got these pins and needle pricks on the lower right side of ute and thought well that's a new thing for me. No feeling AF was gonna show.

I waited patiently. Then, I tested on what should have been 14dpo (day AF is due for me or day before it's due, and I tested because FF predicted I was a day late at that point; I'm usually always a lucky 28 days, with 30 being the longest once and 26 being the shortest, O is always on CD14, or CD15, LP is 13-14) but I got a BFN.

I had another test on me (always prepared) and with no sign of AF i tested on 16dpo...I saw the faintest of faint lines, but it showed up right after the 3 min window, like right after, so I called it an evap. DH saw it too, but I thought, no reason to get hopes up. It should have been a stronger line by then yes??

But I am now a week late, and this has not happened to me before.

I don't feel much different except everything in the world makes me want to cry, and I got bad nausea late last night, but I really think it was from flying home all day (three airplanes from the Caribbean) and I was just done.

I haven't tested again...I don't know why. Maybe because I know how unlikely it'd be + at this point. Maybe because I partly don't want to think about what this could mean; my little brain starts racing, like do I have fertility issues?? It's most likely an anov cycle, or I O'd later than normal.

I don't like either one of those but I know they are "normal".

I'm feeling down because I'd be finished with AF right now, ready to start cycle 6 or 7 or whatever it was gonna be. And now I'm on hold. I'm waiting another week if she doesn't show I'll call my doc I expect. And demand...something...ha. I'm not waiting the "60 days" eff that. I don't they'd make me either.

I was freaking DESPERATE for you ladies tho, let me tell you omfg, no one understands me like you do!!!! I needed words of advice, support, oh lordy. Those first few days I was late DH was like well don't drink just in case...so I'm sitting there on a beach in the middle of nowhere panicking cuz AF could start at any second, and there's no toilets, and I COULDN"T FUCKING DRINK?!?! lol Glad to be back home.

Thanks for reading me this far if you did, and suggestions/advice are needed/welcome. wwyd?

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You need to take another hpt, especially before you call your doctor. I would take one today. Please update!

[thoseareradishes]

Hi Wine, welcome back!

I'm guessing that with the holidays and travel and all, you ovulated later than you think.

Also, I would take another test. H and I were discussing the POAS or not dilemma this morning (after something I read on the bump) and why women don't just do it. I explained that we don't do it because it crushes the hope that we are indeed pregnant. Because before we get the negative, we are convinced there is still hope. But wouldn't you rather just know?

I hope you get some answers soon.

ETA: Just pee on a stick! What's the worst that could happen?

[bonkers412]

Wine, I have peed on a lot of sticks, and there was never a second line, ever, until I was pregnant. Not even after an hour. You are a week late, I think this could be it for you! Pls pee on something and start celebrating . Fx for you.

[bonkers412]

Oh, and spring for a first response, it had a clear line when my wondfo was still a weird smudge.

[awick14]

I say POAS... And then tell us the good news!!

FX.

Edit: ignore me!