I'm so so sorry. Please take someone up on their offer to hang out with you. I think you'll feel much better being around family or friends. (((Hugs)))
I'm so sorry! I don't have any advice, but you're not alone. We're here...someone is ALWAYS here to talk or whatever you need. One of the things I love most about this place, is there is always someone here...
Ok, I read through the thread. He sounds like a terrible person. You're a beautiful person, BQQ, inside and out. You deserve someone who loves all of you, in sickness and in health.
And plusalso, believe the words that people are saying, you are a beautiful person and are much better off without people who's love is conditional. Fuck that.