"OMG mom i don't have the cancer"

[bonquiqui]

She posted something something "bonquiqui strong" like the colts head coach "chuck strong" that has cancer. Then she takes it back and posts "bonquiqui does not have cancer lol"

Wow just wow lol

[Doc_Lobster]

lol

Moms are such dorks, but they do try hard.

[bonquiqui]

Yes, and i appreciate her support

[leahmel]

HOw are you? I've been thinking about you!

[bonquiqui]

I am handling it the best way i know how, and i know that it is not the greatest. I did 1 hour and 45 minutes straight on the elliptical and 45 on the treadmill. One of the girls that works at the gym, and my trainer were so awesome though. They saw I was feeling down, and came over and talked to me, and tried to make me laugh.

I did a lot of thinking while I was working out, and I know that I just need to keep pushing through. Try to believe that things will be better, and that he really isn't worth my time. It is just so hard. The hardest thing I have ever done.

They also yelled at me for not sleeping, and not eating at the gym. lol I didn't go into all that, but hopefully the appointment with the therapist helps.

I k now I have to believe that I will be ok, and make it on my own. I just can't wait for the day that I believe it

[bonquiqui]

I am handling it the best way i know how, and i know that it is not the greatest. I did 1 hour and 45 minutes straight on the elliptical and 45 on the treadmill. One of the girls that works at the gym, and my trainer were so awesome though. They saw I was feeling down, and came over and talked to me, and tried to make me laugh.

I did a lot of thinking while I was working out, and I know that I just need to keep pushing through. Try to believe that things will be better, and that he really isn't worth my time. It is just so hard. The hardest thing I have ever done.

They also yelled at me for not sleeping, and not eating at the gym. lol I didn't go into all that, but hopefully the appointment with the therapist helps.

I k now I have to believe that I will be ok, and make it on my own. I just can't wait for the day that I believe it

[bonquiqui]

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have ylu considered being my sister wife yet? that could be the best alternative ever![/quote]

seriously the best idea ever :Y: How does Mabel like cats? lol

[sparkythelawyer]

((hugs)) Be kind to yourself.

[Deleted]

Bon, tons of ((hugs)). As long as you aren't overdoing it, I think the gym is a great way to handle things. And your mom sounds like a precious lady, I'm glad she is there to help you through things.
How long do you have till your appt. with your therapist?

[Doc_Lobster]

Jan 8, 2013 0:35:30 GMT -5 bonquiqui said:

I k now I have to believe that I will be ok, and make it on my own. I just can't wait for the day that I believe it

I don't necessarily think that you have to really believe it, at least not all at once. You don't have to be all, "oh, I don't need him! I can rule the world all by myself!"

You just have to do stuff, and then keep doing it. You have to eat, sleep, get up and put on pants, feed your cat, run errands, etc. And then, before you know it, you're making it.

[annyong]

Oh, bqq, you're the best.

[leahmel]

Jan 8, 2013 0:44:01 GMT -5 Doc_Lobster said:

Jan 8, 2013 0:35:30 GMT -5 bonquiqui said:

I k now I have to believe that I will be ok, and make it on my own. I just can't wait for the day that I believe it

I don't necessarily think that you have to really believe it, at least not all at once. You don't have to be all, "oh, I don't need him! I can rule the world all by myself!"

You just have to do stuff, and then keep doing it. You have to eat, sleep, get up and put on pants, feed your cat, run errands, etc. And then, before you know it, you're making it.

Rocky has a point. Don't worry about believing it. I think going through the motions is ok for right now, and taking thngs one day at a time. Eventually you won't even have to think about it anymore and you'll just be in a better place, but there is no need to rush it.

(((hugs))))

[VillainV]

I read a really great quote the other day -- "If you're going through hell, KEEP GOING." Apparently it's Winston Churchill.

You're right though, the best (only?) thing to do is just keep going -- even if you can only manage baby steps. It's okay not to be all "I can conquer the world!" right away. What you are going through is a big deal, and you are doing great :-)

[annyong]

Jan 8, 2013 0:44:01 GMT -5 Doc_Lobster said:

Jan 8, 2013 0:35:30 GMT -5 bonquiqui said:

I k now I have to believe that I will be ok, and make it on my own. I just can't wait for the day that I believe it

I don't necessarily think that you have to really believe it, at least not all at once. You don't have to be all, "oh, I don't need him! I can rule the world all by myself!"

You just have to do stuff, and then keep doing it. You have to eat, sleep, get up and put on pants, feed your cat, run errands, etc. And then, before you know it, you're making it.

This is good stuff right here. Listen to doc. Behavioral activation at its best!

[bonquiqui]

I love you guys, seriously. I can't even think of what it would be like without the support.

Fake it until i make it will be my motto of the week lol

[leahmel]

Faking it till you make it is seriously a must. I had to do that for quite some time too.

[BlackCanary]

Jan 8, 2013 0:54:49 GMT -5 tators said:

Jan 8, 2013 0:46:21 GMT -5 neener said:

(((Bon)))

My mom also makes weird-ass comments. Embarrassing children is what moms do best.

Also, be my sisterwife instead. I live in an awesome place with great weather, have a cat who loves other kitties, and I'll knit you a scarf

THis is fucked up neener! Do not try to still Bon. She is mine... and were even gonna share make up and stuff ok....


You can come viist with you cat and scarves and we will all play in the snow.

I know you don't know me very well, but can I join you guys and play in the snow? I will bring my puppy who loves snow but we only get it maybe once a year. And if you make a snow dog and she she sees it from inside she goes crazy barking at it and it is hilarious.

And BQQ- hugs!

[BlackCanary]

Jan 8, 2013 2:52:03 GMT -5 neener said:

Jan 8, 2013 2:49:48 GMT -5 BlackCanary said:

I know you don't know me very well, but can I join you guys and play in the snow? I will bring my puppy who loves snow but we only get it maybe once a year. And if you make a snow dog and she she sees it from inside she goes crazy barking at it and it is hilarious.

And BQQ- hugs!

How many palettes do you own, lol?
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Zero. BUT I make a decent apple pie and if I brought DH with me, he could be our bartender. He did go to bar tending school! Also, he wouldn't bother us unless we was making us drinks.

[julesf84]

You are amazing, Bon! I love your motto. Do what you gotta do to get through.

Also...my Naked Palette should be here any day now!

[ohiowan]

Please add "99 problems" to your work out playlist, and "phenomena".

Make sure you're making yourself eat, even if it's a few high nutrient smoothies.

[bleubook]

My only advice is to go through the motions of being fine. When I got divorced I think I cried wet and loudly every day the whole drive to work for 6 months. I woke up in the morning, ate breakfast not because I was hungry, but because one eats breakfast in the morning, worked, ate lunch at noon, worked etc. and I walked, a lot. For like hours on weekends. I just walked my dog outside mostly because I could "act" fine even though I wasn't. But little by little I got better.

[Deleted]

lol, your mom seems super cute.

((BQQ))

[kellbell191]

Your mom is adorable. You have so many people in the world who adore you, hang in there. It will get better

[Deleted]

I think you are reacting the best way your know how. And I think you are reacting well. Just keep pushing forward and keep believing that each day will be easier than the last. ((hugs))

[curtains]

I don't have anything more to add - you have gotten some great advice but I did want to add my support to the huge pile you already have.
I have been there and I am sooo much happier now... You'll get there and we are here until that happens.

[fuckyourcouch]

lol at your mom.
big hugs bon.