Update on my mom :(

[emsumm]

It's malignant.  Right now the diagnosis is Malignant Melanoma in the sentinal lymph node.  On Wednesday she gets a PET scan to determine how far it has spread. 
I'm trying to hold it together right now because I'm going to tutor for a bit.
I'm feeling pretty hopeless, though.  Back when she was first diagnosed, they basically told us that if this happens, it's a death sentence. 
I made an appointment with a grief counselor and have a few ativan (which I've never taken and have no clue what it does.  Can I eat?).  Just need to get through work.
Thank you all again for your well wishes and support.  It meant, and means, a lot.

[EmilieMadison]

Oh, Em. I'm sorry. We are all here for you, every step of the way with you.

[tripleshot]

I'm so sorry. (((Hugs)))

[kaybee85]

I'm so so so sorry em. I wish there was something comforting I could say. Fuck cancer. Can you cancel tutoring? If not, I might cry a bit, wash my face, and just do what you can. Hugs

[vicky]

I'm so sorry, sweetheart.

[Bonita]

I am so sorry Em

{{{{hugs}}}}

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry. (hugs)

[nightandday]

I'm so sorry.

[Deleted]

FUCK!!! I was praying this wouldn't be the news you got. I am so sorry.

[alzi]

i am so so sorry. please let me know if you need anything.

hugs.

[emsumm]

Thank you guys.
I knew yesterday this is what it was. I was holding out a little hope but really not much. It sucks to know for sure, but today I need to pull it together for our family. I'm going to drug myself when I get home, though.
sue Sue, we should know after the PET scan. Not sure how long the results will take, but luckily my mom does pro-bono work for her oncologist and he is expediting all of her tests and results. So hopefully the same day, or Thursday.
I just don't think there's much hope. With a lump that large on the lymph node, there's really very little chance it's contained.

[HiC]

Thinking of you and your mom, em. ((((hug)))

[bab]

I'm so sorry em.  We are all here for you

[Marle]

Oh em it's so tough to keep up hope. At this point make sure that you guys honor your mother's wishes whatever they may be.

Ativan will calm you down. Get some Xanax if you can. Very helpful for days to come.

Prepare for the worst but always expect the best. Don't lose hope.

(Hugs)

[daisybuchannan]

I'm so sorry.

[Deleted]

I'm sorry

[Cricket0619]

I'm so so sorry

[awick14]

((Em))

I'm so sorry you are going through this.

[Monica Geller]

I'm so sorry!!

[malibu]

I am so sorry to hear this. Ugh.

[mudslide]

((Hugs)) yes you can eat with Ativan. Don't drive.

[daisyheadmaizie]

I'm so sorry, Em. Sending huge, giant ((hugs)) your way. Anytime you need an ear or shoulder to lean on let me know.

[karmasabiotch]

I'm so sorry. Take the Ativan. It will help your mind rest. Maybe call your Dr. for Xanax. Hugs...

[Deleted]

((em)) I wish I could say something to make it all better but just know we're here for you.

[bluetopaz]

I'm so sorry

[Jermys]

Anything I can do, I'm here for the asking. Give your mom a HUGE hug from us and your dad too. I will be keeping my thoughts positive for all of you...your mom beat the hell out of this stupid cancer before when they said she wouldn't. I wouldn't put it past her to kick its ass again. She's a strong woman!!

[Deleted]

((Hugs)) I'm so sorry.

[luvvy]

I'm so sorry.

[underwaterrhymes]

I'm so, so sorry. Big hugs to you.

[glitzyglow]

I'm sorry Emsumm. Big hugs to you and your family.