well, that didn't work! (venting inside)

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Hey guys. You'll remember a few weeks ago that I posted about having some pretty severe ovulatory pain after using clomid? Well, I'm out - I started spotting today. I expect it at this point....after all this time TTC...but it still totally and completely blows. Bummed, and still have to sit through a training class this afternoon.

Of course, a friend of mine just announced his wife's second pregnancy today. Literally. I saw the email right before I figured out that I was spotting! I even let my brain, for just a minute, go to 'oh, how fun if friend's wife and I are pregnant at the same time. '

Booooooo! I'm happy for them but feeling majorly sorry for myself.....and very, very jealous.

[lola]

Oh man, I'm sorry Smiley. You're allowed to feel jealous right now. Take care of yourself.

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Mar 7, 2013 16:03:44 GMT -5 lola said:

Oh man, I'm sorry Smiley. You're allowed to feel jealous right now. Take care of yourself.

You're very sweet. Thank you. That's exactly what I needed to hear

[HoneySpider]

Ugh, I'm so sorry

[trufflefries]

I'm sorry Smiley! That sucks. Will you do another round of clomid next month?

I'm working through some serious jealousy issues right now so I can relate. I feel embarrassed that I am, but I can't help it. TTC is such an ugly process for those of us that struggle!

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Boo! Jealousy is totally normal. MH flips the fuck out every time someone announces a pregnancy or posts something silly about their kid on FB.

[bronxgirl]

jealousy over other people's PGs has just become a way of life for me. Hugs, Smiley

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Thank you, girls. It's really nice and very comforting to hear from those who are going through similar things. I am going to be 37 this summer and just feel like every month is just slipping away....which I think is leading to this incredible sense of urgency and disappointment.

Sorry! Blah, blah blah. I feel so down about it - and I'm such a cheery person regularly.

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Mar 7, 2013 20:36:01 GMT -5 trufflefries said:

I'm sorry Smiley! That sucks. Will you do another round of clomid next month?

I'm working through some serious jealousy issues right now so I can relate. I feel embarrassed that I am, but I can't help it. TTC is such an ugly process for those of us that struggle!

Thank you. I usually work through the jealousy by just venting to my DH - he's the only 1 that I talk to about that. I'm the only one of my friend circle who hasn't had a baby and I don't want that baggage hanging around.My BFF andanother close fried know tha we're having difficulty, so In definitely have good support.

I think that I will try at least another round of Clomid, will do another round this month and get back with the doctor to make a plan. How about you?

[degal99]

I'm sorry to hear that! And just to echo, jealousy is a totally normal feeling throughout all of this. Good luck with the clomid next month!

[KaraOrNot]

Ugh, that sucks. Sorry

[discogranny]

I've come to realize that it is the Murphy's law of IF that someone will always announce their pregnancy the day you find out any form of treatment was a bust.

Sorry it didn't work out this round, I hope the next one it's you announcing your pregnancy at the end of your treatment cycle.

[BNL2]

I'm sorry Smiley. Jealousy is absolutely normal.

[trufflefries]

Mar 7, 2013 21:22:55 GMT -5 smileyface said:

Mar 7, 2013 20:36:01 GMT -5 trufflefries said:

I'm sorry Smiley! That sucks. Will you do another round of clomid next month?

I'm working through some serious jealousy issues right now so I can relate. I feel embarrassed that I am, but I can't help it. TTC is such an ugly process for those of us that struggle!

Thank you. I usually work through the jealousy by just venting to my DH - he's the only 1 that I talk to about that. I'm the only one of my friend circle who hasn't had a baby and I don't want that baggage hanging around.My BFF andanother close fried know tha we're having difficulty, so In definitely have good support.

I think that I will try at least another round of Clomid, will do another round this month and get back with the doctor to make a plan. How about you?

I have an appointment in late April to talk to my dr about fertility meds, probably clomid as well. Fingers crossed yours work this month and maybe I'll be a couple of months behind you!