Starting to hate my body

[degal99]

I'm ready to be normal now.  Like, it's starting to get to me how not normal I feel.  I'm waiting on my period to start so that we can do a medicated cycle/IUI.  And my damn period doesn't want to start.  I had blood work done which showed that I ovulated and am not pregnant.  So they said, well, you'll start your period in 7-10 days.  Call us then.  And I'm waiting to to call so that they can do lots of U/S, and I can take meds to induce egg growth, then collect my husband's sperm, and then directly shoot it into my uterus after giving me an injection to induce ovulation.  I just... I just don't know how I feel right now, other than frustrated and annoyed, and sad, and alone right now.  And I'm glad I have you gals to vent to.

Thanks for just letting me get that out.

[changedname]

Hugs degal. I am on cd 37 and was told on Tuesday that af was just round the corner. I am running to the restroom every five seconds to check... this is getting annoying. Why can't our bodies just work!!!

[bronxgirl]

Uggh, that's so frustrating. All the feelings you mentioned are very normal, but very unpleasant. I'm sorry you have to go through this. Vent on here all you need. As much as it may feel like it, you're not alone. We're all in this crappy boat with you. I hope your period caomes soon and everything can get going. Good luck.

[degal99]

Mar 28, 2013 15:03:07 GMT -5 changedname said:

Hugs degal. I am on cd 37 and was told on Tuesday that af was just round the corner. I am running to the restroom every five seconds to check... this is getting annoying. Why can't our bodies just work!!!

Thanks.  I'm on day 3563.  Well, actually 49, and it's just so frustrating because if I wasn't trying to get pregnant, I would love to not have my period!

[degal99]

Mar 28, 2013 15:04:26 GMT -5 bronxgirl said:

Uggh, that's so frustrating. All the feelings you mentioned are very normal, but very unpleasant. I'm sorry you have to go through this. Vent on here all you need. As much as it may feel like it, you're not alone. We're all in this crappy boat with you. I hope your period caomes soon and everything can get going. Good luck.

Thanks.  I'm glad I have this board because it really does remind me that I'm not alone in all this.  

[G22]

I'm in the same situation. It sucks because we just want AF start so we can move forward.

Vent all you need to. ((Hugs))

[mae141]

I'm sorry. I know what you mean about wanting to feel normal. I'm not sure I'll ever know what that even is again. I don't know that I'll ever be able to totally give up on not having kids if these treatments don't work; I'll probably always hold out hope. On the other hand, I hope that I do get to have a baby and never be normal because of that.

You're definitely not alone in how you feel.

[lola]

Hugs degal99.

[KaraOrNot]

Hugs.

[murdock]

Hugs. That's so frustrating, I'm sorry.

[degal99]

I really appreciate all the kind words. Sometimes it's just too much, but it's nice to know that I'm not alone, and there others who do understand what I'm going though. Thanks!

[BNL2]

Hugs degal99. I know exactly how you feel and I'll tell you it's normal, well at least common. I go through phases where I can't believe all the bullshit we have to go through, the meds, the tests, and 2 freaking internal ultrasounds per cycle just to have a glimmer of hope. Only to be disappointed later. It freaking sucks it's not fair. We all understand where you're coming from and you can vent anytime.