Post by jeekerbeeker on Apr 3, 2013 14:12:17 GMT -5
So, my maternal grandfather was diagnosed with Parkinson's several years back. It's been a slow decline but the last few times I've visited him he seems to be deteriorating more rapidly. Today is his 81st birthday so I went to the nursing home where he lives to visit during my lunch break.
He seems to have gotten so much worse than the last time I saw him. I can see it especially in his facial movements. He's lost quite a bit of hair, looks much thinner and is permanently slumped over a little. It's affected his speech so much that he barely talks above a low whisper and he doesn't hear well so it's almost impossible to have a conversation with him. Mostly he just sat and smiled at me.
I'm sad this afternoon because it's really hitting me that he won't be around forever. I'm very close to him and my grandmother and my heart hurts so much. All I can think about is that he most likely be around to see me have a baby, that my grandmother will be hurting once he's gone, I'll never hear his voice or hear stories from him again, etc. My mind is just kind of all over the place today. I know that these things happen and no one lives forever but it's just so hard.
I'm not really sure what I'm looking for here but I just wanted to get it all out. Sorry so long