I'm having a really hard time lately.

[caffeinebean]

I have no friends. I have no life. And just typing that out makes me feel so melodramatic. 

I lost my retail job back in January. Gotta love those seasonal positions. I've been applying for jobs like crazy, but nothing has happened yet. I can't go back to school until the fall semester because of some financial aid issues that took forever to work out. 

I've noticed a lot of my friends distancing themselves over the past few months. Once they realized that I'm broke and can't go out all the time the invitations completely stopped. Texts and calls go unanswered. My 'best friend' won't even answer my calls anymore. She'll call me if she needs someone to watch her DD, but if I just want to hang out or something, nada.

I understand that a lot of them are busy with family and work and kids, but it still feels pretty shitty. And that's another thing, everyone is settling down. Getting married, having kids, the whole enchilada. I'm starting to feel left behind. I know that sounds stupid. I'm happy with BF and I don't want to rush things with him, because the relationship is great where it's at. But when I hear about friends getting engaged, getting married, having babies I get sad. I get jealous. And I hate it.

I just kind of hate everything right now.

I know I sound like an idiot. But if someone, anyone, could help me figure out my life that would be super awesome.

[Deleted]

Go volunteer or something. It sounds like you need to get out of the house.

[TrickyBob]

I'm sorry you're having a rough time.

[shoeless]

((hugs))
I agree with the volunteering but I'll add working out and what about trying to find low cost meetups though meetups.com? A book club could be doable if you got the books at the library.

[imojoebunny]

What are you doing with your days? It can be tough not working. Doing something with your days, volunteering in particular, or learning someing new can give you something to talk about with people beyond the misery of not being where you want to be. My DH was unemployed for a year two times. The second time was particularly hard on him. He ended up working for his friends catering business part time, though he was previously in corporate, but it was good for him to have that to do. Within a few months, his attitude improved dramatically, and he got a regular job. Good luck. It is hard to not be doing what you want to be doing.

[TrickyBob]

What kind of area are you in?

[LeggsBenedict]

I get you. I really, really do. I was going to post something similar today, with a big tangent about all the fucking vet bills we just have pouring in right now. Recent (2013) vet appointments include: today, tomorrow, monday, 2 weeks ago, 1.5 months ago, and early january. We're drowning in this shit.

I ditto getting out of the house. Volunteering is free, and so is jogging, which I'm trying to pick up.

[Deleted]

You've had a lot of changes in your life recently, go easy on yourself. Volunteering is a great idea, free, a place to meet people, and looks great on a resume.

[bananapancakes]

I'm sorry you are having a rough go right now. I advocate putting yourself on a bit of a schedule and making sure you get out of the house each day. Like make sure you are up at a reasonable time every morning and go out for a walk/jog. Come home, shower, eat breakfast, spend a few hours looking for a job/working on your resume. Every afternoon try and get out of the house by either volunteering or going to the library. I also second looking for Meet up groups. You can often find cheap meet-ups like going for coffee or a hike. Good luck!

[Deleted]

Take up running. That's what I would do if I had free time. I'd work out a lot. And running is basically free. And it makes you feel accomplished.

[caffeinebean]

You guys are awesome, thank you. I really appreciate your suggestions and I'll definitely look into volunteering.

Recently I've started jogging, just to get out of the house, and that's been pretty awesome. Sometimes BF goes with, sometimes I take my dog.

I'm just in such a fog and I seriously don't even want to get out of bed in the morning.