I was there, it was awful

[hellfreezesovertour]

Hi.  I'm not a member here, but I dirty lurk and I just need to talk about yesterday.  I brought my two kids ages 4 and 8 to the marathon because it was school vacation week.  We were on Boylston Street near the street entrance to Lord and Taylor across the street from where the bombs were.

I haven't stopped shaking and I cannot get over the fact that I took my kids to a place where a bomb went off.  What if something happened to them.   It was awful and we saw some really gruesome things.  We also had a LOT of people helping us, including an old friend who has a condo on the Comm. Ave.  We just sat there for hours and hours.  The kids literally fell asleep on his bed and napped while people were everywhere.  I was so upset I couldn't get on the train.   I had taken the T from Malden Center and I finally got my car this afternoon; my husband had to pick us up, I couldn't drive.

It was really bad and people didn't know where we were for too long and my girlfriends were freaking out.

[LoveTrains]

I am so sorry. You poor thing. and your poor babies.

[secretlyevil]

I'm so sorry. You shouldn't blame yourself for having your kids there. It was supposed to be a really positive experience. How were you to know what was going to happen? Take care of yourself, don't be afraid to reach out to get help for you or your kids. ::internet hugs::

[meshaliuknits]

I'm so sorry. I can only imagine how awful it was. I'm very happy you and yours are okay.

[hellfreezesovertour]

I didn't tell my husband we were going, so he didn't know we were there until I got through to him later. So he never had the omg moment of freaking out, which I am glad for.

My daughter is freaked out.

[meshaliuknits]

Apr 16, 2013 17:31:13 GMT -5 hellfreezesovertour said:

I didn't tell my husband we were going, so he didn't know we were there until I got through to him later. So he never had the omg moment of freaking out, which I am glad for.

My daughter is freaked out.

Sesame Street tweeted this yesterday: www.sesameworkshop.org/our-blog/2013/04/16/more-tragic-times-helping-families-cope/  Maybe it can help you help your kids be less scared.

[EloiseWeenie]

I'm so sorry. T & P for you and your kids.

[Kore]

I'm so, so sorry

[epphd]

I'm so sorry for you and your kiddos. I can't imagine. Very glad you are all safe.

[pixy0stix]

I'm so sorry that you were there. You have absolutely nothing to be feeling guilty about. It's a family event. No one knew what was going to happen.

[mominatrix]

So sorry.

[penguingrrl]

I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine.

[Velar Fricative]

I'm so sorry. I am glad you and your kids are safe.

[womet]

I am so sorry. No one should ever have to experience that. {{{hugs}}}

[Deleted]

I am so sorry, but glad you all are safe.

[earlgreyhot]

((HUGS)) to you and your family.

I know the area well, and, frankly, can't imagine a world in which taking your kids to that event, that area isn't safe. I can only imagine how shaken up you are. I'm so sorry you had to experience it first hand.

[Deleted]

I am so sorry you and your little ones had to experience that firsthand, but so glad you are all safe. And how wonderful of your friend to give you all a safe place to let things get settled down.

[iammalcolmx]

I am so sorry and hope you guys get help if you need it.
Also excuse my language but it isn't your fault a fucking psychopath(s) started bombing shit. Don't you feel guilty for ONE SECOND.

[Deleted]

I'm so sorry. From your post I'm guessing you and your children were not injured; If I'm correct on that then I am glad. Thank you for sharing with us.

[taratru]

I'm so so sorry you and your little ones had to endure that. There is nothing for you to feel guilty about, at all. You were taking your kids to a positive and amazing experience that will be again. Hugs to you all.

[lyssbobiss, Command, B613]

Oh, God, how horrifying. I'm glad you and your children are not injured. I can't imagine how terrified you all must have been.

[runforrest]

I'm so sorry you all had to experience that, but am glad you are safe. Like everyone else said, you have nothing to feel guilty about.

Huge hugs.

[erbear]

races are amazing, family-friendly events. There is no reason to think that bringing your children to the Marathon would be anything but an awesome experience. I'm so sorry for you all. Maybe look into someone to talk to for your 8 year old?

[Deleted]

I'm just so sorry you were a part of that and that your children witnessed what they did.

[thumper55]

I'm glad that you and your children weren't hurt, and that you had a place to go afterwards where you could feel safer and for the kids to rest.  I can't imagine how horrible it was to witness that.

[Deleted]

I am so sorry, and I am glad that you are ok. Please, please get any sort of help you may think you need. I can't imagine what you have seen and dealt with.

[wannabe]

you couldn't have had any idea that something would happen. These events are supposed to be happy and family friendly!

I'm glad you're okay.

[twotrue]

I'm glad you're okay and please don't feel bad.

sent by phone

[summer]

I'm so glad you and your children are safe. Like PP's said, please take advantage of all counseling. No one should ever have to see or experience what you and your children did.

And you didn't do anything at all wrong. You took your kids somewhere that was meant to be a great, safe family-friendly experience. Some crazy asshole is the one that was wrong, not you.

Hugs to you and your babies. Take care of your self, please.

[secretlyevil]

I wanted add, I hope you'll stay out of "dirty lurking" for good. Lots of great people on the various boards, can be a nice distraction when needed as well as a great place to get different points of view, etc.