whatever tuesday

[G22]

Eh, I know that doesn't sound right but I wanted to put these somewhere. Lol

Confession: I don't like to pee on stuff. Lol I confess I haven't had a pregnancy test in my house for months, and I don't know that ill buy one even though I'm having IUI. I almost just would rather wait it out for a blood test. Or my period. I may change my mind, but I just hate seeing a negative sign.

Vent/flameful: I have no problem with someone being alittle nervous finding out that they are pregnant. I'm sure one of the first thoughts are "is this real" or "what did we do". But when you were TTC, and knew what you were doing and then freak the crap out like you weren't expecting it at all...that grates on my nerves. Like irrationally freak out and your 2 seconds pregnant.

[HoneySpider]

Haha I guess my confession is that I do like peeing on things. I have no idea why.

I don't think your vent is flameful.

[changedname]

I had a fucking nightmare yesterday. My SIL texted me to ask if I'm on Pinterest. Cue massive panic to hide the trillion baby/maternity boards I had before I casually texted her back - "sure, here is my username" haha. Thank God it wasn't my full name.
Now she is repinning the crap out of all my stuff so I have to watch what I put there. (I had a whole board of gifts for her kids and the rest of the family which I had to delete too - so annoying).

Now I am just waiting for a  text saying "are you on proboards?" wtf. For some reason I thought she was computer illiterate and I was "safe".

[changedname]

And I don't like to pee on things because they are always negative. I have like a million opks and hpts in my bathroom. I just wait for af. I never even went for betas with my IUIs, just waited for af.

[jewel]

CANDY CRUSH ADDED NEW LEVELS! That made my day.

And, I love to pee on things. Every single month I tell myself that I'll wait until I'm late to test, and every single month I test at least 5 times before that.

[linz]

icedgems - I have a "secret" board for baby stuff. I had a public one last year even before we were TTC and would get too many questions so I made a secret one. I had to repin a lot of stuff but worth it to know I can pin whatever the hell I want and no one will see. I even have a nursery board

I don't mind peeing on stuff but always scared I did it wrong! But I hate seeing a negative so when I do my IUI next month I'm just gonna wait for AF to show up before I POAS.  I once had the digital tests and seeing "NOT PREGNANT" was a like taking a punch.

[G22]

Yes icedgems, you can have secret boards that only you can see on Pinterest now. Id start using a few of those so your SIL can't see some stuff.

[changedname]

linz and G22 - yeah I created secret boards and repinned everything. So annoying though but at least my secret is safe!

[discogranny]

Apr 23, 2013 8:18:16 GMT -5 G22 said:

Vent/flameful: I have no problem with someone being alittle nervous finding out that they are pregnant. I'm sure one of the first thoughts are "is this real" or "what did we do". But when you were TTC, and knew what you were doing and then freak the crap out like you weren't expecting it at all...that grates on my nerves. Like irrationally freak out and your 2 seconds pregnant.

I feel like this vent and the one I posted in the check-in yesterday might be related. I completely agree.

Our internet is out at work, so I am using my phone as a hotspot. It works but basically only enough to do things like GBCN, not to upload or download the massive drawing files I need to do for work. I kind of don't mind that.

I am almost never a pee on things person, but I got the crazy when I did IVF. I had one FRER that I found under a cabinet...got the faintest of faint second lines at 6dp5dt and was off to the races. I spent $40 on tests in that three day period between that first faint test and my beta.

I am craving breakfast for lunch and I cannot wait to eat even though it's only 10:58.

[G22]

discogranny, if its related to something you may have read elsewhere on proboards, then yes I think they are related! I'm just nauseous and cranky today and it just rubbed me wrong.

[HoneySpider]

I think I need to step away from the GP board. I haven't been overly active there lately, but I think I need to not even get involved.

That is all.

[G22]

Apr 23, 2013 11:17:34 GMT -5 HoneySpider said:

I think I need to step away from the GP board. I haven't been overly active there lately, but I think I need to not even get involved.

That is all.

i was never overly active there to begin with and for a reason. i lurk still some, but its just makes me cranky reading some stuff thats posted. i think ill be staying away for awhile now.

[ilovecandy]

Apr 23, 2013 8:18:16 GMT -5 G22 said:

Vent/flameful: I have no problem with someone being alittle nervous finding out that they are pregnant. I'm sure one of the first thoughts are "is this real" or "what did we do". But when you were TTC, and knew what you were doing and then freak the crap out like you weren't expecting it at all...that grates on my nerves. Like irrationally freak out and your 2 seconds pregnant.

Not flameful at all. 

I have a flameful H has been annoying the shit out of me lately.  He just can't seem to remember anything and i have to remind hin one million times about things.  I am secretly relieved he will be leaving soon.  Of course this always happens when it gets close to him leaving because i know he is leaving so i just start getting annoyed with him regardless lol.  

H wants to go see his family before he leaves.  I said no because we were just there 5 months ago.  Hell no do i want to go back anytime soon.  And when we do i want to get a hotel instead of staying at his parents which will be drama i am sure.  

[lola]

Apr 23, 2013 8:18:16 GMT -5 G22 said:

Vent/flameful: I have no problem with someone being alittle nervous finding out that they are pregnant. I'm sure one of the first thoughts are "is this real" or "what did we do". But when you were TTC, and knew what you were doing and then freak the crap out like you weren't expecting it at all...that grates on my nerves. Like irrationally freak out and your 2 seconds pregnant.

Oh, I almost posted this exact same thing earlier today. So, I'll say it now bc I am in a shit mood! lol. YES. You're so right about this. 

I wonder if we're "talking" about the same poster! lol. I am happy (I swear!) for people that get pregnant, but I am just totally staying away from any GP posts about the issue. 

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I'm tired and cranky. It's freezing here today and dreary. I really want to take a nap, but have so much work to do.

[G22]

lola I'm sure it is the same. There was a post on GP and ML by the poster. I didn't read the GP one because the ML irked me.

I'm sure she's nice, because I get that vibe from her posts. But id kill to be pregnant. Instead I just have the symptoms thanks to the drugs I'm taking. Suck! And my passive aggressive self feels bad even just writing it all out. That's why I thought it might be flameful.

[lola]

Oh, it's flameful alright! I mean, I'll stand in the fire with you, but I'm pretty sure it's flameful. lol. 

And, FTR, I avoid pretty much everything on GP. It's a shitshow over there, 90% of the time. 

[belovedbride07]

I feel so in-between...I feel guilty posting here because we've only been trying for 9 months, but I feel like smacking some sense into people over there. (And I know you guys can relate more with what I'm going through...I'm beyond "OMG what does my chart mean!?" territory and firmly into "waiting for medical answers takes sooo long" land.) So for now, I'm bouncing back and forth and largely keeping my flameful thoughts to myself.

[lola]

Apr 23, 2013 15:02:01 GMT -5 belovedbride07 said:

I feel so in-between...I feel guilty posting here because we've only been trying for 9 months, but I feel like smacking some sense into people over there. (And I know you guys can relate more with what I'm going through...I'm beyond "OMG what does my chart mean!?" territory and firmly into "waiting for medical answers takes sooo long" land.) So for now, I'm bouncing back and forth and largely keeping my flameful thoughts to myself.

The thing is, it isn't really even fun to BE flameful over there, you know? Like they're so....SOMETHING I CAN'T NAME.....over there. I would almost feel too bad to be mean! It sucks! lol.

[discogranny]

We're all talking about the same person. It's Mekia, she's incredibly sweet and I posted here yesterday to keep myself from posting something about "never being able to have children" in her announcement because its bitchy and terrible and I'm better than that even though it took some real convincing myself that I was. She doesn't deserve the hate and even though we all know that it's hard as fuck for us to not be bitter about it.

ML has been a real challenge to my "my fertility is in no way related to anyone else's, they are not taking "my" baby" mantra lately. I've kind of been scarce and just posting on things I can handle there.

Why the hell does this shit have to be so hard?

[melindafelinda]

I think she is just very very very naive.

[BNL2]

I purposely avoided those threads on ML and GP because I'm not in a place where I can read announcements. Along that same line, I have had two friends, both who knew about my IF, who have had oops pregnancies say to me, "I thought I couldn't get pregnant because we're bad about the birth control ::giggle::"

I just wanted to yell at them "Thinking you can't get pregnant is REAL HEAVY SHIT that makes you cry yourself to sleep at night! It's not a fleeting thought before sex that you get to be flippant about." Also, "that's like the least comforting thing you could say to me right now." But I just smiled and nodded while searching for the nearest bottle of wine.

[lola]

I agree, Melinda.

BNL2 - Yeah, I avoided them too. Didn't even go in. I saw the follow up this a.m. about "I keep freaking out!" and what I could see by hovering made it clear not to open it. I'm really, really sorry about your friends. People can be so thoughtless.

[melindafelinda]

Also I'm on CD 17 and I have brown spotting. What the fuck is wrong with my body.

[azurely]

I have secret baby/kid Pinterest boards too. I have to have somewhere to save stuff I find without having people asking me about it

I am having a really hard time not being bitter about IF lately. I am not sure why, because we are finally seeing an RE. We're doing the tests we need to do, getting ready to do an IUI with injectables in May, and things are FINALLY moving. And now is the time I should be hopeful, yet I just feel bitter.

[lola]

Apr 23, 2013 20:13:41 GMT -5 azurely said:

I have secret baby/kid Pinterest boards too. I have to have somewhere to save stuff I find without having people asking me about it

I am having a really hard time not being bitter about IF lately. I am not sure why, because we are finally seeing an RE. We're doing the tests we need to do, getting ready to do an IUI with injectables in May, and things are FINALLY moving. And now is the time I should be hopeful, yet I just feel bitter.

I feel no hope. None, whatsoever. I also feel bitter. I have no idea what my problem is.

So, you're not alone! :drink:

[G22]

Hugs, azurely. I was still angry and bitter at everything when we first started seeing my doctor. I didn't start feeling hopeful until this weekend when I realized, it was finally happening, we finally were doing IUI. I still yo-yo between hopeful and anxious.

I hope once you start moving forward with that IUI in May you'll see a shift to hopeful. Honestly, my mood changes daily. I hate the fluctuations. I think it was degal99 who told me to allow myself to feel happy and hopeful for the next 2 weeks. To enjoy having hope again. Its good advice, and I'm trying to take it to heart

[KaraOrNot]

I had the same thoughts about the GP/ML posts.

I have never stopped feeling bitter. Some days I feel more numb than bitter, but it is always there.

[bronxgirl]

I feel like a big mix of anger and sadness.

[jewel]

I feel all of the above, plus a ton of jealousy over the naivety. I'd love to be so clueless.