I'm getting nervous

[nursewife]

I'm sorry for yet another post about my surgery. It's 17 days away, and am scared. I know what's happening, I know it's my best chance of getting pain relief. I'm just scared. My friends don't know what to say, and most don't say anything at all. I'm not looking forward to a hospital stay and taking the 6 weeks off work. I'm not looking for pity, it could be worse. This just really fucking sucks. I didn't think I would ever need a hysterectomy, especially in my 30s.

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Have you had surgery before? I've had several and it's not as bad as I had imagined. The worst part by far is all the anxiety and anticipation heading up to the surgery. You will do great.

I assume your surgery is laparoscopic? How many incisions? I haven't had a hysterectomy but have had several abdominal laparoscopic surgeries. The pain is just bad muscle pain, like you've done WAY too many sit ups. And the fantastic pain killers really help take the edge off. I hope your surgery is easier than anticipated and provides the pain relief you need!

[nursewife]

I'm having an abdominal hysterectomy. Is that how you had your done sue sue I've had endometriosis kicking my ass badly for the last 5 years, and my previous 3 laparoscopic surgeries didn't clear it up. I'm scared to be away the kids, scared that its abdominally and a much longer recovery, and scared of hormone replacement therapy. Even though I have kids, I know it will sting to see my friends pregnant and have babies. If I didn't have endo, I would have loved a third, but that's just not an option. I'm thankful for your reassurance girls. Truly. My friends don't bring it up, and if I do they change the subject back to their pregnancies. I feel like such an outsider.

[nursewife]

Apr 30, 2013 0:37:54 GMT -5 @cse1960 said:

Mine ended up being abdominal, was supposed to be laparoscopic. The recovery was not so bad, really. I went home the next day, after a night in a surgical center. I was worried about the kids, but they were fine at home. I was already so old (lol) when I had mine done they did not do HRT, but I did not have my ovaries out either. (((hugs))) I had adenomyosis, it was so painful. and Poof. Gone. I hope it works like that for you.

My fingers are crossed the pain will get better. Today when I say the doc he said its not a cure, which I knew. I guess it just hit me hard that I could still be in a lot of pain after. I'm taking up to 20mg of dilaudid a day right now. I can't live the rest if my life needing pain killers to function. My babies and husband deserve better.