Guy number two was the engineer. Surprisingly well-spoken, good manners, easy to talk with. I made a few engineer jokes and I don't think he liked that, so I felt a bit bad. He was also surprisingly self-confident in other areas, which was surprising because I didn't think the evening would end in anything more than a long hug and maybe a peck. No sex, but man has good hands.
HOWEVER, since I was unprepared for even the possibility of any action, I know I was awkward and surprised and, yeah. He was extremely attractive to me and not the kind of person I thought I would have a chance with a year or two ago, so the notion that anyone would want to see me nekkid or whatever is still wild to me. And he was super attentive. rawr.
Anyway, that was Friday and I'd like to see him again, but we have barely talked since then. I mentioned maybe going to a baseball game but no word yet. Soooo. With my awkwardness with a few things and sarcastic comments to cover up surprise, I may have blown it.
The guy tonight is the first one who contacted me and we've had a lot of long email conversations (as much as you can have in a week's span. You must understand all of this has been within a week. el oh el). I think it'll be fun. If it doesn't work out, I could see myself hanging out with him as a friend.
Oh and Muddled, you are absolutely correct about the first guy. He had this date set up with this other person for awhile and I think I was an in-between thing. Ah well.
Gault, he is probably just trying not to seem to eager. Baseball sounds like a grand adventure and I hope you hear back from him soon! I love engineer/science brains. I find them so attractive. Keep us updated on tonight too!
doglove, it's more the fact that when I was larger I automatically deducted certain folks out of the equation. Why would an average-weight person be attracted to a (very) large person, especially when they have their pick of all the CA hotties in my former town? Things like that. I lived with what I thought I could attain. Obviously not the best thing to be doing.
I think it will just take some time. I know I deserve a good person, but it's difficult to establish a self-confident first date atmosphere when some of that former person is still inside me. Does that make sense?
doglove, it's more the fact that when I was larger I automatically deducted certain folks out of the equation. Why would an average-weight person be attracted to a (very) large person, especially when they have their pick of all the CA hotties in my former town? Things like that. I lived with what I thought I could attain. Obviously not the best thing to be doing.
I think it will just take some time. I know I deserve a good person, but it's difficult to establish a self-confident first date atmosphere when some of that former person is still inside me. Does that make sense?
You did only go out Saturday. It's Monday, he may not want to seem over eager or he's busy. You never know If he doesn't contact you again, he isn't worth the time to be sad.