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[ashleydl83]

Oh eav, what a rollercoaster for you and your H! I hope you can be seen soon. Big hugs, and it's okay to feel however you are feeling.

[kdrake8]

Jun 2, 2013 19:23:37 GMT -5 eav2c said:

Yes, all pregnant. Though I am very crampy today. I want to know what the deal was last week. I was in a lot of pain and now I'm just confused.

I'm not trying to sound like a brat but I am having a hard time with this. It's just too many ups and downs. I just sad. No other feelings but that. I am so angry at myself for feeling that way but in light of what we thought was a m/c, we decided to push off TTC plans for a few months to focus on Colin, my dad, ourselves. I had rationalized every reason in my head when I thought I was having a m/c as to why one baby is best and that it wasn't meant to be right now and I was okay. I was upset, of course, but now everything I told myself to get through my sadness is turned upside down. Just hard to grasp, I guess. Maybe things will be easier on me emotionally after I go see my doctor.

eta: annnnd I do want to say thank you all for all the love. It means a lot. I know it'll be okay. I just feel confused/scared/anxious. It will pass.

You know those feelings are 100% ok. We understand and lots of us have been there. We love you.

You text or message me if you need to talk. Sending much love. I can't imagine what an emotional roller coaster this has been. If I can help in any way, please let me!!

Xoxo

[biblionerd]

((hugs)) Ditto what everyone else said- your feelings are yours and are completely valid. You can feel however you want and it's ok. I can't believe how many ups and downs you've been through and it's totally expected that it has thrown you for a HUGE loop. I wonder if you pain last week was implantation?? If the wondfos are obviously giving you false positives (or else your DH is pg and has some explaining to do). I had horrible implantation cramps this time so maybe that's what the pain was. Either way, I hope you find your answers out soon.

[Dorothy Zbornak]

Jun 2, 2013 19:23:37 GMT -5 eav2c said:

Yes, all pregnant. Though I am very crampy today. I want to know what the deal was last week. I was in a lot of pain and now I'm just confused.

I'm not trying to sound like a brat but I am having a hard time with this. It's just too many ups and downs. I just sad. No other feelings but that. I am so angry at myself for feeling that way but in light of what we thought was a m/c, we decided to push off TTC plans for a few months to focus on Colin, my dad, ourselves. I had rationalized every reason in my head when I thought I was having a m/c as to why one baby is best and that it wasn't meant to be right now and I was okay. I was upset, of course, but now everything I told myself to get through my sadness is turned upside down. Just hard to grasp, I guess. Maybe things will be easier on me emotionally after I go see my doctor.

eta: annnnd I do want to say thank you all for all the love. It means a lot. I know it'll be okay. I just feel confused/scared/anxious. It will pass.

I had tons of cramps with both babies. With H, I remember sitting in the car with my husband, bitching and crying that my period was obviously coming and why can't I get pregnant, wah wah. And that period will now turn five in December.

Anyway. You don't sound like a brat. No one would want to have the fucking week you've had. We're all here with you!

[ashleydl83]

I just realized after Dorothy posted that I had a ton of cramps before I found out I was pregnant with Lexi. I didn't test for a while because I kept thinking it was coming any day now. I didn't find out til I was around 7 weeks because after two weeks with cramps and no period, I figured it was time to test.

[Dorothy Zbornak]

Jun 3, 2013 0:50:48 GMT -5 ashleydl83 said:

I just realized after Dorothy posted that I had a ton of cramps before I found out I was pregnant with Lexi. I didn't test for a while because I kept thinking it was coming any day now. I didn't find out til I was around 7 weeks because after two weeks with cramps and no period, I figured it was time to test.

Yep. I think I waited at least a week before I tested with H.

[eav2c]

Ugh, I can't get in till 130 tomorrow. My H called out sick today too so he could watch Colin. They are normally good with same day appointments but told me if I needed to be seen today to go to the hospital. Reason #6525 why I am getting a new OB.

[laurack]

ugh this sucks! What a confusing time for you!Stupid crazy pregnancy tests! aaaah

Lame they won't see you today, that sucks!

[jfh]

Oh, NOW I see why a biblionerd PM thread has 74 responses. Eav, holy shit! I can't believe what a roller coaster this has been. Seems like you're pregnant (that's my professional opinion). It's absolutely ok to feel sad - you worked hard to get on board with NOT being pregnant! Once it all sinks in and you have your final answer you'll feel much better. Sending you lots of hugs, girl (hug)

[eav2c]

Jun 3, 2013 8:51:02 GMT -5 laurack said:

ugh this sucks! What a confusing time for you!Stupid crazy pregnancy tests! aaaah

Lame they won't see you today, that sucks!

Yeah I'm feeling all self entitled like I absolutely need to be seen TODAY. I wasn't overly concerning when she asked why I needed to get in - I guess it's not same day appointment worthy but I feel like it is (I also felt like it was the day I found out I was pregnant with C, lol).

[Deleted]

Hugs eav! Hopefully you can be seen soon and get this all figured out!

[raynes]

I'm just seeing this all now. What a crazy mix of up and down. So, congrats??

I hope you can get in today!

[skwcm80]

I'm so sorry for the roller coaster you have been on, and like others have said, you are entitled to feel how ever you feel. (((Hugs)))