I'm Getting Ready for Rage

[orriskitten]

DH KNOWS I am having a hard time with life right now. Everything just sucks.

He ended up turning down the new job offer he got (which I fully support and back him 110%, this was the right choice for him) but the recruiter wanted to meet for drinks to talk for some reason. Whatever, fine with me.

DH is supposed to come home early today. Origially it was supposed to be him working from home and us leaving for Hershey at 3. He didn't work from home since we're not going and I asked if he could even leave early. He said "I'll be walking out of here before 5." Um. So, we're talking after 4:30, meaning he isn't getting home until 5:30-6. Fan-fucking-tastic. That helps a lot.

BUT! Now he went for drinks with the guy from the company he isn't going to and it lasted 2 hours. He still isn't back at the office. If he has to stay late I'm going to flip the fuck out.

Glad you got to enjoy some drinks with random dude from company you said no to. Way to put your family first and way to spoil me over the weekend.

Someone talk me down.

Its not even an option for me to have "me" time because there is no me. I don't fucking exist anymore. If I go out, I go out by myself, to go nowhere and be alone. I'm bored to pieces sitting in my room alone so I'd rather just not feel like I owe anyone anything and keep doing what I have to do and take care of the baby who only wants me anyway because I'm the only one who is here for her.

[mala]

*hugs*

[melis74]

This makes me so sad for you. Big hugs your way and I HOPE H doesn't have to work late.

[charlielove]

Big hugs and deep breaths. It sounds like things like this are being made bigger by the fact that you are struggling right now. I really hope things get easier for you soon, and if they don't, maybe you can explore your options for a course of action to help out with how you are feeling.

[Faevantastic]

*hugs*

[orriskitten]

Jun 28, 2013 13:11:36 GMT -5 @therealmc said:

You want to leave Mel home with him tonight or tomorrow afternoon or night or Sunday sometime? I will happily take you out for food and drinks! I am serious!

I don't even know if its doable. With GG here, he has basically said she is my responsibility and honestly, I don't want her to feel the negative vibes from him. I'll let you know, though. And thanks

[claralou]

I wish I was close enough to grab takeout and wine and come hang with you for a few hours after M goes to bed. You need a good long chat and a laugh and a serious break. I really hope things start improving for you, babe. You deserve so much more than this. Sending you big hugs.

[Regina Philange]

Come to Hershey!! We will take your sorrows away! Hugs, lady! Xox

[orriskitten]

Dh was able to come home early and we got to talk. He is willing to step up to help me out and apologized. There has been a lot of the going back and forth between the new job and his current and it has been stressing him out. I think he got to a place that he is confident in his choice, so I think things will get a little easier on me.

Thank you ladies so much. I really appreciate the support, I just get overwhelmed sometimes. If it continues this way, I'm going to see about getting a therapist or something to help me. If it continues, this will be a real problem since life is starting to head towards being normal.

[bubbyboo]

*hugs*

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