Post by starrieskies on Jul 10, 2013 11:02:09 GMT -5
I'm having an "off" week. it started out frustrating on Monday and just doesn't seem to be getting better... I think I'm just frustrated with life in general right now. But I'm feeling very negative today.
My job is getting crappy. Well, not my job. I like my job. The environment is going down the shitter in a hurry.
Remember the guy I mentioned that got fired last month...? We had the uber-security with AR-15s. Well, nothing ever happened with that guy. Yay for that.
Well, someone else got fired yesterday. She was nice, always found something to compliment on everyone, always smiling but she definitely had a 'tude toward authority. Upon getting fired she was escorted out of the building (standard procedure) and went quietly. She came back and took out the massive handicap ramp with her car. She tried to go up the stairs into the glass entryway, but missed. There's a big puddle of fluids (covered with kitty litter since we're redneck-handy around here) in the parking lot and tire marks on the sidewalk.
There's another guy, he sits two rows away from me... He told another employee (via IM) that he is going to punch someone in the face the next time that person is in the building (they're an external rep, so they aren't in here often). The person who received that IM took it to management, who took it to HR. HR had a meeting with the guy and he's rapidly decending into a full mental breakdown. Seriously. His demeanor is completely different, he's not doing any work, he's pulling at his hair, he's kinda shaking/tremoring and he's just off. You can tell that he's not himself anymore. It's been passed quietly through managers that we're to watch this guy for erratic behavior. Coincidentally, this guy is besties (and has been since kindergarten) with the guy who prompted the need for the uber-security.
FIRE HIM, ASSHOLES!!! Quit fucking with my sanity.
Holy crap Chirp, what does your workplace do to these people that make them go so batty?
LOL. I wish I knew. This crazy shit just started happening recently. I've been here for 12 years and I've never seen it like this.
We had a couple "incidents", but nothing what we're seeing now. There was a racial fight (idiot white guy decided to say "hey, my n***" to a black employee and he got beat down). There was a stupid man fight (M made a comment about S's wife so they went at it). Two people got fired after they were caught having sex in the parking lot. One woman was fired for stealing lunches. Another one was fired after she was arrested for a slew of drug charges. All except the last one were 7+ years ago. The drug lady was just last week.
Now all of a sudden people are threatening everyone else and trying to knock down the building. I don't get it.
Post by doctorchick on Jul 10, 2013 16:39:14 GMT -5
Does today feel like Friday to anyone else? It's depressing to think that there are two more days this week.
On the upside, I've been pushing my boss to let me submit a manuscript for publication and *finally* got the green light today! Now, I just have to hope for positive feedback!
Post by sunshineray on Jul 10, 2013 17:23:12 GMT -5
Hi! Newbie/lurker here. I've posted before but won't rehash. Feel free to read through my previous threads, but be warned that they are incredibly long.
DD and I have been on vacation for the last several days out of state. It's been nice to get away and see some family and friends. H and I have talked on and off since I left on Friday. The most productive conversations we've had have been via FB the last day or two. It's so weird because I'm the one who brought up our issues and he's the one who lied to me, and yet he's all "I can't be in a marriage with someone who's immature and can't face conflict." So.. You're trying to make me look like the bad guy for leaving? Anyway.
So, DD and I may be driving the 800 miles home tomorrow. We may not. Lol. I'm sort of anxious to get back home, but also anxious to BE home if that makes sense. Since I was laid off last week I haven't really been myself. So dealing with H and that and the drama with my sister has been utterly exhausting.
Sorry if I thread jacked! I mostly just wanted to say hi and re acclimate myself to posting and didn't see an actual randoms thread.
Post by starrieskies on Jul 10, 2013 17:34:24 GMT -5
HI sunshineray! I was wondering how you are doing!
Your H is a dick for trying to make you the bad guy in this! (of course, you know this already). He's going to try to use every tactic he can to make you feel like you're wrong and he's completely normal because it makes him feel more normal. My H does the same thing, and its maddening! Stay strong and stick to your guns, you're going to be just fine!
I am glad you are seperating yourself from all that craziness for a while. I am sorry to hear that you got laid off on top of all of this. Do what feels right for you and DD.
Post by sunshineray on Jul 10, 2013 17:41:39 GMT -5
Thanks starrieskies! I have been so focused on retaining the autonomy of my thoughts and memories that I feel like I've turned into this angry bitch. I don't hate the guy, so part of me feels bad that he's so confused by my behavior. I have kind of stayed away from here lately because shit changes on a day to day basis and I'd be blowing this place up if I posted every single time. He's gone back and forth saying he's the only one that cares about this marriage and that he's going to talk to a divorce attorney, to telling me he isn't going anywhere and loves me too much to leave. He seems to understand I have trust issues right now that aren't easily solved. I'm holding onto my anger because I feel like if I let that part go, then this will all get swept under the rug and we'll move on like nothing ever happened. I just don't know that he understands the seriousness of our situation, but I could be wrong.
He's agree to go to individual counseling, and I've agreed to go to marriage counseling. So, I guess we're both compromising in that regard. I have my first appointment next week when I get back, and I'm nervous. I feel like there are just so many separate issues right now that I'm just going to be a clusterfuck of emotions and ramblings. Kind of like here.. LOL.
Anyway, I'm doing ok. It varies from day to day and I tend to not post when I'm feeling shitty. I've been keeping to myself quite a bit and I think it's freaking H out. Oh well, one day at a time right? And to top it off, I visited with MIL and FIL today, and am getting ready to go visit BIL and FSIL. Ugh. I love them all, I really do, and I feel incredibly guilty for being here but considering leaving H. Sigh.
I am glad you are seperating yourself from all that craziness for a while. I am sorry to hear that you got laid off on top of all of this. Do what feels right for you and DD.
Thanks. I knew it was a very real possibility that I'd be laid off, since my department announced there would be a reduction in force over a month ago. Still, the reality of it has been harder than I thought. The phenomenal part about it though is that I'll still be receiving 100% of my salary through the first week of December, so I don't need to make any rash decisions in that part of my life. Thank god for small favors I guess.
Post by captainmel on Jul 10, 2013 17:47:17 GMT -5
Sunshine, your anger is your shield right now. You can feel other things later but right now your anger is there to protect you.
When manipulative people get desperate and realize they are losing control they'll say anything to stay in power. That's why he's swinging all around the place with what he's saying. He is trying everything until he gets a positive response from you.
Is he going to go to individual counseling too? You both should probably be in individual counseling and then have a seaperate marriage counselor.