Post by starrieskies on Aug 9, 2013 10:46:45 GMT -5
thanks you guys! I really appreciate it!
I'm not going to be on much today. I'm going to be in the truck driving around picking up donations for the charity event. But I will definitely keep you all up to date as much as I can!
Post by starrieskies on Aug 11, 2013 20:03:25 GMT -5
I'm so sorry you guys! It's been a whirlwind! I am all moved and semi unpacked. The room is habitable at least. I just got word that the guys just rolled into town, so probably another half hour at least before the shit hits the fan... I'm scared, and I kind of feel like it can't be real, I can't really be doing this. But so far, so good...
AND my one day charity event brought in over 4000.
I'm exhausted. I don't think I've gotten more than 4 hours of sleep in a week...
Post by captainmel on Aug 11, 2013 20:11:16 GMT -5
You are an amazing woman starrieskies. Don't let any shit he pulls get to you. You are so impressive. I will check in through out tonight if you need anything. You should also aim for a good night of sleep tonight. Maybe some meds or alcohol. You deserve it!
I'm so excited and proud of you. Prepare yourself in case he goes nuclear and prepare yourself in case you hear nothing but radio silence. The next few days will probably be the hardest as he realizes what's happening. Stay strong, you got this!
Post by starrieskies on Aug 11, 2013 22:44:51 GMT -5
He just texted me to let me know he's on his way home. He should be there soon. I'm nervous. I parked my car in the back yard so it wouldn't be visible from the road...
He just texted me to let me know he's on his way home. He should be there soon. I'm nervous. I parked my car in the back yard so it wouldn't be visible from the road...
He just texted me to let me know he's on his way home. He should be there soon. I'm nervous. I parked my car in the back yard so it wouldn't be visible from the road...
Deep breaths. You've got this.
Also, I know his anger has been out of control in the past. Don't hesitate to call the police if he comes to where you are and feels threatening to you in ANY way. He is a big fat manipulative jerk face and if he threatens you or DS or himself call them.
Still nothing. Part of me kind of wants him to call or text so I know if I need to be afraid... the silence is almost worse than yelling right now.
Silence either means he's decided to go out drinking to be more of a jerk or he just knew this was coming because he's a jerk. Hugs. You are so strong.
Post by starrieskies on Aug 11, 2013 23:24:37 GMT -5
He says he was blind sighted... he says that he realized on the camping trip how lucky he is. He's in let's fix it mode. Now he wants to go to counseling... he wants to know what he can do to make it right... I told him that he's said that before and it never changed a thing.
He saysjust he was blind sighted... he says that he realized on the camping trip how lucky he is. He's in let's fix it mode. Now he wants to go to counseling... he wants to know what he can do to make it right... I told him that he's said that before and it never changed a thing.
Stay strong Starries. Your reply is totally accurate. Maybe he will change, he probably won't but either way, it will take time.
He says he was blind sighted... he says that he realized on the camping trip how lucky he is. He's in let's fix it mode. Now he wants to go to counseling... he wants to know what he can do to make it right... I told him that he's said that before and it never changed a thing.
He realized on the camping trip how lucky he is because you let him go without any fuss or protest. Because you needed him to go so you could finally get out. He wants to fix it because he wants you there, easy to control. You know the cycle of relationship violence (even the non-physical kind).
You are doing the right thing for yourself and your son. Truly, you are. I'm so proud of you, we all are.
Post by starrieskies on Aug 12, 2013 0:26:43 GMT -5
Yes, this is the I will fix it, tell me what to do phase. I believe the you're the biggest bitch on the planet is next. He just said he's going to bed. Maybe I'll get some sleep tonight. I'll talk to you guys tomorrow! Thanks again for everything!