I know it's only 9 am, but...

[starrieskies]

is it too early to start drinking?? 

I'm going to have a melt down....

My boss is pissed off at me because he thought the service calls I rescheduled for today were on the schedule for Monday (they're on his calendar). Boss is at the first service call and the customer isn't there, he wants to know why...  I have no friggin clue.  

I dropped the ball on getting a tire repaired on a piece of equipment yesterday, and they apparently needed it today. 

My PITA service tech quit without notice last week, and we haven't found a replacement.  Customers are calling with questions about his work and I have no answers...  More customers are calling wanting work done, but I have no one to do it...

STBX is picking up DS tonight to spend the weekend with him.  that in itself is enough to make me crazy.

I haven't slept more than 3 hours in a week.

AND... to top it all off, my nephew's dog bit DS this morning.  His dad is going to be pissed and will probably blame it on me... (he's fine, just a small cut above his eye and thinks he's super cool because he has a little circle bandaid on it)

FUCK!!!!!!!

[partiallysunny]

Tonight, this is your schedule:

Dinner
Wine
Book/TV
Bed

Nothing else.

[fussbucket]

If it were too early to be drinking why would there exist any such thing as a mimosa?

[captainmel]

Irish coffee time!

I also won't hide my love for the occasional breakfast gin. This is only acceptable during times of emotional destress. Which means it will be suitable for right now.

Maybe STBXtaking DS will be a blessing in disguise.you'll get some much needed alone time.

[starrieskies]

LOL fuss! I don't think a mimosa's gonna cut it... A pitcher maybe?

I'm thinking about maybe spending tonight unpacking (with a bottle of wine) and then maybe just taking off tomorrow and going to the beach or something... Just a change of scenery would be so nice... But I won't be close if something happens with DS, so I probably won't.

[Muddled]

Aug 16, 2013 11:25:11 GMT -5 fussbucket said:

If it were too early to be drinking why would there exist any such thing as a mimosa?

Or a bloody mary. They come with snacks!

[Muddled]

I know this weekend is going to be super tough for you, but I do hope that you are able to spend some of it doing things for you. This is the huge benefit of coparenting. You have automatic you time. Use it!

[starrieskies]

I've felt so good all week (except for Monday) but I feel like I've take a huge step backwards emotionally today. I suck at being an adult... I just want to take my ball and go home (to my parents home, of course).

[captainmel]

Days like this are inevitable.
Hugs.

[Deleted]

Take some deep breaths Starries, you don't suck as an adult!

Think of it this way- ANYONE going through this would be struggling with feeling strong, or being scared, or mad or whatever. Totally normal feelings for the situation. The key is to name them, recognize them for what they are and pick yourself up and keep going.

(This is much easier said than done, but my therapist assures me it does help )

[Muddled]

This is a down day, Starries. Tomorrow will be better.

Just think, out of 5 days this week, more than half were up days.

(((starries)))

[Muddled]

Aug 16, 2013 12:04:59 GMT -5 calamity said:

Take some deep breaths Starries, you don't suck as an adult!

Think of it this way- ANYONE going through this would be struggling with feeling strong, or being scared, or mad or whatever. Totally normal feelings for the situation. The key is to name them, recognize them for what they are and pick yourself up and keep going.

(This is much easier said than done, but my therapist assures me it does help )

You get hugs too.

(((calamity)))

[starrieskies]

thanks everyone. I know there are going to be days like this, I guess I just didn't expect such a dramatic mood swing today. There will be good days and bad, and I'm sure the good days will outweigh the rest. I just have to get through today.

On one hand, I wish I had more time to really process all of the emotions, but I'm also thankful for the craziness at work... At least at work, I can slip into "autopilot" and just focus on that instead of everything else. I'll probably spend some time in the office this weekend too. Since I'll have the time, I should take the opportunity to re-organize here too. It'll make next week easier. I really wish I'd been able to take time off though.

On the plus side, STBX hasn't called or texted yet today, so that's been a nice break.

[jojoandleo]

Trust me-NO ONE feels like they are good at being an adult. This shit is tough! You are allowed to feel upset and unsettled and like you want to drink. Punch your boss in the face, kick your STBX in the balls, and pour yourself a bloody mary, hold the bloody.

[Deleted]

You're doing great, I know right now it's hard, but you will get through this. And until then, we'll just continue to keep telling you how awesome you are.

[captainmel]

You're strong and wonderful.

[Deleted]

Also, get some sleep this weekend. It really will help with emotional clarity. Make healing and taking care of YOU a priority!

[starrieskies]

 I never thought I would say this, but I kind of wish I'd brought my running shoes to work... I'll bet a run would do wonders for my debbie downer attitude.  

Maybe I'll do that tonight.

[neonpink]

You are doing great! You are allowed to have good/bad days. I think you should make Sangria! Wine and fruit in one container it's perfect.

Enjoy making your new space your own. Watch terrible trashy tv and relax.