Anyone else discouraged?

[enfuego23]

Ugh...my vents are endless right now:( 

I'm feeling super lack luster about running this week. Going back to work forces me to change from morning runs to afternoon/evening runs. I hit my peak mileage for training for my 2 Fall half marathons last week and this week I feel zero motivation to run in the hot and humid weather. I'm proud of myself for pushing myself to get to 16 mile long runs but the runger is annoying. I'm not nursing an injury so I feel stupid complaining about my running. 

I know I should lift and strength train more but I have zero motivation for that too. 

This is not like me - I'm usually ready to get my run on as soon as school lets out:( My weight has been stable for years and now when ever I train for a race it goes up:( 

I have consistently been up 2-4 pounds through this training cycle - I KNOW that doesn't sound like much but I'm small and it aggravates me. I ate more calories, I ate less calories, I changed up my workouts and increased and decreased mileage but I can't get back down to my racing weight:( I got a complete physical, I met with a nutritionist, I make sure to fuel my runs properly and I switched to MFP to better track my calories but nothing has changed.  

I'm a whiny mcwhiney butt tonight:( Anyone else as whiny as me? Misery loves company. 

[SuziSaysDa]

I am sorry to hear about your struggles. I went through a similar phase earlier this year - I took 6 weeks off from everything - seriously, I was a slug and logged zero miles in the month of June - a first for my nike+.

I came back in July stronger than ever and have been going full speed ever since, its like I renewed my love for training. I did gain a little weight from my hiatus, but working it off has become fun again.

I hope you find your cure soon, I know it sucks to feel like this.

[msturtle143]

I'll join you. I was so pumped to run more after my first race last Saturday but I am feeling a little depressed that fall is near here in Seattle. Thinking about how gloomy it gets here and how short the days will be is enough to make me depressed. Ugh!

I know what you mean about the 2lbs making a difference too though. I am also pretty small and when I'm up 2lbs, I can definitely tell.

Hope you feel better. I usually get like that around my period. It sucks.

[chitownbelle]

My back is fucked. My marathon training is fucked. I am in the grumpy cat club. I wanted to run outside today, but it was 97 degrees and I felt too fat to go to the gym at rush hour. yes. I feel like a fat ass recently and I hate it. I am up 5-7 pounds since last fall and I too hate it.

my back has been okay the last few days, so i did an On Demand workout video before i planned to run. One burpee in and i strained my back again. i got through the workout and avoided the burpees or anything that strained my back, and then i took a hot bath in salts. and now i feel sorry for myself.

i will attempt my scheduled 6 miler tomorrow. really disappointed.


you aren't alone.

[clseale]

I think I've whined enough recently for you guys to know that I'm sitting on this bench with you. Just assume I'm ditto-ing every gripe you have.

chitownbelle, I was thinking about you & your back the other day. I was going to page you & ask how you were feeling. I'm sorry. Look for me in corral C. I'll be the other annoyed, grumpy person, bitching & whining for 26.2 miles.  

[taratru]

Your post is my life right now - the lifting, the heat, the school, all of it. AND, when I do go run, I am so. fucking. slow. Some days I am convinced that I will be fine if I am patient, but most days I can't help but think that a BQ is truly not in my near future.

Add this fucking Achilles into the mix...ugh. It's hard to look forward to running when I know it's going to hurt so much afterwards.

And I continuously engage in self-destructive behavior - drinking during the week, eating cookies at school all day, not going to lift. Stupid stupid stupid.

So, *hugs*

eta: ALSO. All my awesome size 4 clothes I was so proud to buy don't really fit anymore.  So yeah. 

[enfuego23]

Aug 27, 2013 20:30:48 GMT -5 chitownbelle said:

My back is fucked. My marathon training is fucked. I am in the grumpy cat club. I wanted to run outside today, but it was 97 degrees and I felt too fat to go to the gym at rush hour. yes. I feel like a fat ass recently and I hate it. I am up 5-7 pounds since last fall and I too hate it.

my back has been okay the last few days, so i did an On Demand workout video before i planned to run. One burpee in and i strained my back again. i got through the workout and avoided the burpees or anything that strained my back, and then i took a hot bath in salts. and now i feel sorry for myself.

i will attempt my scheduled 6 miler tomorrow. really disappointed.


you aren't alone.

Thanks:) It helps to know I'm not alone in my frustrations. What happened to your back? 

[enfuego23]

Aug 27, 2013 20:59:08 GMT -5 taratru said:

Your post is my life right now - the lifting, the heat, the school, all of it. AND, when I do go run, I am so. fucking. slow. Some days I am convinced that I will be fine if I am patient, but most days I can't help but think that a BQ is truly not in my near future.

Add this fucking Achilles into the mix...ugh. It's hard to look forward to running when I know it's going to hurt so much afterwards.

And I continuously engage in self-destructive behavior - drinking during the week, eating cookies at school all day, not going to lift. Stupid stupid stupid.

So, *hugs*

eta: ALSO. All my awesome size 4 clothes I was so proud to buy don't really fit anymore.  So yeah. 

I feel you. My dress pants felt tight today and that made me so flucking mad:( 

We will get through this, it just sucks so much right now - thanks for the hugs:) 

[Deleted]

Yes, sometimes I feel like I will always be injured. Plus, the weight gain just adds to the frustration. Plus it's time for my period so I'm all "woe is me."

However, I do feel more encouraged than I was earlier this year and the one thing I did that made me feel so much better about myself was to keep a monthly calendar and mark the days I did cardio and mark the days I ate no sweets. I stretch or do PT everyday so I just decided cardio would be the big goal. When I get discouraged, I just look at that and see what all I did. The no sweets thing lasted 2 weeks before I decided to treat myself. I'm planning on starting it back up tomorrow. It doesn't feel as horrible now and strangely, I'm looking forward to it.

[sadlebred]

I am tired of dealing with my knee! Cyclcross racing starts in 5 weeks! I have 5 weeks to get this thing healed!

[libbygrl109]

Can I join? After a pretty craptastic week 2 weeks ago when I barely had the energy to get out of bed, let alone run, I finally had a great week last week leading up to my long run yesterday (traveling screwed up my week). No pain or tightness in my right calf (yay progress!), but my left IT band decided to go ape on me to the point where I felt like a 90 year old woman when I finished. Not what I need 6 weeks out from my half. It's starting to loosen up after 2 days of stretching and Epsom salts baths, but I'm just scared.

[clseale]

Hang in there, enfuego23. I'm sure it will take a bit to adjust back to your school schedule. Also, if you just hit peak mileage, that means this is taper, right? Everyone is grumpy & sluggish during the wind down. When are your races? 

[enfuego23]

Aug 27, 2013 21:12:27 GMT -5 clseale said:

Hang in there, enfuego23. I'm sure it will take a bit to adjust back to your school schedule. Also, if you just hit peak mileage, that means this is taper, right? Everyone is grumpy & sluggish during the wind down. When are your races? 

I just hit peak mileage for my long runs. I kind of made up my own training plan with long runs that peaked at 16 miles. I now plan to do long runs anywhere from 10 - 15 miles until my first half which is in October. Second one is in November.

I run with a group that is training for the Columbus Marathon and they have trained up to 16 so far and I just kept up with them. Next week is 12. 

[clseale]

Aug 28, 2013 6:26:13 GMT -5 enfuego23 said:

Aug 27, 2013 21:12:27 GMT -5 clseale said:

Hang in there, enfuego23. I'm sure it will take a bit to adjust back to your school schedule. Also, if you just hit peak mileage, that means this is taper, right? Everyone is grumpy & sluggish during the wind down. When are your races? 

I just hit peak mileage for my long runs. I kind of made up my own training plan with long runs that peaked at 16 miles. I now plan to do long runs anywhere from 10 - 15 miles until my first half which is in October. Second one is in November.

I run with a group that is training for the Columbus Marathon and they have trained up to 16 so far and I just kept up with them. Next week is 12. 

Ok, so you still have a bit of training. In that case, just come here & whine to us as needed until you feel better. We've all had our share of frustrated, feeling sorry for ourself moments. 

[shauni27]

I am sorry that you are all feeling so discouraged with your workouts and in general :/ That is one of the pluses of NOT training for anything right now--any workout is a good workout, and I am really enjoying them all.

But I do feel discouraged and stressed about other things--my GERD is out of control. My endoscopy showed that my stomach is coming up into my esophagus, and this week it is brutal. Meet with the surgeon tomorrow to discuss options, I just want it to stop.

On top of that, we close on our first house next week. Money is SO tight while we scrape together all that we can to cover costs. It is overwhelming and scary and stressful. And my largest project of the year for work is in 1.5 weeks. The stress of both of these things I am SURE is contributing to the reflux being awful.

And the water at our current house is all fucked, so I have had to shower elsewhere this week after working out. Last night at the gym I sobbed in the shower I was feeling so overwhelmed, stressed, annoyed, and pained by the GERD.

End vent.

[tuggyruns]

Oh,I want to join!

I'm doing everything right with rolling/icing/resting my leg, but I still get these odd pains. Also, like @taratu all of my size 4 clothes I was so proud to buy, no longer fit- not even close. Good thing I didn't give ALL of my fatty clothes away.

[enfuego23]

Aug 28, 2013 7:32:08 GMT -5 shauni27 said:

I am sorry that you are all feeling so discouraged with your workouts and in general :/ That is one of the pluses of NOT training for anything right now--any workout is a good workout, and I am really enjoying them all.

But I do feel discouraged and stressed about other things--my GERD is out of control. My endoscopy showed that my stomach is coming up into my esophagus, and this week it is brutal. Meet with the surgeon tomorrow to discuss options, I just want it to stop.

On top of that, we close on our first house next week. Money is SO tight while we scrape together all that we can to cover costs. It is overwhelming and scary and stressful. And my largest project of the year for work is in 1.5 weeks. The stress of both of these things I am SURE is contributing to the reflux being awful.

And the water at our current house is all fucked, so I have had to shower elsewhere this week after working out. Last night at the gym I sobbed in the shower I was feeling so overwhelmed, stressed, annoyed, and pained by the GERD.

End vent.

I couldn't imagine dealing with GERD, that must be so painful:( I have had my share of teary shower cries. I hate showering at the gym so you have my condolences there too. 

[Brit]

shauni27 - I totally hear you on the moving bit. I'm more stressed about selling our house right now, but I hear you on the moving is stressful thing. We just put our house on the market yesterday and I have already gotten feedback about how much my house sucks and just how little it is worth. It is just depressing. I'm terrified that we will move and then not be able to sell our house in IN or have to take a big loss on it. Ugh. Suck. We are also hemmoraging cash doing all of the small projects that we have been avoiding for the past five years.

I'm also supposed to be leaving for two weeks and I feel bad for DD because she won't understand why I'm gone. She gets so bummed out when H travels.

I've had some halfway decent runs lately, but they have been relatively short, so I am bummed out about my overall decline in mileage. I have also had trouble making it to yoga because of meetings for work. I desperately need to go to yoga right now.

enfuego23 - Do you think your body might be under stress? Like from workouts, work, personal 'things' going on, etc.? I tend to hang onto those last few pounds when I have too much physical or emotional stress.

[zoidberg]

I'll join. After finally getting that anemia under control and being able to get back to working out (and feeling good while doing it), the hip bursitis that troubled me this spring is back. I was supposed to do a half on September 15th, but I don't know how I will manage that now. I'm pretty bummed. I keep thinking that SOMEHOW I will still be able to do it, but I know that even if I do it will be a total mess and probably just make me feel worse.

[enfuego23]

Aug 28, 2013 8:03:02 GMT -5 Brit said:

shauni27 - I totally hear you on the moving bit. I'm more stressed about selling our house right now, but I hear you on the moving is stressful thing. We just put our house on the market yesterday and I have already gotten feedback about how much my house sucks and just how little it is worth. It is just depressing. I'm terrified that we will move and then not be able to sell our house in IN or have to take a big loss on it. Ugh. Suck. We are also hemmoraging cash doing all of the small projects that we have been avoiding for the past five years.

I'm also supposed to be leaving for two weeks and I feel bad for DD because she won't understand why I'm gone. She gets so bummed out when H travels.

I've had some halfway decent runs lately, but they have been relatively short, so I am bummed out about my overall decline in mileage. I have also had trouble making it to yoga because of meetings for work. I desperately need to go to yoga right now.

enfuego23 - Do you think your body might be under stress? Like from workouts, work, personal 'things' going on, etc.? I tend to hang onto those last few pounds when I have too much physical or emotional stress.

My nutritionist has said that I may be putting too much stress on my adrenals so you may be right. 

We are also selling our condo and house hunting. We found a great house but it's the best house on the street and that is usually a house buying no-no. We want to stay downtown and this is the only new construction in this area. We have not put our condo on the market yet but our Realtor emailed me yesterday and asked if she could show it tonight - I freaked out and spent a majority of my day cleaning and will do the same today. So, yes, stress is a large part of my life right now too:( 

Hope you find a buyer soon for your home and good luck with you move! so envious:) 

[shauni27]

Aug 28, 2013 8:03:02 GMT -5 Brit said:

shauni27 - I totally hear you on the moving bit. I'm more stressed about selling our house right now, but I hear you on the moving is stressful thing. We just put our house on the market yesterday and I have already gotten feedback about how much my house sucks and just how little it is worth. It is just depressing. I'm terrified that we will move and then not be able to sell our house in IN or have to take a big loss on it. Ugh. Suck. We are also hemmoraging cash doing all of the small projects that we have been avoiding for the past five years.

That is so stressful, Brit!  I am not sure what the market is like in IN, but my fingers are crossed for you that the house sells well and quickly for you guys.  I feel like we will be hemorrhaging cash too, but for the move.  The new house is just that--new, but we are going to paint and buy furniture, since we have none, so I think there will be a lot of stupid costs up front.  Scary as shit.  Hugs.

[lb2006]

Mine are all FWP: working two jobs, managing two homes yard work, etc (rental & own house), handling two energetic dogs, training for a marathon, 2nd month in a huge renovation and my H is gone for two weeks. Found out last night our architect MAY have made a major mistake ($12-$15k) and that was the icing on the cake.

I am in peak weeks for training and am just.tired.....

[Deleted]

Hang in there everybody. It's good to know we're all not alone. i have been calling it in on spin classes lately, and running?? what's that?!? The back to school/wedding season getting busier/DH's health issues has been a hard transition. I have a 7 mile run I am dreading tomorrow.

[runaways]

I'm feeling pretty wiped out too. I'm getting ready to start applying/interviewing for residency and there are ENDLESS details, I'm taking the next part of my licensing exam (9hrs in front of a computer) in a few weeks, training for the marathon(s) in this stupid miserable heat, etc. etc. Basically many things that I could have avoided or scheduled differently, so I always feel bad complaining, but god I'm exhausted!

[ebeth]

I've def suffered from a bad attitude lately. yeah I'm trending a little slow and a little heavy, but you know what? I'm not injured. and so today, I resolve to quit being a whiny asshole and knock out my first 2/day in years (4 mi this AM, 7 mi with 5x1000 tonight)without complaint. because really, the only thing worse than 5x1000@5K pace is not being able to run at all.

[lb2006]

Aug 28, 2013 9:50:04 GMT -5 ebeth said:

I've def suffered from a bad attitude lately. yeah I'm trending a little slow and a little heavy, but you know what? I'm not injured. and so today, I resolve to quit being a whiny asshole and knock out my first 2/day in years (4 mi this AM, 7 mi with 5x1000 tonight)without complaint. because really, the only thing worse than 5x1000@5K pace is not being able to run at all.

AMEN!

[mrsjthompson]

I feel for everybody who's moving/house hunting right now. DH and I moved 18 months ago, and now my office is moving. It is pure hell.

I'm still not really losing weight and my nutritionist can't tell me why. I have an appointment with her today and am not looking forward to 20 minutes staring at her while she tells me to just stick with it.

I have shin splints and a 5K race Saturday. 5K might not sound like much, but its a pretty big deal for me and I was hoping to get a PR, mostly to help boost my confidence with my HM training. Now I'm just hoping I can make it through Saturday and actually finish HM training.

[emuni04]

I'll play

I feel like I'm in such a rut (although I'm trying to snap out of it by registering for a few 10K's/HM's on the horizon). It's just so damn hard balancing work FT and raising L....and attempting to be somewhat of a caring wife. The only time I really have to work out are my lunch hours and the past few weeks it has torentially downpoured every.freaking.afternoon so I can't get my runs in (I have to go back to work, so I can't get all soaking wet). And my H has been working a ton and hunting season is on the horizon, so my weekend workouts will always have to be stroller runs. While I love running with L, I just want some time to get a long run in by myself!

Plus, I live in a town with nothing to do except go out to eat on the weekends, and I am so desperate to get out of the house with L that we pretty much eat out for lunch at least once. And I live in a town with zero healthy options, so I get so frustrated while ordering off the menu and trying to be healthy.

I know these aren't real "problems". I like this thread-it sounds like a lot of us are feeling the same way

[Brit]

emuni04 - Find a steady babysitter during hunting season. When H is OOT on the weekends I try to always have a babysitter lined up for a few hours on Saturday morning so that I can go run solo.

[bluedaisyus]

Yes. I'm frustrated that I can barely run over a mile without stopping even after almost completing an entire session with your running group's baby sister, enfuego23, and while I'm sure that a good part of it is mental I just can't break through even though I keep plugging away. I'm slow as hell and will be lucky to finish my 5k this weekend near 45min, even if I manage to "run" half of it. I hate this heat and humidity. I've been doing a 30-day challenge with my wife (one that taratru posted about before), but so far that's about the only "strength" training I've been able to add with my schedule, tons of OT during the week thanks to school coming back in session, my wife working lots of OT on the weekends, a 3.5yo, and the running. Which all just feels like a bunch of whiny excuses. Sigh.