I'm Calling a Do Over

[partiallysunny]

Fuck today.

I forgot the cardigan I'm wearing needed to be washed because I got a little something on it the last time I wore it (I usually wash them every other wear). I hate feeling dirty!

I was five minutes late today. I hate being late.

I ran out of dish detergent (my husband forgot to mention he used the last of it even though he knew I was going to the store yesterday). I have a sink full of dirty dishes. I hate that too!

I have a sore throat and I think I'm getting sick. The kid isn't feeling well either. My husband has been sick. I hate being sick. I hate when my kid is sick. I hate when my husband is whiney.

I hate everything today.

I did order a new pair of shoes yesterday.

[ECB]

I forgot to put deodorant on this morning. Luckily I always keep some at work, but I hardly ever use it- when Ipulled it out, I could tell it was OLD. need to replace.

[bullygirl979]

I'm with you PS.

I was 30 minutes late to work today.

I am beyond stressed about what to do regarding my work situation.

I'm pretty sure that I gained a few pounds from all the stress eating I've done in the last 2 weeks.

[partiallysunny]

Sept 17, 2013 7:45:03 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

I'm with you PS.

I was 30 minutes late to work today.

I am beyond stressed about what to do regarding my work situation.

I'm pretty sure that I gained a few pounds from all the stress eating I've done in the last 2 weeks.

What's wrong with your work situation, bully?

[bullygirl979]

Sept 17, 2013 7:51:12 GMT -5 partiallysunny said:

Sept 17, 2013 7:45:03 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

I'm with you PS.

I was 30 minutes late to work today.

I am beyond stressed about what to do regarding my work situation.

I'm pretty sure that I gained a few pounds from all the stress eating I've done in the last 2 weeks.

What's wrong with your work situation, bully?

My company (and 4 others) have a contract with NYS for a 6 year long project with each phase being 2 years long. Phase one will end 12/31 but the state decided they aren't starting phase two until 2015. Soooo....as of 12/31 we are all out of jobs.

I decided that I want to stay with my company and am not interested in getting another job locally. So I have 2 options: 1) wait it out to see if my company can pick up another contract (which they are working on). The downside to this is the contracts they seem to be working on getting appear smaller than what we currently have. I am not sure if there would be enough work to keep everyone on. Or 2) relocate to another state. My BF is on board with this but he needs about 6 months to get everything in order before he can move. As of right now there are 2 positions in Austin, TX (which is our first choice of relocation areas).

I'm torn because I don't know if I should actively pursue a job in Austin (which means BF and I would be separated for about 6 months and I could miss out on an opportunity here if it arises) or wait it out with my department here (but potentially be out of a job as of 12/31 and be forced to relocate to somewhere I really don't want to be).

 

[Chirp]

Ew. I also hate being/feeling dirty and I hate being late. Sorry your day sucks so far, PS.

Hopefully the cold you guys seem to be getting is a fast moving one.


::makes mental note to buy new work deoderant:: Thanks for the reminder ECB. Mine needs replaced too.

[partiallysunny]

Sept 17, 2013 7:58:27 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

Sept 17, 2013 7:51:12 GMT -5 partiallysunny said:

What's wrong with your work situation, bully?

My company (and 4 others) have a contract with NYS for a 6 year long project with each phase being 2 years long. Phase one will end 12/31 but the state decided they aren't starting phase two until 2015. Soooo....as of 12/31 we are all out of jobs.

I decided that I want to stay with my company and am not interested in getting another job locally. So I have 2 options: 1) wait it out to see if my company can pick up another contract (which they are working on). The downside to this is the contracts they seem to be working on getting appear smaller than what we currently have. I doubt there would be enough work to keep everyone on. Or 2) relocate to another state. My BF is on board with this but he needs about 6 months to get everything in order before he can move. As of right now there are 2 positions in Austin, TX (which is our first choice of relocation areas).

I'm torn because I don't know if I should actively pursue a job in Austin (which means BF and I would be separated for about 6 months and I could miss out on an opportunity here if it arises) or wait it out with my department here (but potentially be out of a job as of 12/31 and be forced to relocate to somewhere I really don't want to be).

 

That's rough.

I'm a fan of stability and control. I'd probably go for the Austin jobs and not wait it out.

Why not just apply for the Austin jobs and see what happens?

[tiramisu]

Bully, that really sucks, I'm sorry. I think I'd probably be pursuing all options in that situation and then making my decision.

partiallysunny, it does sound like you need a do-over. Coffee? We can slip something extra in...

[bullygirl979]

Sept 17, 2013 8:05:35 GMT -5 partiallysunny said:

Sept 17, 2013 7:58:27 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

My company (and 4 others) have a contract with NYS for a 6 year long project with each phase being 2 years long. Phase one will end 12/31 but the state decided they aren't starting phase two until 2015. Soooo....as of 12/31 we are all out of jobs.

I decided that I want to stay with my company and am not interested in getting another job locally. So I have 2 options: 1) wait it out to see if my company can pick up another contract (which they are working on). The downside to this is the contracts they seem to be working on getting appear smaller than what we currently have. I doubt there would be enough work to keep everyone on. Or 2) relocate to another state. My BF is on board with this but he needs about 6 months to get everything in order before he can move. As of right now there are 2 positions in Austin, TX (which is our first choice of relocation areas).

I'm torn because I don't know if I should actively pursue a job in Austin (which means BF and I would be separated for about 6 months and I could miss out on an opportunity here if it arises) or wait it out with my department here (but potentially be out of a job as of 12/31 and be forced to relocate to somewhere I really don't want to be).

 

That's rough.

I'm a fan of stability and control. I'd probably go for the Austin jobs and not wait it out.

Why not just apply for the Austin jobs and see what happens?

I emailed the clinical manager in Austin to try and get a feel for the department, contract, etc. I'm waiting the to hear back from him.

[partiallysunny]

Sept 17, 2013 8:53:42 GMT -5 bullygirl979 said:

Sept 17, 2013 8:05:35 GMT -5 partiallysunny said:

That's rough.

I'm a fan of stability and control. I'd probably go for the Austin jobs and not wait it out.

Why not just apply for the Austin jobs and see what happens?

I emailed the clinical manager in Austin to try and get a feel for the department, contract, etc. I'm waiting the to hear back from him.

Good luck! Hopefully you get an ideas of what the place is like. I'm hoping you fall in love with it, so this decision is easier for you.

[gault]

bullygirl979, I'm crossing my fingers that the manager gives you a call today. Once you hear more concrete details, I think the choosing will be a lot easier.

Of course, I'd love it if you'd contact the peeps in MN as well.... no pressure...

[bullygirl979]

Sept 17, 2013 9:57:34 GMT -5 gault said:

bullygirl979, I'm crossing my fingers that the manager gives you a call today. Once you hear more concrete details, I think the choosing will be a lot easier.

Of course, I'd love it if you'd contact the peeps in MN as well.... no pressure...

Ha! I think MN is definitely my second choice. Boston seems too expensive and it doesn't seem like they would do a good COL salary increase. So there is still a chance

I actually sat down with my manager today and tried to pin her down in terms of the probably of openings here. There is other stuff in the works that she hasn't talked about too much with the staff and she said that she is hopeful that we could keep all the staff. So I'm feeling more hopeful about possibly getting something here. However, I plan on talking to P more tonight about what he wants to do. I guess I'm afraid of getting stuck relocating somewhere that I don't want to be in case something doesn't pan out.

[starrieskies]

Bully, that sounds so incredibly stressful! I hope you get some good information soon that makes your decision easier!

PS, I'm so sorry you're having a bad day!! I hate days like that.

I'm so tired today, I almost called in sick. I'm glad I didn't but, I really have no brain power to be here today. I think I got about 3 hours of sleep total last night, and what sleep I did get was plagued by nightmares... This gets better, right?

[cuddlyevil]

It'll get better Starries! If ti counts for anything, I'm super proud of you

{{HUG}}

[bullygirl979]

Sept 17, 2013 10:24:56 GMT -5 starrieskies said:

Bully, that sounds so incredibly stressful! I hope you get some good information soon that makes your decision easier!

PS, I'm so sorry you're having a bad day!! I hate days like that.

I'm so tired today, I almost called in sick. I'm glad I didn't but, I really have no brain power to be here today. I think I got about 3 hours of sleep total last night, and what sleep I did get was plagued by nightmares... This gets better, right?

It sure does. The beginning is the worst but as time passes, you will notice it gets easier and easier. It is a rollercoaster. I'd feel great for 2 weeks then one day I would be so incredibly sad. Hugs!

[starrieskies]

I suppose I could probably clarify by saying that I finally had "the talk" with stbx last night. I felt relieved when it was over, a little bit sad, but mostly relieved. But last night my mind just wouldn't turn off, and kept going over the things he said... I finally got up and went to the kitchen for a glass of water and wrote in my journal for about an hour. That helped, but I still didn't sleep well after that.

[partiallysunny]

Sept 17, 2013 10:42:24 GMT -5 starrieskies said:

I suppose I could probably clarify by saying that I finally had "the talk" with stbx last night. I felt relieved when it was over, a little bit sad, but mostly relieved. But last night my mind just wouldn't turn off, and kept going over the things he said... I finally got up and went to the kitchen for a glass of water and wrote in my journal for about an hour. That helped, but I still didn't sleep well after that.

::hugs::

I have a journal, as well. I don't write in it much, but on those nights I can't turn off my brain, it really helps.

How did he take it?

[starrieskies]

Ok, I suppose. He said he wanted to get in his car and drive to my parents house to talk in person (I did it on the phone), and I told him it wouldn't change anything. He called me a quitter, told me that I am taking away DS's chance to ever have a place to call "home", and wanted to know if I am going to make him look bad in court...

After I said my piece, he did most of the talking and I just said things like "I'm sorry you feel that way" and "I've made my decision" over and over and over again.

[margarita]

FWIW, it sounds like you handled it really well, Starries. But I'm sorry he's still trying to manipulate you like that.

[partiallysunny]

I'm really, really, really proud of you, starries. You handled the situation with grace.

[tiramisu]

((((((starrieskies))))))

We're all so proud of you. And you handled his manipulative assholishness well, it sounds like. Good for you!

[captainmel]

Starries, you are amazing. Seriously. I am sorry you're not sleeping well but it totally will get better. Hugs.

Bullygirl, that work situation sounds sucky. I would probably aim for the stability and try and relocate.

PS, you should just go to Target and buy a new cardigan. It basically counts as a do over.

My allergies are driving me crazy and I don't know how to fix them. I already take a bunch of perscription stuff for them.

[captainmel]

River stole a bunch of halibut that was defrosting in my kitchen. He ate it on top of my $150 textbooks and now they smell like rotten fish. Does anyone want him?