So tired of not sleeping

[tdk2]

How are the other board insomniacs? I hope some of you are asleep or dozing enough to not post.

I'm going to get off phone again soon and try to sleep. Board doesn't seem as active tonight so I'm hoping some of you are out.

Trying to decide if I should get up and work on stuff but I feel like I need to be at least horizontal for a chance at sleep and its going to be another longass day. Dh has more night meetings.

Kid seems to be taking advantage of how slow I've become and is testing her limits and wants to runnnnnnn. She also totally skipped nap today on her own. I left her in crib and when I got her out after some time alllllll of her things were on the floor. I asked her what happened and she explained that everyone jumped and proceeded to show me. It was cute but she was so damn loud btwn singing, calling for mommy, jumping and making scary bed sounds like she was escaping that I couldn't get a 10 min nap in either.

Dh has ended up w out of town meetings pretty much every night this week.

I just sent him a long ass email basically talking about adjustments I need for last week pre-baby. He's working so hard and pulled a million ways and trying to get some of it done Before baby but I need him around more next week. I'm too tired. I spelled it out.


Anyway. I know, venting. But middle of the night wakefulness blows as you all know. I really hope some of you are sleeping. I worry about you guys and how little you sleep!

[tdk2]

Damn Bon. I hoped you were asleep.

[bonquiqui]

Im sorry you cant sleep and it sounds like you have a lit going on, which can't be helping.

[bonquiqui]

Oct 3, 2013 3:52:55 GMT -5 tdk2 said:

Damn Bon. I hoped you were asleep.

Haha i gave it a huge amount if effort. I got in bed around 1, and here i lay 3 hours later. I have not slept a wink. Lol

You are right, it has been quiet. Hopefully that means others are asleep

[bonquiqui]

I cant imagine how hard it is to have to parent on your own, and handle everything while he is gone. Will his traveling slow down soon?

[tdk2]

Oct 3, 2013 3:57:37 GMT -5 bonquiqui said:

Im sorry you cant sleep and it sounds like you have a lit going on, which can't be helping.

I'm often an insomniac when not pg. but I get worse during pg after first tri. I barely slept at all last pg. Dh brought it up to ob last time who told me some pills to take because said the not sleeping was worse stress on kid than pills. (Unisom, mild stuff but worked) I still had to have Dh talk me into taking them. I pass out soundly at first and then wide awake a few hours later. I told him in that email that I also need a reminder or encouragement to take some again. I hate to do it and then don't remember til I'm lying here wide awake but too late to take them because I have to be on the go in a few hours.

What are your work hours like? Do you work random hours? What do you do, by the way. I feel weird asking because I feel like I should know but I have been wondering for awhile.

[bonquiqui]

Yeah, I'm so leery of taking pills, but i am at a point where i need something. Do they give you crazy dreams??

I was laid off in April, and i decided to just take some time off to sort things out and adjust with all of my life changes.

I was having tons of MS nausea and vertigo, and in the past my dr had mentioned that taking a break would be beneficial. I decided to take some time off and figure out what i want to do with my life.

Now i am no closer to a decision, but i seem to spend lots of time here. Lol. I will be starting school and or work after the beginning of the year

[AHappierHour]

I'm here wide awake because if my dumb allergies. I got up pee and now I'm sneezing and can't go back to bed.

[ginger]

SUCKS!

I just started taking Vyvance (ADD meds) and some nights are worse than others. I need to try Unisom.

It's just annoying to fix one problem and create another.

Hope you can get back to sleep soon.

[bonquiqui]

Oct 3, 2013 4:16:02 GMT -5 AHappierHour said:

I'm here wide awake because if my dumb allergies. I got up pee and now I'm sneezing and can't go back to bed.

Ugh im sorry. It's that time of year again. I need to find my zyrtec lol

[tdk2]

Oct 3, 2013 4:00:42 GMT -5 bonquiqui said:

I cant imagine how hard it is to have to parent on your own, and handle everything while he is gone. Will his traveling slow down soon?

Yeah somewhat.
He is around at random times In the day but to pop in and out, usually for tools or supplies or do some computer work. That's for weekday w our house renovation/rental business. Weekends and parts of weekdays plus weeknight a are still consumed by our main job, a restaurant essentially.

I know he's trying to get a bunch of projects done pre-baby so he can be around more after, but to be honest, at this point they won't be completed so I really need him around a little more here to tackle some stuff.

We're lucky to have some flexibility but also there's a lot of responsibility as the boss and we wouldn't get anywhere if not self motivated/ self starters. I get ton because I feel I need him home a little more this week but I know whatever I ask him to put off this coming week still needs to be done and means time away when we have 2 kids. So... Which is better? Who knows. I think I need him around though because its the last chance to rest a little prior to utter chaos of newborn hours and the crazy hormone drops and swings after giving birth


Kiddo has gotten extra clingy this week and doesn't even want Dh to put her to bed when he's home. It's allllll about mommy. Usually she doesnt care which of us does and just enjoys the time. So, that's taxing as well. I was hoping we could get her a little less mom reliant this month because I thought Dh could be home more but he seems to be even more so. It's sweet and I'm glad she loves time with me, she won't always, but I need to be able to breathe a little.

I've been trying to get through to Dh that its like kid, dog, and pg belly are alwayyyyyyys on top of me (coop has always sensed pg too and is my shadow any time I've been pg where I can't move w/o tripping on him). Tried to put my shoes on today w everyone on top of me and I kind of list it. Dh looked at me like I was nuts and I tried to explain the overwhelming claustrophobia you feel esp when you have giant belly and then other beings on top if you

It's all good and will balance out. I'm just tired. I know he's working a ton to be the later but I think I need to steal him away a bit now. He's been sending over workers some days to help (yard etc) but then I feel like I have to be around and helping or managing what they're up to as well as kiddo. It's Nice, I just need to figure out how to use help and ask someone to do a job when it's someone I don't really know. (They work for our other main business, too, but hired since I haven't been there much and they don't know me from anyone and I feel weird asking them to lift or do things that I would normally do myself because I just feel wimpy asking. And the. Feel like maybe ppl will gossip about it at work like I'm a jerk ) my own issues but still, how I feel. I'm used to doing it all and I've just hit physical limitations and its hard to admit in real life.

[tdk2]

Helllllo night crew!

Yeah unisom is pretty mild and I don't think I have crazy dreams on it. Sometimes but not a ton. Usually just helps. I feel the same about pills esp because it feels like it'd be so easy to hooked on sleep aids and then make the prob worse by being too reliant upon them. Ginger, that sucks too - fix a prob, gain a prob .

Bon- I'm glad you could take some time. Ms is rough. It's a weird illness too. I've had friends wheelchair bound but then took a break from work and stress ad a few years later, they were able to perform in musicals. Crazy. (In an exciting way). Seems like they know a little more than20 yrs ago re ms but still seems to be a not well understood disease, medically. I'm so sorry you have it and have to deal with it.

Sparkling - boo to allergies. They blow. Hopefully the Zyrtec will knock you out if you find it!

[bonquiqui]

Ahh you poor thing!! I would feel the same way. To always feel like you have someone on top of you and needing you is hard. We all need our space, and that includes you. I know it's hard to ask for it, i am also plagued by guilt, but you deserve it.

That is tough also about creating a balance, because of course you are going to need him more after the baby, but you need him now too.

Are there any mother's day out things around? Just to have some time to yourself?

[bonquiqui]

Yeah, i try to tell myself that there are people that have it way worse than me, but yes it is a weird disease. Stress very much comes into play, and i think that lead to somewhat of a flare up.

The no sleep is unusual for me because before i had meds to keep me awake. I haven't taken those in many many months.

[tdk2]

I don't know of anything that doesn't involve me having kiddo with me.

Plus I really need some time at the house doing stuff like sorting and putting away baby clothes. Hanging shelves. Building furniture. Cleaning freezer out Prob is, no matter how much fun kid is having, when she sees me doing a job, she is DESPERATE to help. It's cute but not helpful. She drops everything, says "oooooooh!" And comes bolting over, pulls up a chair or brings out a toolbox and gets right in there. Most of my friends live a fair drive away and have little ones so I haven't asked them (plus when a kid comes over, my kid pulls EVERY toy out that she has to show them so its like an addl project). I might be able to get a neighbor friend over this weekend but I'm not sure. (I'm also not sure that c will stay and play w her or fight to get to same room as me if I'm still in the house hair in another room)

Not making excuses, just haven't figured out a way. I feel like in *just* not contagious from that nasty cough/bug I had for weeks and most of my friends are pg/have newborn/ or have a parent who's really sick right now. Several have parents undergoing chemo and another who would normally be one I could call is having major (scary) heart issues. So, ppl w immune compromised systems that I didn't want to expose to whatever it was that I couldn't kick.

[AHappierHour]

I'm just starting to realize I need to slow down and ask for help. It sucks because something I easy turns into a task. I kept telling myself this is only temporary and once the baby comes I won't be physically limited.

[tdk2]

Oct 3, 2013 4:29:17 GMT -5 bonquiqui said:

Yeah, i try to tell myself that there are people that have it way worse than me, but yes it is a weird disease. Stress very much comes into play, and i think that lead to somewhat of a flare up.

The no sleep is unusual for me because before i had meds to keep me awake. I haven't taken those in many many months.

Still doesn't help, esp when there aren't good remedies or answers.

I'd tell myself that when endometriosis gets bad but it still blows because you can't just "fix" and continue life as planned. (I get a break from endo while pg and nursing so that kind of outweighs all the puking and pg side effects lol)

[AHappierHour]

Can you hire a babysitter to watch her for a few hours while you work on a project? Some days I have my brother come over so I can get things done. He will take them outside to play and keep them entertained.

[tdk2]

Oct 3, 2013 4:34:32 GMT -5 AHappierHour said:

I'm just starting to realize I need to slow down and ask for help. It sucks because something I easy turns into a task. I kept telling myself this is only temporary and once the baby comes I won't be physically limited.

Sooooo hard to do though.
What week are you again? (On phone can't see.)

I understand though. Little jobs just become incredibly taxing. My knee started to reallllllky hurt more this past week which makes me want to cry ea time I do anything (knee that I tore the MCL and medial meniscus in about 15 years ago) flares up sometimes but there was a "pop" noise and feel in it last week when I was carrying kid up a small step and its been worse since. Wasn't as bad today but I don't think I lifted kiddo very much.

[tdk2]

Oct 3, 2013 4:38:40 GMT -5 AHappierHour said:

Can you hire a babysitter to watch her for a few hours while you work on a project? Some days I have my brother come over so I can get things done. He will take them outside to play and keep them entertained.

That's what I'm going to try this weekend w neighbor/friend. I may ask my brother as well but he'a kind of on his own program most of the time so I won't hold my breath.

[AHappierHour]

I'm 28 weeks.

[AHappierHour]

Oct 3, 2013 4:41:14 GMT -5 tdk2 said:

Oct 3, 2013 4:38:40 GMT -5 AHappierHour said:

Can you hire a babysitter to watch her for a few hours while you work on a project? Some days I have my brother come over so I can get things done. He will take them outside to play and keep them entertained.

That's what I'm going to try this weekend w neighbor/friend. I may ask my brother as well but he'a kind of on his own program most of the time so I won't hold my breath.

Hopefully you find a solution and get some help and sleep

[tdk2]

Lol good thought on brother though. I just emailed him and his wife as well to see.


Sparkling- you may have a surge of being ok again I think I remember around 28 weeks ea time I had an "omg how will we do all this" overwhelm feeling that lasted a week or 2 then got back to normal for awhile. Where I felt beat and like EVERYONE wanted more from me than I could offer or give. I know that's not the same experience for everyone but hopefully you'll feel a little better for awhile too.


I'll be ok. I just had to whine some of it out. I feel like I've wasted 9 months being sick and busy and am at crunch time w/o the relief or break I was kind of expecting around this time of year for us. Our lives just keep getting busier and busier. (We had a death this summer that impacted us personally, but also really really impacted out business commitments and time commitments. I've known sept and oct wouldn't look like I had anticipated, time-wise, but still is rough to actually deal with all the addl commitments that it entailed) I had been so excited to have this kid during a time of year that is usually slower for us and it just isn't slower.