Yesterday was one of those days....

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I felt like my anxiety was out of body. First, my DS was a pill all day. We had family photos taken at a park in the afternoon and just like Halloween, my son was a big pain in the rear. Screamed, Arched his back and ran away from us. I expected it but dude!! Total PIA! Put me in the worst mood for real. So DH decides to let the kids play at the playground nearby afterwards and I sat in my car to pout. Next thing I know DH is pounding on my window with a very bloody DS in his arms. He had nose planted on a metal step and blood was gushing everywhere. He was coughing it up and it was spraying. I felt like I was going to lose it. I've never seen so much blood.

So off to the ER we go. 3 hours of screaming later we see a doc who said its probably broken and there's really nothing they can do. "Give him Tylenol and expect black eyes tomorrow!"

Fuckin great! My poor kid. I knew he was in a ton of pain. He wouldn't swallow the tylenol and I felt hopeless. Of course during this whole fiasco my DD was being a sweetheart. Love her!

Reflecting back, my anxiety over the whole thing seriously scared me. I wanted to run away. The screaming made me literally go crazy. I understood why schizophrenic people go nuts from the voices in their head and dare I say this but I didn't like my kids in this moment. We got home late and I hadn't eaten in 6 hrs so my blood sugar was low. I'm trying to find excuses to why I nearly lost my mind.

I know this cant be normal right? I know I'm PMSing too but why do I feel like I still want to leave for a week to decompress? Anyone have a Xanax??

Sorry this is so long.....here's my cute kid at the ER like a champ. Makes me feel like a bigger asshole.

[glassofsyrah]

Oh man, what a day. That sounds horrible. I have days where I want to crawl out of my skin for absolutely no reason so I hear you.

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I don't drink wine, but after yesterday, your siggy is making me want to down a whole bottle.

[snickers]

I'm sorry
He's super cute though

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Thanks snickers

Man boys are so different than girls. I know this is the first of MANY ER visits. Not looking forward to more of this.

[bonquiqui]

I am sorry about your day, but he is super adorable 

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Do you get breaks to be by yourself for even an hour? Plus enough sleep?

I love my daughter but after a day of whining I need to go to the store, for a run, sit in the tub, anything to be by myself. And yes she was teething so I felt bad but it's so draining. You sound like you need some you time.

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Nov 8, 2013 14:25:51 GMT -5 @randomcdn said:

Do you get breaks to be by yourself for even an hour? Plus enough sleep?

I love my daughter but after a day of whining I need to go to the store, for a run, sit in the tub, anything to be by myself. And yes she was teething so I felt bad but it's so draining. You sound like you need some you time.

Yes! Thankfully, I'm at work today. Dead silence allllllll around me. I got enough sleep too. Thankfully he drank the tylenol spiked milk I gave him last night. Hallelujah!

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Nov 8, 2013 14:28:54 GMT -5 8675309 said:

Nov 8, 2013 14:25:51 GMT -5 @randomcdn said:

Do you get breaks to be by yourself for even an hour? Plus enough sleep?

I love my daughter but after a day of whining I need to go to the store, for a run, sit in the tub, anything to be by myself. And yes she was teething so I felt bad but it's so draining. You sound like you need some you time.

Yes! Thankfully, I'm at work today. Dead silence allllllll around me. I got enough sleep too. Thankfully he drank the tylenol spiked milk I gave him last night. Hallelujah!

I'm looking forward to resuming my 45 minute each way commute. iPod and hot coffee with no one sitting on me sounds heavenly. 

Its always harder if she stops STTN on me. Damn babies. She's up and all smiles and I'm struggling to make coffee. 

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Nov 8, 2013 14:22:15 GMT -5 puddleofgrace said:

I'm so sorry!! I had my first ER visit regarding a bloody head last weekend. I totally understand.

I'm glad he's ok but holy shit. I would want to run away too.

Hang in there. Try to do something nice for yourself this weekend. You deserve it!!

Thanks Puddles! Actually, I'm pretty excited for Sunday. DH and I are going to the Charge/Bronco game where I plan to get a comfortable buzz while tailgating. KID FREE!!

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Nov 8, 2013 14:55:07 GMT -5 kevin arnold said:

Oh no! I'm glad he's okay. Definitely take some time for yourself and decompress. Anxiety can totally build up to that out of control feeling, and it's awful when it does. Do you think you can find some time to do some relaxing? Just sit and have some quiet after the kids go to bed, and do some breathing and visualizations? I know it sounds corny, but practicing this regularly can really help keep anxiety in check.

Funny you mention this. Last night I did this exact thing. I sat there in silence and thought HOLY FUCK what a day. It's what made me freak out that my anxiety was THAT out of control. I may have also had about 3 Smirnoff Ices.