Well I made it to Florida.

[sassycat]

It's not a vacay unfortunately.   After hours of delays, and almost rejected at border I made it to my brother's home.

It was a bit of a shock  although he waited for his little sister to come to him. I was unsure whether he truly wanted me here or not. Him being awake was my answer.

Ladies, I really thought I was prepared for what I was walking into, but man, seeing my big brother  my hero  almost completely bedridden and knowing he is probably within a few weeks of losing his battle. 

I am sorry this is long, but I am sitting here after giving him his snack, and asked if he needed any pain medication ( he was grabbing his head)   he just said no sis " the end is near nothing will help me now"     I am now sitting here in tears, hoping he doesn't pass before his wife gets home.  She has to work, as she is the only income and this is the reason I am here.  

I just wanted to vent a little, and this is the place I can do this without other people thinking I am weak. I have to be strong for her , him and the kids.      This is one of the toughest things I have ever had to do saying goodbye to the person who had my back for my whole life, was at my bedside the two times I almost died. Even though we hadn't talked and weren't always close he is the only one that got me.    

Thanks for letting me vent, while I sit silently in tears,  just having to wipe my tears and go in with a happy face and make sure he is comfortable.

I am not asking for prayers for him, as he is not a believer and always told me this is killing me so prayers aren't going to help.   that was a bit of a chuckle on my part, as we have a brother who is a minister.    

 

[sparksfly]

I am sending hugs to you and your family.

[cuddlyevil]

{{{{HUG}}}}

[neonpink]

Hugs and thoughts to your brother, you, his wife and kids.

[tiramisu]

((((((((((sassycat))))))))))

[sassycat]

Thank you all. It is pretty sad, but on a good note of this, I can go outside and look at the water in nice weather and cry and chill, so at least I have a bit of comfort in that. Where I live there is over a foot of snow. So sun is much better

[gault]

Good thoughts and virtual hugs coming your way.

[partiallysunny]

I'm so very sorry. I don't think anything can prepare you for such a thing.

[captainmel]

I am so so sorry you are in this situation. You are being an amazing support system for him and his wife right now and they need you.

[sassycat]

Y'all are amazing ladies! I can only be on at limited times, as i have to be right there. So excuse me if it is a long time between posts. It is kind of a hit and miss these days when I can get on.
THanks again for all the hugs, they turly are appreciated.

[sparksfly]

You take care of what you need to and just know that we are right here for you whenever you need us. More hugs.