Do you ever just have a mini breakdown for no good reason?

[toepick]

I was just cleaning up after dinner and suddenly burst into tears.  And now I can't stop crying.  No real trigger - I think I am just tired of doing fucking everything by myself.  I just feel overwhelmed and lonely and frustrated.  

It feels like every divorced / single woman on here is having decent luck meeting guys, and I'm so happy for you all - but  here I am 6 years later as lonely I as ever was.  I've been putting myself out there the best I can but I have just given up.  I don't really have many friends here, so no way to organically meet other new people, and online dating just isn't working.  I have tons of first dates and no seconds, so it's clearly my problem.  I feel like I'm a good person with a lot to offer, but have just reconciled myself to being alone.  I'll be 39 in a few months, so clearly I'm not going to have kids, and I'm trying to reconcile myself to that as well.  I guess I just feel a major failure in life.

And now I feel like a fucking loser for admitting this all out loud.   

[lilafowler]

This happens to me a lot. I'm medicated and my cuckoo nurse just suggested separate therapy.

Don't feel bad-I've been there.

[hisno1girl]

Several weeks ago I had a meltdown (and I HATE that word) in freakin' Menard's because I couldn't decide on a paint color. I started crying in the store and ran out to my car and cried until my eyes were swollen.

Sometimes I think we just need to cry.

[copperboom]

I just locked myself in the bathroom and cried. I have no idea why. I feel much better now though.

[Deleted]

You are NOT a failure. There is more than one way to succeed at life. (hugs)

[kiminky]

Yes, it's like tension builds up and I have to let it out now and then with a good cry.

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[anlo]

(((hugs)))

I cried while watching Home Alone last night. I felt pretty pathetic.

Hang in there.

[W.T.Faulkner]

Once I cried when BF told me I was holding the cat in a strange way.

[LeggsBenedict]

Dec 9, 2013 21:16:47 GMT -5 W.T.Faulkner said:

Once I cried when BF told me I was holding the cat in a strange way.

you are so cute.

[MWOS]

if it were me, I'd get medicated. Yup.

[toepick]

Thanks for the kind responses - I had stopped crying until Tessann's version of Bridge Over Troubled Waters, but I think I'll take a bath and go to bed.

[W.T.Faulkner]

Dec 9, 2013 21:19:42 GMT -5 LeggsBenedict said:

Dec 9, 2013 21:16:47 GMT -5 W.T.Faulkner said:

Once I cried when BF told me I was holding the cat in a strange way.

you are so cute.

Is cute really the right word?  lol

[cabbage10]

I have these more than I would like to admit..

Example: at the Christmas parade Saturday just randomly burst into tears.

More often though its something stupid like the clothes hanger in the closet gets stuck and its just too much so I sob on the closet floor.

[sake]

yeah, my default reaction to basically everything is to cry. I get it from my mom.

[marylennox]

Of course. Fuck hormones. lol.

I do this too. But I agree with pp, try to give yourself a break - you're not a failure. I hope you feel better.

[emjacobs]

Yep in front of my boss last week during my review. Triggered by him telling me that I have been doing well.

[aussiecrush]

If crying for no reason is a sign of failure, I'm screwed. Sometimes a day, week or month just wears on you. Hope you get some rest tonight and start fresh tomorrow. You aren't a failure, just human.

[gault]

Crying can be very therapeutic. Please don't feel bad about that. And you are SO not a failure.

Don't put pressure on yourself and mentally limit what you can or cannot do just because you haven't reached them during a certain age. You've got a lot of life and living left to do and not all of it is predictable or falls under a timetable.

[isabel]

Dec 9, 2013 21:16:47 GMT -5 W.T.Faulkner said:

Once I cried when BF told me I was holding the cat in a strange way.

I'm seriously giggling at this.

toepick, I'm really sorry you're having a rough time. ((hugs))

[Gato]

Dec 9, 2013 21:33:27 GMT -5 toepick said:

Thanks for the kind responses - I had stopped crying until Tessann's version of Bridge Over Troubled Waters, but I think I'll take a bath and go to bed.

That was an amazing performance.

I get that way and I am happily married.  Little things just build and then suddenly I am mad at everything.  Followed by crying and fantasizing about leaving my ungrateful family and becoming a Buddhist monk. lol

You know, I have a few friends who are spectacularly quirky who have paired up quite well later in life.  And some who are single but have found fulfillment in other ways.  So don't give up searching if you don't want to, but being married is not the end all/be all.