Just had a reminder of my broken dreams :(

[heavenly]

I formed a special bond with a person who interpreted for the birth of my son. She had a son not too long before I did and both of our sons share the same name. We have been having a lot of dinner/play dates. She was super shocked about my divorce because she keeps saying that he seemed to love me very much through action. Despite that, she really helped me through my divorce and encouraged me to move on and being a true friend.

Anyways, she announced to me yesterday that she is pregnant with her second. I am really happy for her. This made me cry though, I remember that cozy warm feeling I had right after I had my son and with my eh being a family. I thought life was really wonderful and couldn't wait to have another baby to make our family grow bigger.

Good thing this sadness was short lived but still, it was a reminder how my dreams didn't go how I had hoped it would and I have to have a different dream now.

[letyourselfgo]

((Hug)) I am like that constantly.

[margaritagirl]

It gets better with time. I'm a mom to an only, which wasn't my "goal" or "plan" either, but I've gradually accepted what my life has become and embraced all the wonderfulness. Sure, sometimes pregnant women and babies make me feel a bit of longing, but I wouldn't go back to my unhappy marriage to satisfy that goal by any means. A year and a half later, and I am in the best place I've been in the longest time. Gratitude journals can help on days like this! (((HUGS)))

[heavenly]

Thank you ladies for letting me know I am not alone. I am feeling good today. Last night my son just really wanted to snuggle with me on the couch and he was laughing a lot. This made me feel good.

[aaxoxo75]

If this helps, at least you have a son. I dont think I would find a hubby soon and I dont have much time left to have a baby, I am turning 37 on Sunday and that gets me depressed sometimes.